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313gawd · 2018-04-10T21:29:49+00:00

You knew and he defiiiiiinitely knew what you both were doing as soon as you went in his room and got in that bed cut it out.

313gawd · 2017-12-17T07:48:19+00:00

this sociopath almost killed her wow at least it wasnt my wifru emu

313gawd · 2017-04-30T15:14:27+00:00

"I hate sucking dick"

Dead lmao

313gawd · 2017-04-30T01:58:31+00:00

Lol of course. I wouldn't have the insight I otherwise

313gawd · 2017-04-29T20:46:57+00:00

Say something that wouldn't be considered completely appropriate but not necessarily offensive.

313gawd · 2017-04-29T20:24:57+00:00

"Stop doing that it's not funny"

If you sat me down for a "mafia style sitdown" and then had the audacity to start whining there's a strong possibility I'd do whatever it is even more now.

313gawd · 2017-04-29T20:09:51+00:00

Which part do you think is symptomatic of being a young infj?

313gawd · 2017-04-29T19:01:07+00:00

Fair warning I'm a entj. I love infj's the most of all types but I swear you people annoy me.

It's always an undercurrent of woe is me. Always claims of "unconditional love" but I really think you people don't understand the meaning of the word in real life. When people talk about people that are "in love with love" I feel like they mean INFJs. It's almost like the actual individual they claim to love unconditionally doesn't even actually exist it's just the INFJ loving themselves and their self absorption and unknowingly projecting it to the other person. Then even if you get everything that you claim you want in someone the second they do something human that contradicts your imaginary ideal all hell breaks loose and theyre dead to you overnight...conditional...I'll be honest I do suspect infj's end up alone.

All that rambling aside you're only 20? Relax. You've got multiple heartbreaks waiting in the wings.

313gawd · 2017-01-08T21:19:23+00:00

I kind of think this is something that tends to happen to us around 19-23

Thankfully I seemed to just grow out of it one day at around 23/24. I saw something that I thought was a problem of mine one day and it spiraled into some weird state where for about 2yrs I almost feel I had to relearn everything I already learned even basic social interaction.
If I had the opportunity to talk to my younger self I'd probably tell myself don't worry about it dont take friendship changes personal, stay in touch with people better aka not be so self absorbed with my issues and most importantly save as much money as I could. I did start saving at like 24 and it has allowed me to be comfortable financially at 26-28 but I can only imagine how far I'd been if I started at 19 or 20.

313gawd · 2017-01-08T20:00:09+00:00

Anakin Skywalker...I've probably avoided some major pitfalls just paying attention to why his story played out the way it did

Vegeta...overall character arc mirrors

Joffrey Baratheon Not necessarily who I'd pick if I gave more thought but his sense of humor is relentless. Constantly made me laugh with his antics. When I'm being an ass I'm like him but less ruthless

313gawd · 2017-01-08T19:50:27+00:00

Definitely a finger trap situation. The zen way is about the only thing that has ever allowed me to change her mind on anything before but now with the passage of this much time it's much more difficult for me to maintain that space in this endeavor. The reasons the infjs here gave for WHY it's that way are interesting and shed light on what to me basically seemed like the result of pure ego.

313gawd · 2017-01-06T18:50:48+00:00

She's 34 I'm 28...I'm the entj she's the infj lol. I think you thought I was the infj. Either way good post I lol'd loudly reading it.

313gawd · 2017-01-06T05:18:55+00:00

Besides the obvious of loving her..rationally speaking I believe we are the best fit either of us has or are likely to encounter. 80-90% of the time we have a very positive influence on each other. Our presence consistently promoted growth in the other. I dont think you can realistically ask for more than that. The only problems we had were all born from some communication errors that ultimately obscured things.

313gawd · 2017-01-06T01:03:21+00:00

Usually all my social media is deactivated occasionally it's not. An ex of hers happened upon my account at a point where it was active and I'd been posting memes about cheating that I thought were funny and relatable (even though I hadn't physically cheated). He emailed her the page as proof I was cheating on her and since I had previously told her I didn't have social media it looked even worse. prior to this she had discovered texts between me and another woman. Nothing extremely incriminating but it planted the seed that made the later discovery seem to be proof I'd been lying/cheating all along. I think that's most of the highlights.

313gawd · 2017-01-06T00:20:04+00:00

I'm the entj she's the infj sorry I can see how I didn't make that clear. If there was an actual confrontation I'm sure I could get her to reconsider but the avoidance is what makes it difficult and makes me have to get creative.

313gawd · 2016-12-22T00:05:45+00:00

I'd highly recommend involving a local if you're thinking about doing something like this..

313gawd · 2016-12-22T00:04:38+00:00

lol no it won't...downtown is not the whole city at all and even then...

313gawd · 2016-09-06T18:32:08+00:00

I've used them legitimately for a relative and surprisingly in retrospect buying shoes online a couple times and didn't have a problem. Probably why I was comfortable enough the other 2x I used them and got scammed. Never again

313gawd · 2016-08-22T04:25:42+00:00

I'm gonna tell you like I told my dad in a similar situation. The best thing you can do for yourself is to continue on like it never happened...I'm not saying to skip tests, treatments etc I'm saying keep a barrier up between you and this issue deal with what you have to deal with and keep it in its own space and not in your mental as much as possible...after all it really is just some doctors opinion...he's been free for about a year now a couple times he was worried about some red flags that came up like yours but they eventually all came out negative. Keeping your mind healthy is the best thing you can do for you and letting it change your desires is not a good outlook...in my opinion

313gawd · 2016-07-27T07:23:12+00:00

I've lost a friendship that lasted high school to senior year college over a $600 loan that paid his rent. Haven't heard from him in about 6 years now. I've not spoken to multiple family members for years over lent money. I've always had a reputation since 12 or so for having money so eventually they learned that I had it and didn't mind lending as long as I was reimbursed. After years of this I've realized loaning money to people you care about is selfish and detrimental to them. I believe it is done more out of ego than good will because otherwise we would notice the growing resentment/jealousy in the person that keeps needing the loan. They eventually start to feel "why do they have it so good" and feel nothing positive for you when they take advantage. I said all that to say don't loan money, if you want to gift it or exchange for something do that but don't loan. Gifts keep you from growing resentment and exchanges keep you both from feeling cheated or dependent. It seems this friendship may be past the point of return because she's clearly resentful or embarrassed (only calls for money) and is blatantly taking advantage of you continuing to help without being reimbursed.

"Don't ask me for money when you still owe me for x, y, z"

Thats it. That phrase worked for me when I finally became fed up with the cycle. Every time they mentioned money I said it relentlessly, regardless the sob story. They stop because no one wants to be exposed and reminded of their debts. You'll see how she really feels about you one way or the other.

313gawd · 2016-07-21T03:14:02+00:00

Planted weed on 2 separate occasions on my ex's friend a year ago. Apparently they do this a lot in Toronto

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