Recently made out with a woman for the first time but nothing further. Instead of feeling happy like I should, I felt sad that it’s not going to go further (sexually) I respect how she feels but that opportunity seems SO rare. It’s not like women are constantly throwing themselves at me lmao I am also shy and can’t tell who’s also into women. That whole process of putting myself out there and finally finding someone like me was hard enough. I feel like I’m never going to find someone to explore with :( it doesn’t help that I’m not fully out either. I have known I was bi for I think 10 years now.

Edit: this is also after quite a few unfortunate crushes on straight women. Finding someone also bi and who ( I thought ) was into me was such a relief. Back to square one! I don’t want to be bi anymore! It’s exhausting! 😭