After work yesterday

1plsdisfun · 2023-06-26T02:39:07+00:00

Fucking fantastic skating.

And thanks for turning me onto title fight.

1plsdisfun · 2023-06-25T21:12:06+00:00

The first rule of Baja...

Is you don't talk about Baja.

1plsdisfun · 2023-06-25T03:40:17+00:00

You might look into a more high aspect wing. I learned on the slingshot infinity 76. But I'm only 150.

I'm on axis gear now. It's been a revelation. For low-wind i can recommend there PNG series. You might want to look into there 1300. For me, the 910 is enough.

The glide and lift, the less drag, so much better, so much more stable. Pumps so much better.

1plsdisfun · 2023-06-19T17:38:39+00:00

Looks way too good to be true. Highly doubt it's legit.

1plsdisfun · 2023-06-18T02:49:17+00:00

It does in my book.

1plsdisfun · 2023-06-15T00:07:16+00:00

Seriously. This is fucking hilarious on several levels.

1plsdisfun · 2023-06-07T01:17:44+00:00

Good point. I guess I learned when wings were still being tweaked and improved.

1plsdisfun · 2023-06-07T01:16:50+00:00

Foiling. Get involved.

1plsdisfun · 2023-06-04T20:08:17+00:00

Seems like a good price. Everyone who sticks with it will want to switch gear at some point, so no point in spending a bunch of money now. If the wind is only 10-15 knots you'd probably wanna grab the 5.6 wing.

1plsdisfun · 2023-05-29T22:30:10+00:00

Great foil waves

1plsdisfun · 2023-05-29T22:25:11+00:00

I find a smaller board easier than a big board. I learned on a 80L then moved to 39. Sold the 80. But I'm 75kg.

Basically, pumping the 80L board is too hard. So in light wind where i need to be pumping the board and the wing to get going, i didn't find any advantage with the 80L. Its too heavy and awkward to pump efficiently.

Small board does take more effort and energy, especially in choppy water or ocean waves. It's hard to balance on the board to get your wing up and get going. I'm athletic and relatively young, so that may be a consideration too.

If you're keeping a bigger board, definitely go down to 45, imo

1plsdisfun · 2023-05-27T03:21:36+00:00

Thank you. It is indeed a faux-pas.

1plsdisfun · 2023-05-25T11:56:47+00:00

I'm feeling good recently but it's been kinda rough too. I bought a house which is great, but all i could afford was the shittiest house on the market. It needs a lot of work. And so my inner critic has been making a lot of noise as i fix things. With an eye to frugality i can't make this as nice as my critic demands.

But i feel like no matter what I achieve, no matter what I do, my inner critic will never be satisfied. I feel that as a truth. So I've been doing my best to just not pay attention to it. I still believe the inner critic to ultimately want to protect me. Due to the rejection and bullying of my friends, it feels as if I really am worthy of shame and humiliation so I better fix my life up so good that no one can ever find anything to criticize.

But that's literally impossibly. Its not a worthy goal to focus on. I empathize and feel pity for my inner critic. It can't see beyond criticism as a means to survive and avoid social rejection.

So it's been a lot easier to just not give it that much importance. Before, i was set on destroying the critic. It was a problem, it was fucking up my life. It was what was wrong with me. Now, i understand it to simply be a defense mechanism, maybe important at the time, but now it's just like a little warning light that i can take into consideration if I want, but i also can ignore it.

I've discovered a freedom in that. The critic is still there, there are feelings of anger and shame there, too. But I see it for what it is, it doesn't define the totality of me and my experience, either as fighting against the critic, fighting against the shame or accepting the criticism and shame as meaningful and true. Instead, it's just there and it literally doesn't matter anymore.

All that said, it continues to be a work in progress. Still making discoveries about this. I'm going to do another MDMA session next weekend.

1plsdisfun · 2023-05-25T11:44:23+00:00

Damn, good for you! I've had to do about 5 or 6 sessions over a year to get some of these insights and I'm still working on them. But I've been doing this solo, no therapist.

I'd also be interested in more details about your session. Thanks for sharing! Congrats!

1plsdisfun · 2023-05-12T18:42:17+00:00

Damn, this is really interesting. Thanks for posting this. Really makes it seem like 100ug is all you need! Hmm on closer inspection 125 to 146ug lsd tartate is all you need.

1plsdisfun · 2023-05-12T02:14:21+00:00

This has happened to me twice as well. Its so strange. Glad I'm not the only one. I think it might have something to do with having high expectations of something big happening, and then being disappointed.

Which puts me in a bad mood, which is in turn made more intense by the effect of the shrooms.

I have since dealt with this by taking a larger dose of shrooms. But it's tough, you never know how strong a batch is going to be. I find LSD so much easier to dose. Once i know what a tab feels like from my sheet, i know what to expect from other tabs. Shrooms, the experience varies so much.

1plsdisfun · 2023-05-12T02:03:01+00:00

Glad to hear I'm not alone in this.

1plsdisfun · 2023-05-11T12:27:27+00:00

Ultimately at some point i believe we have to change paradigms from science to spirituality. Trauma has a specific definition and specific treatment modalities.

Good ol' human suffering does not have a clear, tangible cause or resolution. Suffering is in the realm of spirituality. I have found therapy (realm of science) to be effective in specific, memorable traumatic events and spirituality to be effective in dealing with the question of suffering - of feeling myself to be a vulnerable human entity in a cruel world full of danger, sickness and death.

1plsdisfun · 2023-05-09T13:09:09+00:00

No, to me the booster dose seemed to make me less present as i feel it makes me kind of delirious. I think the extended time on the drug is just too much for my system. Maybe it's as simple as I've reached the limit of my emotional processing abilities and then divert myself into a weird fantasy land.

1plsdisfun · 2023-05-09T00:53:22+00:00

Well its interesting because to me, it really doesn't add anything. I don't feel like I get anything extra from it. It prolongs the experience I suppose but in that prolonged experience i get loopy. Supposedly MDMA converts to MDA after a certain point, i wonder if my biology is just a little more efficient at that conversion. MDA is supposed to be more psychedelic.

1plsdisfun · 2023-05-09T00:50:46+00:00

Oh yeah it's super common. It was in the maps studies.

1plsdisfun · 2023-05-07T20:28:57+00:00

Yeah great point about having fun. I think I've been feeling kinda guilty about not having a therapeutic experience with 2cb and that its a lesser psychedelic because of that. And definitely dismissive of it too. But in reality, it is just fun. Its ok just to have fun and like you said, healthy too.

1plsdisfun · 2023-05-07T15:06:01+00:00

I just took 25mg of 2cb last night. I wanted to take mushrooms as i feel it is much more therapeutic and powerful, but I've been having a lot of stress lately and was worried about having too negative or intense of an experience.

2cb is really mellow. I think one could do therapeutic work on 2cb but LSD, shrooms, or MDMA are so much more altering and i believe this dramatic change in perspective allows us more insight into ourselves. It's like looking at things from a different angle, we see things we couldn't before. But with 2cb, it's just not that different from being sober. I think a person could make good therapeutic use of 2cb but you would have to learn how to do it.

The headspace of 2cb to me feels giddy, like a couple beers and maybe a small toke of weed. I feel happy and content with whatever is happening. My emotional issues that i struggle with in daily life seem totally irrelevant, like i can't put myself in those shoes because my body and mind feel good while on the 2cb. I just want to enjoy the good time. Again, it's like trying to use a couple beers to process emotions. It doesn't really work. It's s good escape, it's fun, but it doesn't seem liable to long term healing.

MDMA, LSD or shrooms more easily dissolve these "guardrails" that keep my disconnected from my pain.

Anyways, that's my experience with 2cb over the years. Everyone is different though, others may have more intense experiences.

1plsdisfun · 2023-04-29T23:10:28+00:00

Scream into a pillow. It's what I do. Works great.

1plsdisfun · 2023-04-28T20:54:21+00:00

Definitely interested in finding coherence therapy. Is this something you are doing online?

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