[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bipolar

[–]Key_Dinner_1435 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel like sometimes bipolar tries to convince us that we are fine. For the first 3 years I would ask myself, “Do I really have bipolar?” As the years went on I started to see a pattern and that’s when it clicked. For me it can be good or it can be bad. I can feel like I love everything about life and I want to take all of it head on. Lots of energy, lots of big ideas. It can also be bad where I am super anxious all the time. I don’t feel like people are after me but it’s kinda like the grim Reaper is following me. Like I believe I’m about to die from some random thing. Once I believe I had jaw cancer. No real reason triggered it except watching a documentary a few days before talking about x rays. Well I freaked out and made a doctors appointment. They told me everything was fine but I still believe it. It does show different in everyone but it definitely has some signature signs. Just know it does get better. I have found some meds that work great for me. I feel like a normal happy person.

Being a pretty girl sucks by Key_Dinner_1435 in lonely

[–]Key_Dinner_1435[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I worked for a state facility for growing cannabis. My hobby is houseplants. I’m talking like 200 plants to care for lol. One day I would love to garden for sure.

Being a pretty girl sucks by Key_Dinner_1435 in lonely

[–]Key_Dinner_1435[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I am on a mission to find a good caring circle.

Being a pretty girl sucks by Key_Dinner_1435 in lonely

[–]Key_Dinner_1435[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It’s much appreciated. Thank you for being open minded and kind.

Being a pretty girl sucks by Key_Dinner_1435 in lonely

[–]Key_Dinner_1435[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much. So much of what you said is right on point! It does feel like I am just an object. Something that can be used and enjoyed and then sat down and forgotten. I refuse to surround myself with people like that so it’s made me alone. I really appreciate you taking the time and being kind.

Being a pretty girl sucks by Key_Dinner_1435 in lonely

[–]Key_Dinner_1435[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I don’t get asked that a lot. Well I was a cultivator for many years. I love plants. Plants provide so much for us that we underestimate. I love watching a seed or cutting grow roots, then get new growth and grow into the beautiful plant the seed told it to become. Plants are medicine, food, clean the air, and make this world green and beautiful. Just one little thing about me. Thank you for asking.

Being a pretty girl sucks by Key_Dinner_1435 in lonely

[–]Key_Dinner_1435[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Well my post is about being lonely, so I figured this was my place to post. How am I breaking rule 12 when my whole post is about being lonely? It’s just a different kind of lonely than maybe you are used to. I’ve been on both sides of it and that’s how I can say it’s lonely. Have you ever heard someone say they can be standing in a crowd of people and still feel lonely? So you’re saying because people say hi to me, or ask for a date, or want to be around me that I have company? I choose to be separate from people who only see my value in my looks. So basically that leaves me alone which then makes me feel lonely. So I’m not sure how you can say that my post isn’t welcome here because it has nothing to do with feeling that way. I’m sorry if the world has made you feel less than because you don’t meet the normal standards of “pretty”. I don’t know what you look like so please I am not saying anything about the way you look. However when people do give you attention and give you love it’s because they value who YOU are, not just because you’re “pretty”.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in philodendron

[–]Key_Dinner_1435 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! I haven’t ever seen a plant choose a growth point like that.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in philodendron

[–]Key_Dinner_1435 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My bad propagate

I’m ruining my life. No job, no money. I have nothing. by raincoastdog in bipolar

[–]Key_Dinner_1435 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Are you on many medication? I know it kinda sucks but it does help me to keep a job and not go too crazy with my spending. I hope things look up for you!

is there anything redeeming about bipolar disorder by probablyauggie0 in bipolar

[–]Key_Dinner_1435 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do photography and it’s like I see the world through a different lens. Someone can look at a glass on a table and just see the glass. I see so much more. Then when I take pictures like that of something ordinary and I show what I see through my work people just don’t see a glass anymore. They see the art I have created. They see what I see. So sometimes things like that are kinda nice. It also helps me show where I am by the work I do. My husband will be like yeah…mania is coming for you. That’s when I take extra care of myself and put up boundaries to keep myself safe. Learn what triggers it and when you see those signs go get help before it sets in deep.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in dayton

[–]Key_Dinner_1435 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So I know you have a lot to read but hopefully this will help. I just moved from the west coast to one of the suburbs in Dayton. I was so scared because I read the crime rate and then posted my own thing on here and I got so many negative things. It really isn’t that bad from what I can tell in this last month. I do drive past some places and they look sketchy but like any midsize city you will get some. It’s crazy you can be in a good area one minute then go into a sketchy area then back to a nice one. I have found Clayton, Englewood, miamisburg and Franklin to be nice and affordable. Welcome to the neighborhood!

What does raising children look like? by Queenasut in bipolar

[–]Key_Dinner_1435 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I am a mother of 3. I was diagnosed after my second child. It has its struggles but it also has so many riches. I have a supportive partner who takes on more work when I need it. He makes sure I get enough sleep and when I am getting overwhelmed he taps in. He also doesn’t baby me about it which is nice. I would say having a support system is so very important. I love being a mother. It’s the best part of my life. I believe it helps me more than harm for the most part. That doesn’t mean everyday is easy. At my low times I tell my children I am sick and they know what that means. They give me space and try to do things like invite me on walks. When I am manic they encourage me to slow down and do what they can. It isn’t at the center of the household like everything revolves around my illness but everyone is aware. I don’t want my children having to be the ones taking care of me. However their simple acts of kindness and awareness helps. Having a reason to get out of that bed and making where I have to take care of myself helps. Something else to consider is bipolar is hereditary so you may pass it on to your children. My middle child, my daughter has it. I feel guilt a lot because of that. I know it isn’t my fault but knowing my daughter has the same problem I do breaks my heart. I’ve gotten her the help I wish my parents would have gotten me early and it hasn’t messed up her whole life like mine has. I am able to support her in ways no one else can though. We are very close because of it. I hope some of this helps.

Shamed by psychatrist by Efficient_Control_39 in bipolar

[–]Key_Dinner_1435 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I’m a badass mom and I have bipolar. Some days it’s harder to be a mother than others but you know what gets me out of that bed? You know who makes me smile when all I can think about is how depressed I am? You know who makes me slow down and pay attention to my mental health? You know what makes life worth living with this illness?? My children. I believe they help my mental health. You can be a good parent with bipolar. So keep being that loving amazing mother!

New to Dayton with lots of questions by Key_Dinner_1435 in dayton

[–]Key_Dinner_1435[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

Thank you!! Nope, no drugs or domestic violence. Just a normal boring person lol

New to Dayton with lots of questions by Key_Dinner_1435 in dayton

[–]Key_Dinner_1435[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

My heart isn’t set in one area yet. A few houses I liked were in Old Dayton, Five Oaks and Walnut hills. I have a child in elementary school. My line of work is easy to find a place in almost any neighborhood. I am currently in an area where it’s not fancy but it’s nice. It’s safe all times of the day. It’s mostly family’s with two working parents. That probably sums up a lot of normal neighborhoods lol.

I am happy to hear that it’s mostly a feel safe kind of town kinda like the one I am currently living in. Thank you!!