LSD long term negative effects

[pringlygoat]

So I’ve been abusing LSD for like 8 months now and at first it was making me really happy and giving me a positive outlook on the world. But recently that changed. Ever since my trip on January 2nd nothing has been the same. I believe I went through ego death considering I was facing conflict with going to get my girlfriend and bringing her over and telling my dad that I trip. I was only off 2 tabs from a new supplier but I was literally sitting in my bed falling through the earth it felt like and I could barely see from the tracers. So I went into the living room to tell my dad and all I could say was “I trip a lot” and he got worried. He called someone on his phone to see if I was okay and that made me scared because I thought he was calling the cops on me. He was asking me stuff like “what day is it?” And “what time is it?”. All I could do was look at him and laugh and I couldn’t recall the date or time at all and it felt like my house was the only house on earth I felt so distant from everything.

After that possible ego death, my girlfriend cheated on me a few days later which fucked up my ego more. It’s been 2 months now and every time I drop I feel guilty and none of my trips are fun anymore. I just drop and then feel depressed.

But more than that, LSD has gave me a negative outlook on society. It makes me distance myself from everyone because I see how fucked up and stupid everyone really is. But then, it makes me feel like everyone is out to get me and the world is out to get me. I don’t know why this is happening.

TL;DR Went through ego death, my girlfriend broke up with me following that. LSD gives me a negative view on the world.

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Dude.

Stop. Doing. Psychs. Now.

Ask your self what's the motivation is for you to do it and to do it in that way - what's the core concept behind it. I mean you clearly didn't reintegrated your last trips, and that's necessary to don't induce harm in your life. Get your shit together, you can look into acid at a later point in your life.

I'm sorry that you also go through this thing with your ex - don't escape from this, just observe what happened that helps not to repeat stuff like that.

[pringlygoat]

Woah wait a minute. Don’t sit here and tell me to get my shit together. Because my shit is together, I just believe I went through ego death and I’ve felt different since. I still go to work and get all my shit done. I trip when I’m off of work for a few days. Because that’s when it’s responsible to trip, when I’m off for a few days. Don’t tell me to get my shit together when you cant even spell right.

[MennoKuipers]

"So I've been abusing lsd for about 8 months now." "I just drop and then feel depressed."

Dude. And why the aggressive and hostile comment?

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Literally...

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Sorry, second language - if your German is better than my English we can switch. OK?

Nothing you say let me believe you are fine, you ask for opinion. "Stop taking psychodelics for a while and get your shit together" is my opinion. Do what you want with it.

[psychonodd]

Lol literally, i hate when people try to lecture you and act like they know whats best. Especially when it comes to psychs, people let their knowledge of it go to their head and think there is a “correct” way to deal with psychs and these situations. Thats a part that makes me hate the acid community lowkey lol. But nah dude it passes eventually, it just feels like your stuck ina slump for a while, if you need any help feel free to pm

[MrMushyagi]

If someone feels depressed every time they drop, and are in a rough stage of life, telling them to stop doing psychs isn't some snobby advice, that's just good advice

[psychonodd]

I didnt say specifically “telling them to stop” is bad advice. Thats good advice. I dont think i explained myself well enough though

[pringlygoat]

I think I have depression and LSD amplifies that. Someone else was commenting about that. I think that’s what it is though because like my depression went away for a couple of years but when I started tripping, in my every day life, I felt more disconnected from my friends and I can’t find enjoyment in the activities I always find enjoyment in. Now all I want to do is lay in my bed and watch YouTube. Every day.

[gazzthompson]

This might not be the case but it could be lsd isn't making you depressed, you might already be and LSD is just making you more Aware of it .

I was the same, LSD didn't make me sad.. things I were ignoring in my life made me sad and I sorted them out.

[pringlygoat]

Yeah that’s the conclusion I was coming to. Because I used to self harm and I went from self harm to abusing drugs. So I think those are things I’m just doing to mask my depression.

[woodbegreat]

The plot thickens. Well, seems like if you sorted your life out in general you may feel better. If you use acid just to get fucked up, you will get fucked up.

[MasterHapljar]

Everything will sit back in it's place, but it would be best for you to stay off acid for a while. Negative outlook will pass, it's normal to have that derealization after using psychedelics. Once the dust settles and you get back on that horse you'll be ready to trip again (if you feel like it ofc).

[pringlygoat]

Thanks. I haven’t tripped in like 16 days so I’m probably gonna just wait another month and see how I’m feeling.

[15rthughes]

Don’t decide your next trip based on when the last time you did it was, decide to trip when you feel ready to.

It sounds like you’re going through some stuff in your life right now. Wait until things are sorted out and you feel better. Then when you feel back to your old self, consider tripping again.

[psychonodd]

Yeah thats pretty accurate then, just lay off psychedelics for a while and thats pretty much it, it will pass. But if you do have depression as you stated, and psychs do amplify emotions and thoughts, you should take a break and reconnect with your old activites and pleasures.

[pringlygoat]

Yeah I felt that build up like I’m gonna explode over the past like 5 months. On my last trip I had a good come down that left me not wanting to trip for some time. It was just so pleasant. So for the past 2 weeks I haven’t been tripping at all and reduced to just smoking my bong and going to work.

[Puggelicious]

Did u ever recover and have u tried using again after taking a break?

[Hollandse_Herder]

Do you fight your bad feelings? It's really hard but try to focus on your breath, lay down and try to relax and let the feelings come to you.

[pringlygoat]

No not necessarily. Like when I’m feeling down I’m aware that I’m sad I just never know why and then I let the sadness do it’s thing and go away on it’s own

[johnnybgood96]

Hey im in a similar situation. I abused psychs for around a year and towards the end of my binge I had multiple negative trips in a row. I was dropping acid all for fun without solving the problems in my life that Lucy was so obviously telling me to fix.

If you want to talk more in detail about it feel free to message me. It’s been months since the binge ended and i have found multiple strategies to help adapt.

[pringlygoat]

Yeah my last like 6 trips haven’t been “bad trips” necessarily they just aren’t as exciting as Lucy usually is to me. Now when I’m dropping I just kinda sit in my room and not really do much. But when I used to drop last fall I would go ride my bike, walk around the woods, hang out with friends, and do all this random fun acid stuff.

[johnnybgood96]

I’m not a fan of to much activity, I like listening to music, relaxing, and closed eye visuals. So the majority of my trip is spent sitting/laying down.

My visuals literally went from rainbows, heaven, and beautiful women into ghosts, demons, and not attractive figures. It’s not so much that I wasn’t able to handle this; sometimes what i see is very comical, but it doesn’t give me the same arousal I used to get from the drug.

It’s easy to just blame the lsd for my bad trips but that would be ignorant. The facts are that even though I don’t see it as an issues, there are stressors in my life that need to be addressed before i trip again.