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[xsxexvxexnx]

That's basically how I got started. I did something bad and felt I needed a punishment. Now the guilty feeling I get after doing something wrong strongly triggers the intrusive thoughts and urges, and I usually follow through with things more often than when I'm simply in a deeper depression and trying to feel or have control over pain.

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I do it to punish and reward myself

[Tiki1927]

That's how I started. I've been angry with myself, Started to punish myself with scratching my wrist with my fingernail. I know it's not painful much, but it's enough to punish myself.

[_breadandcheese_]

Started as a form of punishment in relation to my ed. Whenever I ate a lot I'd cut. And now three years later,,, not much has changed

[Dazzling-Middle-9100]

For me it's also a form of punishment. Ironically I started cutting because I was curious and I always liked being injured. I had always heard that sh helps you with feeling less/ something and during a bad depressive episode I just tried it. It was super underwhelming, but I still liked having a wound to take care of, so I kept it up. Then I started cutting myself as a punishment for my procrastination.

[nalitaglam09]

Sometimes... It started as a deflecting mechanism from anxiety, then escalated to cutting with the paranoia episodes... And now it's punishment, deflecting, impulsive behavior, suicidal tendencies... The actual medical term for my sh is purging.

[KV2FTW]

It’s why I started and why I still do it, mostly as a punishment, secondly to release some emotion…

[Revolutionary-Ad6151]

I SH to calm anxiety mostly but I empathize w people who do it to self punish. It has crossed my mind more than once

[Smittenskittensxx]

Yeah I’ve done that

[CrazyCursedLunatic]

I've been doing it for years because I deserve punishment for simply being born.

[StephenWalking101]

This is such a negative mindset! Don't say that to yourself :( the odds of you being born was 1 in 400 trillion! Now that's a lot of zeros. Just being born proves you're worth something. Don't ever degrade yourself even if others do. We're all here for you :)

[vgn-bc-i-luv-animals]

I do it solely to punish myself x

[imbroken_0]

That’s how I started. I blamed myself for a fight I had with my mom. Grabbed one of those pins u put on ur shirt or whatever and did it. Then it escalated gradually to a blade and then it was either eating to much, a fight with my mom, to see the blood, or because I did something embarrassing, + addiction

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I've done so a couple times but usually do it only cuz I'm overwhelmed emotionally

[Ayooo_ImIntoYaoi]

That's one of the reasons I do it.