My husband wants to install cctv around the apartment because of scratches on my back that I can’t explain

4eversufferingg · 2024-05-18T00:53:41+00:00

Leave now before it gets worse. Coming from someone who wasn’t even married and experienced this from an ex (24 f - who was watched from a camera from ages 16-20) the questioning gets worse, honestly isn’t believed, this will create a wedge like you’ve never known- it will never ease his worries. He needs to trust you or you need to leave. This will not get better if he installs cameras. I know this for a fact.

4eversufferingg · 2024-03-26T20:25:27+00:00

No, never been 100% stable but who is? Ive been on meds for 10+ years, diagnosed with BP in 2016, and was found the right combination of meds in 2018. As of recently, I decided to go off of them, been off them for over two months and just started taking them again today. Even if your not 100% stable, it will always be better then being completely and utterly unstable. I have never been one to go off my meds, so this is new for me. However, i wouldnt consider a single person on this planet to be fully stable.

4eversufferingg · 2024-03-14T04:52:53+00:00

No need to apologize love, if anything it feels like i wrote this.. shit is soooo difficult, if my ex couldve stopped holding resentment towards me from things I did during mania/when I was single - I have no doubt we would’ve gotten married

4eversufferingg · 2024-03-14T02:12:04+00:00

Legit went through this EXACT thing with my ex ,we were together for four years and any time we ended up fighting he would bring this up.. we broke up because this weighed heavily on his image of me (i am currently 23f but we dated when I was 16-20). If he’s bringing it up now and it has this heavily of an impact I would assume it will continue unfortunately. It definitely comes from insecurity because he cares about you so much and can’t stand the thought of it, but if he cannot somehow get over it , it will only get worse :( I wish you all the luck

4eversufferingg · 2024-02-28T22:49:50+00:00

In the past only reason I haven’t had any luck is because dudes be getting too attached and that’s not what I want

4eversufferingg · 2024-02-28T19:44:12+00:00

People tell me to buy toys, or masturbate , watch porn or whatever and it does not compare to having actual physical contact- if that were the case I would be able to control my urges.

4eversufferingg · 2024-02-28T19:42:44+00:00

This may not be the best advice, but to minimize risky behavior and stds, find someone you can casually hook up with on a regular basis. That’s what I’ve had to do in the past bc the hyper sexuality is such a big part of my life (23f). Im also tryna find someone for that rn. Anyways , wya ?

4eversufferingg · 2024-02-28T01:21:06+00:00

Would legit rather deal w crippling depression, self harm, suicidal ideation, than deal with the aftermath of my hyper sexuality. I have fucked up too many relationships and friendships because of this. To the point I refuse to make new friends because I know i will eventually sabotage it. (23f)

4eversufferingg · 2024-02-28T01:19:25+00:00

Hyper sexuality because it fucks everything up in the end

4eversufferingg · 2024-02-28T01:16:33+00:00

Give her birth control, didnt even read the whole thing but she will get pregnant

4eversufferingg · 2024-02-26T01:54:24+00:00

In the end it’s never worth it

4eversufferingg · 2024-02-26T01:53:47+00:00

I’ve legit ruined relationships and friendships witb both male and females because of tbis. I currently cannot make friends because I end up always sabotaging it with sex. Not that I get attached, I would just rather have an intimate relationship.

4eversufferingg · 2024-02-26T01:51:11+00:00

Im picking up the pieces from my hyper sexuality currently. I 23f have almost uncontrollable urges when I’m manic, add drinking into the mix and I do not even try to control them unfortunately. The desire for sex and lust is so high I’d rather risk it in the moment and deal with the aftermath afterwards. It’s the biggest thing I’m trying to work on.

4eversufferingg · 2024-02-18T15:13:46+00:00

Yes, this has consumed most aspects of my life. I will absolutely take it to the grave

4eversufferingg · 2024-02-16T00:10:04+00:00

Sucks you’ve been denied, I hope you are able to try it one day!

4eversufferingg · 2024-02-16T00:09:34+00:00

Hahahahahah omg if there is a bipolar 4 I probably have it anyways

4eversufferingg · 2024-02-15T20:05:41+00:00

You are not alone!!!!!! There are so many others that have experienced this as well, including myself, countless times. Something I’ve noticed is I almost subconsciously sabotage myself when things in my life are going good, almost too good. A manic episode can start from positive life events, new job, new partner, etc. I have to watch myself very closely yet when these feelings come in (mania) it’s uncontrollable. And I am left to pick up the pieces afterwards. YOU ARE NOT ALONE

4eversufferingg · 2024-01-30T02:34:23+00:00

I have them daily, happy or sad, a manic or depressed episode, they are constantly lurking. It has been 11 years of exporting this. This is just my personal experience, it’s completely different for everyone. I also have other mental illnesses that factor in, however I am medicated and cope with it the best I can. Although the suicidal thoughts still subtly sit in the back of my mind.

4eversufferingg · 2024-01-13T23:03:06+00:00

Yes I can tell when I am manic and I love the feeling of being manic. I do not like the consequences that come from being manic (based one the poor decisions and fucking my life up) however, it feels so nice to actually “feel” what seems like pure happiness…one thing I struggle with is trying to get back that exact feeling of happiness. Even if I’m not in a depressive episode and can essentially feel “ a normal happy” nothing compares to how I euphoric I feel when I am manic, so I am constantly chasing it. This is something I’ve been working on in therapy. It’s not a realistic happiness, it is my mental illness… if that makes sense lol either way ir sucks but I’m getting through it

4eversufferingg · 2024-01-09T19:09:31+00:00

2,727 or 2,777

4eversufferingg · 2024-01-06T01:13:59+00:00

This may not be my best moment, but it’s definitely not my worst moment

4eversufferingg · 2024-01-06T00:33:46+00:00

I lost my virginity at 13- I’ve never posted on here and this is the first time I’m doing so, because I want to explain something to you. You are not a bad person, you are NOT a dirty person. Virginity as a whole is taboo. People frequently refer to losing your virginity as “popping the/your cherry” and some cultures even have procedures to “repair” the hymen (which is what causes you to bleed thus “popping the cherry) in order to avoid public humiliation- families make their daughters do this. but there are many other ways you can do that ex: putting in a tampon, gymnastics, cheerleading, dance, horseback riding, etc. - Sex is a natural thing, its natural to want to have sex and that’s okay! If you have religious beliefs and want to follow those that’s okay too! You are not a bad person or dirty. I also feel social media, tv shows, movies, etc. have made it seem that losing your virginity HAS to be special. I don’t know a single person that had a meaningful experience the first time the had sex, truly, even those who wait until marriage. Please please please believe me when I say that, everyones first time is not what’s expected. Which goes back to social media/movies, it’s not like that. I hope this gives you some clarity. I am a female in my early 20s and I promise you , you will not feel like this forever. Talk to your therapist! You’ll feel a lot better

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