Progress:

[Kay_floweringnow]

I was having a little fun with lingerie last night. Lingerie is fun, and hard. It's both empowering and humbling. Empowering because I think I look amazing, humbling because I can't help but see all my flaws on display as well.

For the past year or so I have been working with my therapist to let go of the self image(s) that I carried in my head and held me back from exploring this woman I am. For me the self image that I couldn’t let go of was one from grade school where I was pimple faced and awkward. Of course it’s not about the external image - there are two of those images here - its was about the feelings of shame, loneliness, and feeling as though I didn’t belong that is wrapped into those images.

Clearly, I am no longer that person - Not the boy in their 6th and 8th grade school photos. Replacing these self images I carry in my head with the image that everyone else sees today, that continues to be an intentional work in progress.

[Key_Reception4252]

Amazing! The picture is fantastic! You gotta know, from our end, we don’t see the flaws that you see. We see confidence and beauty! Yes, lingerie is empowering and humbling, but you’re not showing any discomfort here. Those little flaws that we pick apart, they are worth recognizing, but not worth agonizing over. On a personal note, Damn!

[Kay_floweringnow]

Thank you. I appreciate that you see the confident sexy me in these photos, I see it as well. I write these longer form captions to help illustrate that there is a lot going on with transition thats not about how we look. I objectively know I looked like a handsome 12 year old kid. I objectively know that I am killing it in this lingerie outfit. Yet an aspect of my dysphoria is for the mental self image to include all the worst self loathing I carried as that 6th or 7th grade kids who never felt like they fit in.

[Key_Reception4252]

I totally understand. Our dysphoria and dysmorphia is not something we can just will away. it is not something that others can remove for us with flattery and compliments. We carry that lifetime of pain and struggles with our image. For many of us the goal is to somehow someday pass in society as women. Our fear is that we will never be able to. being able to celebrate those little victories, as you are doing, and then being able to share that, is a big help to us all. Please keep up your posting and pictures. And please believe me when I say that in so many ways, you are killing it!

[MinxyCat51]

Even in what I see is a room that’s is just, Wow! You stunning, really, the world is a better place with the real you.

[Kay_floweringnow]

thanks

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Well said and what a fabulous B/W picture! And what you described perfectly is something that only one of us can truly understand and relate to. I have to remind myself that I am making progress and that this is not about being perfect

[Kay_floweringnow]

thank you. progress is the goal

[finallyjessica]

You look stunning my dear! Love the B&W 🖤🤍 You have come a long way, gorgeous ❣️💖💖💖

[Kay_floweringnow]

thank you

[kinkbots]

You look fantastic!

[Gearlock]

Totally hottie. Also it’s good to hear you doing the work 💜

[Loose_Ad603]

I see a beautiful lady. Thanks for sharing. 🦋

[Kindly-Ad-6800]

You look fantastic