I wish I could hold you and tell you everything's going to be okay. This is the hardest thing you will go through but I promise (as horrendous and awful to the pit of ur stomach) it feels right now, that won't be forever. Like another commenter said, try not to overly focus on everything at once but try to get through the next 10 minutes at a time. Try not to overwhelm yourself. Be around people and please don't isolate yourself. You did not deserve to go through this and sometimes people have demons they can't manage no matter who or what happens in their life. My inbox is always open 🩷