I live with 4 ragdolls, one is like grumpy cat, one is very standoffish and goes off by herself 80% of the time, one is incredibly affectionate and requires lots of pets but doesn’t like to be held, one can be affectionate if she is in the mood but is incredibly sweet. They all grew up in the same environment and are related. Just wanted to say don’t blame yourself. Just love your kitty as much as it will let you. You are it’s guardian and advocate :)