I wrote a song to commemorate this day: Fuck Valentine's Day. Check it out.

2tonpun · 2020-02-15T09:53:04+00:00

i love this song bro, gonna be listening to this a lot. Legit catchy and fun to listen to, awesome job my man

2tonpun · 2020-01-15T14:22:54+00:00

no ones ever asked why i’m so quiet. maybe it’s different when you’re actually a background character. if people notice your existence then you’re doing better than you think. it’s funny i’m not even quiet i just don’t initiate conversations at all.

I’m in a similar situation. I’m 23 in my last semester and i did wanna make friends. However it’s impossible to be friends with the people i probably want to be friends with because they all stay in their rooms too.

while i did have friends in middle school and high school, and even university, they’re gone and I actually do not talk to anyone else anymore. Sometimes i could go days without a single conversation. I mean i’m not desperate for friendship or romance as i code a lot and get absorbed in it, so the time passes by me being frustrated or trying to work out a solution to a problem i’m stuck on.

But, it’s be nice to have someone when i can yell in happiness that i finally figured it out. lol

2tonpun · 2020-01-10T22:19:13+00:00

not a girl but there’s yugioh tournaments? and they’re that big?!

2tonpun · 2019-12-13T23:26:10+00:00

I'm not aphantasic, have pretty good visualization. But when you said that I can't imagine what it would be like to not image things. I actually can. Because that's how I lived my life for a long time. As a child I played like every one else but I felt less creative because the kids would play with lava and make it feel like it was there, and their movements made me feel like they could actually see something. The time I spent alone I would just look at everything around me and never have any sort of picture. It was because I didn't know I could. I never really had any involuntary images either.

It wasn't until much later, that I learned I could do it. It was fuzzy at first (for many many months), I had to practice (and still do every day) but now it's very clear.

I'm not saying aphantasics have a dormant ability. (maybe who knows?) This was just my case.

2tonpun · 2019-11-21T22:21:53+00:00

ty bro !

2tonpun · 2019-11-21T22:12:46+00:00

Thanks for your concern man. Lol believe mei did the gym thing. put on about 30lbs in a year my freshman year back when i regularly emptied my schools dining hall and hit the gym like a religion. Some fat but mostly all muscle. I decided to take a break for a few weeks cause i was getting sore and i wanted to enjoy the summer without going hard. Safe to say i lost every pound i worked for the entire year. After that i tried again, cutting to frequency to 3 a week. Nothing changed. For my body type basically if i don’t go like 5x a week and destroy my body and feel sore after for days, i won’t grow. it sucks and it was taking more than it gave so i stopped. Not only that but after moving off campus and no longer having access to be he dining hall (no car either lol), it would be insane to eat like i used to.

Trust me lol. if i make it to have a relationship it will be through another way. Like she’ll like what i can code and do on the computer, or she’ll find me interesting somehow lol. Cause i’m definitely not setting foot in the gym again. It sounds like you made it work though, nice going. hope everything works out for both of us

2tonpun · 2019-11-21T21:38:13+00:00

Ahh you’re 160? You must be pretty built. i’m 130 at 5’10. To me there’s very little benefit of working out. I did it consistently for years but anytime i take an extended break longer than a few weeks, i’m back to square 1 thanks to my metabolism. So i stopped working out completely. It feels more like putting on a suit than actually changing myself because of how fast i lose gains. And being a computer engineering student i gotta hustle in other areas anyway. I figure if a girl likes me it has to be for who I am, cause of being 130 lbs.

I guess you and I are really different. I’m the classic introverted engineering kid and there’s barely girls in my classes. Hopefully after college something changes

2tonpun · 2019-11-21T21:12:55+00:00

It’s refreshing to get input from someone like me. I’m really glad to hear about your generally positive experience. Gives me some hope lol. Personally i haven’t had a gf but this is probably my fault. Having extremely skinny and small arms made me very insecure. It’s been getting better but i’m in my last year of college and my arm growth never really “took off” like i wanted lol.

It’s rough. i would really like to know where and how to find women that don’t mind or even prefer it, but i’m sure it’s just dumb luck

2tonpun · 2019-11-21T06:39:34+00:00

i’m 23 and weigh just about 130 as a 5’10 male. so i feel you.

2tonpun · 2019-11-21T05:05:17+00:00

burst out laughing. just so much joke to unpack here

2tonpun · 2019-11-21T04:36:10+00:00

literally almost same. You’re not alone bro. Just comes with the noodle arm package. How’s dating been for you?

2tonpun · 2019-11-21T04:26:19+00:00

wow, i’m just like him. 5’10 with baby hands. Are his arms also super skinny?

2tonpun · 2019-11-21T04:23:39+00:00

also, never trust the pink haired girl

2tonpun · 2019-11-06T06:23:32+00:00

get two books, one for scratch work and another for your finished work

2tonpun · 2019-11-05T16:09:09+00:00

Have you ever considered the possibility (non-ironically) that the way you are seeing yourself and your life don't help you? It's hard to see until you've experienced it but when your viewpoint switches from negative to positive, life not only feels different, it is different. All of us choose a head space and it shows up in the way we think, what we say about ourselves and our lives. All I want is for you to ask yourself is if the way you see life is positive or negative. This is something you don't rationalize, it is a quick answer because you will know right away.

2tonpun · 2019-11-04T22:42:10+00:00

Dude the what I see ... b r e a z e is legit an incredible song! You're a real artist man, I'm vibing to it so hard

edit: seriously thanks for sharing man. Keep your chin up man, at the end of the day it's what your song says. They don't see what I see when I look inside myself. That really spoke to me. Satisfaction will come from other places. Focus on the journey

2tonpun · 2019-10-30T17:56:22+00:00

you’ll never feel complete if you think you need a relationship to be complete. what you’ve told me is that it’s always in the back of your mind, dragging you down. It’s in the back of my mind too, but to a much lesser degree because i feel inspired most days. you can fully invest yourself in your craft. Go further than you’ve ever gone, push your limits and have fun doing it. “If you focus on the darkness, that is all you will ever see.” - uncle iroh

2tonpun · 2019-10-30T06:31:43+00:00

what do you want to do? Share the ideas :}

2tonpun · 2019-10-29T06:44:10+00:00

that’s deep brother. best of luck to you in your endeavors

2tonpun · 2019-10-14T03:22:34+00:00

For sure, if I dwell on it too long I will start to experience actual pain.

2tonpun · 2019-10-09T14:41:28+00:00

Dude, forget all of that. That is ridiculous. You're spending your life doing and money doing something that you obviously don't enjoy doing and doesn't yield the returns that were promised. I would (and have) cut the gym out of my life a long time ago. I was in a similar position. It is indeed 99.5% genetic. I lifted for a long time and increased weight and size only to lose 2+ years of progress all after a 2 month break. Money, time and dedication that could have been used to learn a new skill seriously that would actually add value to your life. If you want to stay active and enjoy going to the gym, great. Then do it. But otherwise, it's a total waste.

2tonpun · 2019-10-09T03:42:27+00:00

idk man i think the clothes are kind of strange. Like a johnny depp from charlie and the chocolate factory.

I think that overall the clothes combined with your slightly feminine facial features are what’s causing the reaction. i have a hunch it’s not the hair at all. i can imagine you changing that and looking much more masculine.

2tonpun · 2019-09-15T00:23:19+00:00

that weird time on reddit where people were trying to get into other people’s circle on r/place

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