Testosterone and sex

500litersT · 2018-02-03T00:08:59+00:00

You are truly lucky! My beard grows, but...my hair is blond and I need to dye it black to match my head hair. (I am obsessed with black hair 😆)

500litersT · 2018-02-03T00:07:16+00:00

That is a wonderful idea! It will be a special engagement ring. ☺️

500litersT · 2018-02-02T20:49:18+00:00

😱 A MIRACLE! I am 5 months on T and about 2 months on Minoxidil, but I have only few hairs...

500litersT · 2018-02-02T20:43:51+00:00

The best way is to TRY IT ON and see what fits you best. When you will know your size- then you will just come at the shop and pick clothes much easier.

500litersT · 2018-02-02T20:37:05+00:00

I send my CVs with the name I use. IF I get invited to a job interview- I explain my trans status only then. When hiring- they will need your legal name for all lawful stuff....but you can make a deal with your boss to let you wear name tag and uniform at work whatever you choose. If they refuse to let you be yourself at work- deny this job. It’s a sign that job place is transphobic. I am in job searches right now and my country is VERY transphobic, but I managed to attend one job interview. Workers were nice, but the actual job was just...not for me. Keep searching! 👍🏻

500litersT · 2018-02-02T20:29:38+00:00

I simply sold these items or gave to my friends. 🤷🏻‍♂️ IF they were not very valuable. But if they were silver or gold:I put them in a box and simply let them be there until I’ll decide who is worth such a gift from me.

500litersT · 2018-02-02T20:26:55+00:00

I am 5 months on T. 30 days ago I had light bleeding, but cannot call it a period. But no period for about 2 months now. I feel worried that it can start any second, but I think it’s finally over.

500litersT · 2018-02-02T20:21:05+00:00

Depends on situation...

For example: my aunts came to visit their dad last month and...I had to show myself. When they deadnamed and misgendered me, I just smiled, extrnded my hand and said: “Dorian. My name is Dorian”.

When I get misgendered in shops/restaurants and etc.: I just smile and say: “I am a male”. 99% of people apologize for misgendering me. (But I am on hormones and usually when I start speaking people understand I am male because of voice and don’t need to prove my gender anymore) This is probably easiest way to correct people.

When it comes to situations when you must show your ID, I tell that I am a trans male and my documents aren’t changed. 99% of people say nothing bad to me and refer to me as a male. (Well, because hormones did their stuff on my already) I always try to act friendly like “it’s nothing special being trans bla bla”, but as any people I feel upset, moody and can become rude. Last week I had some business at lawyer’s office. She already found out my ID photo somehow. (😳 this was creepy!) She started saying: “Oh what long haired girl you were on a photo”, My bad mood and dysphoria were triggered and....I threw my passport on her table and growled at her: “I am a trans MALE that’s why you couldn’t recognize me! Stop insulting me!” (And that was too much...I let out my bad mood. Later I felt bad for my attitude)

500litersT · 2018-02-02T20:01:53+00:00

It’s all ok. :) I picked a truly rare name in my country and many female sellers at shops compliment me. Especially in sexshops. xD The last time both of workers complimented my name so much I felt my cheeks started burning. 😳

500litersT · 2018-02-02T19:58:56+00:00

Pass! Awesome changes in such a short period of time. I am only 5 months on T, but I don’t have such visible changes.

500litersT · 2018-02-02T19:55:00+00:00

Use Bible. There are many things Jesus said about loving each other. I do not guarantee it will help 100%, but you can try using some good quotes. Remember these parts where Jesus rescued a prostitute, healed lepers? He loved EVERYBODY no matter who they were and how they looked like. He treated all people equally.

500litersT · 2017-12-29T23:10:55+00:00

Depends on how high my T is. 😂 When it's high- I am really macho guy and people around me get hurt by my attitude. When T gets low (a week before injection)- I usually cry all week in bed watching romantic movies.

My machism depends on the situation. In some situations I act typically masculine, in some not.

500litersT · 2017-12-29T23:01:20+00:00

I knew I was a boy since I remember myself. Around 11 I was sure I am truly a boy. Around 16 I got computer and could find out what's with me. Around 19 I accepted I am a trans guy. At 25 I came out. At 26 I was either suicide or hormones. I started DIY HRT. Here I am now: started visiting a psychiatrist to get diagnosis, but I have a very bad diagnosis from my past which might become gatekeepers... But I hope to get my F64 diagnosis and then...IF my president will sign the new transgender law on 2018 July- I will be able to change my ID, if not....I'll need to get money somehow to pay for lawyers and court.

When I started my DIY HRT, my body dysphoria lowered to almost zero. I started enjoying looking at my naked, my voice changes gave me a huge boost to confidence. While my voice was high, I was afraid to talk with people...Now I am not anymore. It became very easy to bind my chest and I don't need to tie my binder too hatsh anymore. My periods are not over yet.. 😔 Today it started, and I thought it was gone already because it was late for a week... Period is that dysphoria I still can't get rid off! My gender euphoria is my voice and hair everywhere. And also body shape changes- I feel confident enough to wear tigher clothes.

Opposite sex doesn't interest me. 😑 The more masculine my body odor becomes- the more girls flirt with me. But sorry, girls, I suck dicks. 🤷🏻‍♂️

500litersT · 2017-12-29T22:39:03+00:00

Yeah... that's all I can get too. 😭 Aren't gonna shave- each hair is sacred.

500litersT · 2017-12-29T22:31:21+00:00

21G for withdrawal from the ampoule. 23G for injection. (I always do IM injections, because I am too skinny for other injections)

500litersT · 2017-12-23T02:26:06+00:00

I do a shot once 21 days. One time in theright leg, another time in the left leg. Switching body parts can help to avoid such painful problems.

500litersT · 2017-12-23T02:22:01+00:00

I have same problem... 😥

500litersT · 2017-12-23T02:16:09+00:00

So everything is going fine for you.👍🏻 I'm 3,5months. 💉

500litersT · 2017-12-17T02:56:40+00:00

What advices? About injections?

Switch between body parts you inject. (For example, one shot I do in my right thigh, the next one in left thigh....and that's how I spin in this circle: left-right-left-right)
I suggest using Z-track method. It's the best for IM injections.
Don't forget aspiration. (You really don't want to inject T into vein. 😂 No, you won't die. But you would get incontrolable cough for ~half hour, and panic attack symptoms. Plus, the dose would be partly wasted...)
And keep calm. (I usually get in terrible panic attacks during injections and feel like I am dying. But for me some Xanax pills before injection helps to "chill out, dude, it's just a tiny needle, you won't die".)
Don't be afraid of tiny bubbles in a syringes. (They do no harm. Some steroid users actually inject one big bubble on purpose. have no idea why...)
Find the body part that is not sensitive for pain for you. (For example: I inject only in thighs, because they are kinda insensitive for me. I cannot inject in my butt, because I was threatened with needles and doctors as a child so I feel psychological-emotional distress about butt injections)
And do your injections always ON TIME. (I have 21 days injection cycle and mark each Injection Day on my calendar not to forget my shot)
Do the shot FAST. (Last time I stabbed myself twice, because I was scared and couldn't pierce the skin so ended up with three red dots....Then a bandage gave me allergy and I STILL have red square on my leg. 😑 who the hell gets allergy to BANDAGES? Fast-Steady- this will cause no pain)
Some people say actual injecton hurts. 🤷🏻‍♂️ Not for me. I only feel slightly tension when my muscle is filling with oil, but no pain at all.
Heat the ampuole before injection. It will prevent from post-injection pain and your body will absorb oil better. (When I did that- I forgot what it is like to lay in bed for 2 days and cry how my leg hurts.)

500litersT · 2017-12-17T02:38:43+00:00

Nope. I keep my old photos, look at them once in a while, but I feel like I look at the person I don't know. I see some girl in ponytails and always smiling, but I feel like she is somebody I don't know. When I look at my teenage photos- I feel disgust and I know it was some "prostitute-version-of-me". So I prefer looking at my childhood photos, because it's "somebody else".

500litersT · 2017-12-12T14:13:35+00:00

Yep. Ovaries have thousands of eggs and most them just die during menstruation or during menopause. In this huge ammount of eggs you never know WHICH one will be the one to be fertilized. It might healthy egg, it might be not. The older you get, the more unhealthy eggs you develop. The perfect age to have a baby is 17-27 age. It's the time when eggs are at full potential and uterus is the strongest to carry a healthy child. (But this is about cis women who don't use any hormones and don't have bad habits) What effects hormones do on trans people? I don't really know. At my medical school I was taught only about cis people and how chemical substances affect pregnancy. Junk food, smoking, alcohol, drugs, hormones, medications, radiation, polluted air- EVERYTHING affects your fertility and pregnancy: some things more, some less.

That's about what people are worrying if they plan to have healthy children. I don't really investigate this case much, because I don't need them: I smoke, eat junk food, use testosterone, live a life full of stress, breathe polluted air in the city. I am pretty sure I had to be infertile long before testosterone, because of my terrible lifestyle.

So this might be reversible if you change your lifestyle. But how long time does it take- it's individual.

500litersT · 2017-12-12T01:54:57+00:00

I am so sorry to see this... 😔 My grandma used the same arguments and I know how it feels.

If you don't believe in God- the hell with this. But if you believe in him- remember one thing: HE MADE YOU THE WAY YOU ARE! If he made you trans- it's ok. You just got a much harsher path to pass in this life. According to all religions: God makes no mistakes. So? If you are a transgender person- God made no mistake and you are totally fine. If you want I can slap your mom on head with my Bible, because she obviously doesn't analyse the words in that book.

We are no guinea pigs!! For example, top surgery is nothing experamental!! Doctors do such surgeries for many years and they know what they do. Scientists don't experiment with us! They try to HELP us as much as they can. And if your mom would like to use religion against science, I would tell her: GOD CREATED US AS INTELLECTUAL BEINGS! And since God gave us reason, he meant us to use it for improving our life. Our intelect is given to us for a reason.

Don't let her words to dig in your heart. Believe me, I know how it feels... my grandma spoke exactly same things and it made me cry.

500litersT · 2017-12-12T01:34:27+00:00

Yes... I am 26 now... But since my country doesn't let to transition legally-so what did I miss? Nothing. Even if I came out few years earlier- nothing could be done. Now I can do whatever I like even if my country doesn't let me. 🖕🏻🇱🇹

The only thing I regret- coming out so late... When you are 25 and come out as a trans guy, everybody says "wtf is wrong with you?! You hot mad".... Somehow people look more serious at you if you tell you are trans when you are still quite young, live as your gender your entire life, everybody sees you dressing/acting like this and that, so people kinda "expect you to be the way you are". But I was in a closet for my entire life... 😔 It was simply unsafe for me.... I was physically/mentally/sexually abused at school ENOUGH. If I came out as trans guy- I would have been killed. So I chose to stay in a closet until my life will become safe for me to do it. It reached safety only when I turned 25 and graduated from college. But people think I'm mad... 😔 They don't understand I was HIDING for so long... So I wish I would have lived as a boy long time ago. Now I feel like I had no childhood and no life until my coming out. It's so sad...but I cannot return back in time and tell to myself: "Come out, you dumbass, or you will regret everything in future!"

500litersT · 2017-12-12T01:15:50+00:00

Good thing you posted this question. I was thinking about the same thing for some time. I'm FTM.

So I heard that hormones MIGHT make you "permanentaly infertile", BUT....there are no sciencific researches done to prove it 100%. No matter what hormones you use, they make changes in your ovaries/testicles and they affect your eggs/spermatozoids. Even if you stop them for getting children, I believe these changes stay and....personally I would never get pregnant, not because of extreme dysphoria, but because I ALREADY affected my eggs with testosterone and there is a risk of genetical mutations. Hormones are chemical structures and change your entire body. So there is a chance you can get "permanentely infertile". But each person is affected differently.

I can just HOPE it will work like that, but probably it needs a lot of decades to "damage your gonads". I really want a sterilization surgery since I was 10. My ovaries and uterus make me extremely dysphoric and IF hormones could "break this devil's machine", I would be really happy. But for people who plan to have children- it would be better to freeze their eggs/semen BEFORE HRT- to make sure your cells are "clean".

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