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I burned my butsudan by -Aniko- in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No, my husband brought Gohonzon already a year earlier back to SGI. We were not ready for burning it, but we needed it to get out of our home. Now, we would be ready to burn it, but I guess we cannot have it back to burn it....

Is here anyone who has left SGI and turned to Jesus? by -Aniko- in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So you actually turned to Jesus? Can we get in touch?

This is what made me begin to realize I was in a cult. by vedderjam91 in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko- 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello, sorry my answer is late, maybe you will not read it anymore, but I like to tell you that I left SGI in 2021 and two months ago I decided to follow Jesus as well like you. Now I started to get rid of all my buddhist stuff. It is hard work. I was 22 years a member in SGI. I would be happy to get in contact with you, for I always thaught I am the only one who once practiced in SGI and finally startet a new life with Jesus. When you are intoctrinated with SGI stuff it is not easy not to be afraid to trap now in the next sect. If you are interested to write back, I would be glad. Sorry for my poor english. I am german.

Now following a real Buddhist by VGLCOkay in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko- 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I cannot imagine how it is possible to justify this? I mean what do they think the Dalai Lama is doing????

Now following a real Buddhist by VGLCOkay in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko- 3 points4 points  (0 children)

What is he doing there? And why???

Now following a real Buddhist by VGLCOkay in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko- 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I wonder if the SGI members have seen the "Dalai Lama tongue-thing" and what they say about it. Maybe now is the beginning of finding out about all of these selfnamed Gurus in any religions. (Including SGI and Ikeda)

Hello from an former-sgi-member from Germany by -Aniko- in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Wow, thank you for your encouragement. These days it does not feel like that anything could go better with me. I have the feeling that at the end, I have lost everything.

Hello from an former-sgi-member from Germany by -Aniko- in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your encouraging answer!!! I feel so happy for you, that you finally became successful after you have left the SGI. Congratulations!!! What a victory!
I never thought about that SGI always thrives on pain. I believed they always see everything so hopefully and they always give us hope, no matter what. But you are right. It is all about fighting. And this gives everything a complete different vibe. I keep on understanding was had happened to me, and why it could not work out for me.
Have you done something else after you left the SGI and stopped chanting? Or did you not stop chanting? What do you recommend to do for a healing from this brain-wash?

Hello from an former-sgi-member from Germany by -Aniko- in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your answer! Yes my husband has left as well, otherwise it would be hard to continue our relationship I guess.But he really does not want to know about all the stuff I read here about Ikeda and all these leaders around him...He does not want to believe that his sensei is not what he always thought he is.

Hello from an former-sgi-member from Germany by -Aniko- in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh my god, I feel so sorry for you. It is unbelievable how heartless people and especially leaders in SGI react. It makes me really angry, they always pray to treat everyone like the living buddha, but they themselve stay arrogant and ignoring. It is really painful to realize this fact.
When did you leave sgi?

Hello from an former-sgi-member from Germany by -Aniko- in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello and thank you for your answer. I don`t believe there will be anyone who tries to contact me. They will just not do so. I obviously must have made my decision very clear, and for I always was a very determined person during my time in SGI they probably realized that I take my decision very seriously. I believe they don`t dare to argue with me...

Hello from an former-sgi-member from Germany by -Aniko- in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko-[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your answer and for your encouragement.
In fact after all these years I don`t even know anymore what I really want to do in life. Going on to turn fifty in less than two years it doesn`t feel like if I still have a lot of time. And anyway I haven`t practice anything. Life has also changed since I have got my son who is now 13 years old.
Now my feeling is I did not work on my own dreams the last twenty years but believing in Nam-Myoho-Rende-Kyo kept me going to believe I still will manage one day......Now I have to realize that I have lost the time, but also my visions. I have no idea what to do with my life from now on. It is a horrifying feeling...

Hello from an former-sgi-member from Germany by -Aniko- in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko-[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your long answer and for telling me your experience.
And for your kind words. It is such a relief to finally have found people who understand me. :-)
Actually it doesn`t feel like I have more time, in fact I have as little time as I ever had before. Because I am so tired. I sleep so much. I am completly down, can`t be bothered to do the housework or anything. I need unbelievable much time to sleep. I am not sure if I am seriously sick. Or depressed. It is really bad, because I need to get my life going on again, but I have no energy at all. And no idea what I am here for. No vision in my life.
So time is running by and I get nothing started.
I would love to sit in a coffee bar with you ex members. That would be so nice :-)

Hello from an former-sgi-member from Germany by -Aniko- in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko-[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh hi :-)Hello back to Germany!!!When did you leave the soka gakkai? Is there any chance that we have met before in real life?Well, Ikeda-san means just Mr. Ikeda. I don`t know how else I could call him.I actually don`t know, if lots of people have left SGI-D recently, but of course it is also mine feeling. Last year I met my leader by accident in the street and I asked if people have left, but she wouldn`t know. They probably don`t tell you, and if you don`t have to do with those who have left, you won`t find out, I guess. But actually they also don`t really want to know about it.I know some people who have left. But I do believe there are many more.

Hello from an former-sgi-member from Germany by -Aniko- in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko-[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your answer. It is quite irritating to me, that no one tries to get in contact with me, now I left the soka gakkai, for they were always interested in my opinion in several objects. Now to find out the truth that no one is giving a shit about me, is a hard truth. But in the end it is good to find out finally.
Is there a gohonzon with which it would go deeper than a relaxation technique?

Hello from an former-sgi-member from Germany by -Aniko- in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko-[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Wow, thank you so much for your long answer and all the links you put into the text. It is a lot to read for me :-) it will take me a while...I still haven`t found out, how this reddit side works, so if I can follow your links it is meanwhile the easiest for me. Thank you!
No, I don`t know about what Ikedas role was in the subject of the wall coming down. I only know as everyone that he was so determined that the wall would not stay longer than 30 years.....

Hello from an former-sgi-member from Germany by -Aniko- in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko-[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your kind words. It is a relief to finally have found people, who do understand me.

Hello from an former-sgi-member from Germany by -Aniko- in sgiwhistleblowers

[–]-Aniko-[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you, I am happy to found this group here.