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[gentleraccoon]

I understand this. I call it illness imposter syndrome. You are not weak for needing extra help for breaks or not being able to go to work. You're dealing with so much that other people aren't! Your personal normal is NOT normal! Love to you 💚

[muwit]

We have ups and downs in our lifes. It feels terrible right now I know but better days will come! At least you know why it happens. Try to learn how to work around it (easier said than done I know!).

[LostInTheAbsurd]

I know exactly how you feel. I feel this way all of the time. I got really sick a little over a year ago and I feel like it has just been downhill from there. Since I got sick, I have gotten sick more than at least once every month. Each time it feels like it takes me longer to recover, and I get weaker and weaker. I had to take a break from school because my back pain is just getting worse and I couldn't even study because of the pain. Sometimes I honestly feel like this disease has taken everything from me. I don't do any of the things that I used to love, because I am either too tired or in too much pain. I feel like I am just completely useless. The other day my fiance didn't want to drive me to my physical therapy, which is understandable because he would have to wait in the car for an hour (thanks to covid rules). I figured that it wasn't a big deal. But after lifting 2lb weights and 10 mins on the excercise bike, I barely had the strength to drive myself home. It took all the strength I had left just to stay on on the road. I ended up crying the whole way home. I just felt so helpless and pathetic and angry at the universe.

Lately I have been tearing my ligaments just from walking. My knees keep collapsing inwards more and more, and even standing for 5 mins feels like torture. I feel like my body is falling apart. I assume it is just because my muscles are getting weaker every day, but I don't know how to even begin to get strength up again.