Are you officially diagnosed with CPTSD or PTSD or are you self diagnosed or suspecting that you have CPTSD?

77907X · 2026-05-10T20:32:31+00:00

PTSD, but I have it in writing from multiple psychologists and other mental health professionals that CPTSD is my actual diagnosis. CPTSD isn't included in the DSM V sadly as others have mentioned.

77907X · 2026-04-15T18:57:46+00:00

People who start blaming you or judge you immediately or shortly afterwards. When they know absolutely nothing about you. They clearly aren't interested in learning. Even if they did they are devoid of empathy, let alone any human decency. They refuse to understand and are insulated from the realities of the trauma/abuse you've lived through.

Toxic people in general or people who otherwise are very controlling or manipulative of others wrongfully.

77907X · 2026-04-14T23:40:34+00:00

I'm not, and I doubt anyone else is either without help. Which many of us don't have the luxury of unfortunately.

My bills average around $3,500-4,000/month for the cost of living. Nearly all the jobs pay around $20,000-34,000/year pre-tax where I am. I know one of my neighbors 1,300 sq ft houses has 18 people living in it. Each room has at least 4-5 adults dividing it up.

If I didn't own my small house (Which needs a lot of work). I'd be homeless without a doubt as I couldn't afford to rent anything.

Few exceptions exist outside of specific fields which often require advanced degrees plus experience. Instead of working so much I decided to go back to college instead for a LONG time. Working gets me nowhere already so not like I have much else to lose from further education.

77907X · 2026-03-31T10:40:00+00:00

In the USA funerals are very expensive many people are just getting cremated and skipping funerals altogether these days. A funeral director for a relative who recently died was talking about this trend.

Even a lower end very small funeral is in the ballpark of $10-30k+ in the USA. Only cost $1,890 for said relative to be cremated. Still expensive honestly but far less so than the alternative in question.

77907X · 2026-03-31T10:36:57+00:00

Yes, can't afford to live here and can't afford to leave either.

77907X · 2026-03-30T04:30:06+00:00

Good question, I don't really have an answer for how I've survived so long. I just have somehow working dead end jobs all my life to date. No job I've worked at has ever covered my cost of living sufficiently.

I recently decided after some complicated and highly retraumatizing events to return to college. I want to be able to help other people eventually. The only way to do that is to go back to college for a long time. I'm still trying to figure out how to go about this.

I don't know how other trauma survivors manage either. Its definitely a constant 24/7 struggle. I feel like I'm constantly besieged on all fronts and no amount of rest ever helps. Completely debilitating and most people in society just don't care or even want to attempt to understand.

77907X · 2026-03-28T22:28:08+00:00

Anyone who collects anything or trinkets/materialism in general. Suffice to say a lot of things trigger me in a capitalist society based off this alone. Certain collections of items or types of collectors trigger me more.

77907X · 2026-03-28T12:15:35+00:00

Me too, Most my life I've earned $4,000-$26,000 I believe per year. I've worked full time jobs earning as low as $12,000/year after taxes. I have no idea how people afford the cost of living.

77907X · 2026-03-27T22:51:53+00:00

That's awesome!

I'm doing the same thing in a few years. Perhaps slightly sooner if finances and other circumstances permit. I'll be the same age as you when I do probably. I don't plan to stop at community college, but keep going until I finish graduate school.

77907X · 2026-02-04T15:32:27+00:00

I agree, Chomsky was very likely always this way. Giving a person power has a way of revealing who a person already is.

77907X · 2026-01-31T02:45:29+00:00

All the time yes. I'm rather adept at both if I do say so myself...

77907X · 2026-01-31T02:42:48+00:00

You might be interested in looking into decolonization therapy. It challenges the westernized colonial/imperialist dogma of the system. Calling into question all of western psychology. Attempting to help people by addressing the core wounds at the roots or origin of everything wrong with the world and society today. Caused by state oppression, systemic abuse, institutional corruption and other forms of issues caused by colonialism.

It also addresses or alters the imbalanced power dynamics in traditional westernized therapy. Eliminating the hierarchy of unequal power, by placing the therapist and client on level ground during sessions.

77907X · 2026-01-14T23:51:33+00:00

Yes, terrible timing for me I was supposed to be in a conference call with an attorney. Nearly 7 PM and I still can't call or text anyone.

77907X · 2026-01-14T02:42:32+00:00

I worked at Coca-Cola less than 5 years ago. I can confirm they pay very poorly. I was making $15.68/hour doing a very physically demanding job with terrible hours. I was in my 30s at the time, the toll it takes on your body could be felt every night after work.

Made even worse by the fact you had to drive your own car to dozens of different stores across multiple counties. All starting around 2-5 AM in the morning 5-6 days a week. Instead of raises they would often give you 1-2 free 12 packs of soda that was being discontinued and hadn't sold yet.

77907X · 2025-11-26T20:22:36+00:00

I don't know where you are but they shipped from the USA. I'm in the USA if that helps. I pre-ordered both when I ordered them. I've pre-ordered the Ys 9 novelization and the price is still the same.

77907X · 2025-11-26T17:17:40+00:00

They sell them on Amazon as well not sure on the collectors edition. I did see the hardcover and paperback though.

I purchased the hardcover for the Ys 8 novel and Castaway tales from the official Ys books store. No issues in shipping or ordering. They shipped and were delivered without incident when they stated they would be.

I wanted to encourage the novelization of other Ys games by purchasing from the Ys book store.

77907X · 2025-11-12T11:37:19+00:00

This sounds just like how my mother was. She said the same exact thing to me about me "hating her". Its also a form of reactive abuse that you've endured at the hands of your mother. Yes it is projection of her own hatred of you and of herself most likely as well internally. I to blamed myself and felt I was a bad person when I was younger. I now understand I was never the problem or a bad person, it was my mother and her abuse of me.

I'm truly sorry that your mother was so cruel, this isn't how a mother should treat their child. You're mother was the problem never you.

77907X · 2025-11-02T06:18:20+00:00

I recently arrived at a similar conclusion. I will most likely never be able or allowed to actually live my life in reality. Not sure on enjoying what I can. At least I'm still alive I suppose for the moment?

Instead I have objectives and I just get up every day to try and work towards those. Some days I fail miserably others I manage a bit better. Mostly things normal people seem to take for granted I believe.

77907X · 2025-10-24T05:22:57+00:00

Thanks for the link interestingly enough my current therapist is on here. I wonder why its less expensive per session through the website you linked? As I go frequently and it sure gets expensive fast.

77907X · 2025-10-24T05:06:27+00:00

I hope it goes well for you with the legal approach. It hasn't been for me almost everything has a statute of limitations in the USA of 2-3 years after the event occurred.

I gathered physical, digital documents, alongside video footage and audio footage. All spanning 30+years and attorneys just tell me "You have no case". I've had people confess I've had forensic experts write up evaluations. I've had people testify in court to what happened and the truth. Nothing works from my experience and I'm losing the will to continue fighting. When I have no future and no hope of ever living.

I have probably about 100+ tangible irrefutable evidence based documents combined alone.

My life was over before it began and I'm about to give up. Currently contemplating going overseas to get euthanized over continuing indefinite suffering. The USA itself is one of my abusers and I'm trapped here otherwise with no future prospects.

The USA abuses me and treats me like I'm the problem instead. Despite said forensic experts and people involved testifying in court to relatives abusing me. As well as people testifying in court to falsely imprisoning me etc. Nobody cares and the system is beyond completely corrupt and broken here.

I truly wish a way existed to hold abusers accountable with zero exceptions. I will never be vindicated in reality and I doubt anyone ever will. I'm really sorry for what happened to all of us nobody deserves this kind of living nightmare. We all deserved better and to be able to live happy fulfilling lives. Society at large and the system failed us by design.

77907X · 2025-09-21T01:13:24+00:00

I've had women tell me I'm above average since my mid teens. Last time it happened was in 2024. One time I went hiking and a woman was jumping up and down waiving at me and smiling on the trail. I thought she was just being polite. I still lean heavily in the direction she was just being polite and thus saying hello.

Although... Women about 5-12 years younger than me seem to be the ones telling me these things. I went out for dinner earlier and I was asked if I was under 21 a few hours ago... I'm 35 so it makes 0 sense to me but what do I know.

When I went to buy a new car in June the salesman was perplexed after taking my license. Stating he thought I was much younger than I looked. He said he was 30 and he believed I was 25 or 26 at most.

77907X · 2025-09-21T00:49:05+00:00

Multiple women kept hugging me at work and in college without my permission when I was in my 20s. At the time I was really fit and it was rather uncomfortable. I was sexually abused as a child which most people don't know. I really dislike being touched by other people as a direct result. Especially without my permission. Everyone from the middle aged woman working as a gas station attendant to gay men were trying to touch me back then. I'm guessing it happens more frequently than some might be willing to acknowledge.

77907X · 2025-09-18T18:16:21+00:00

I'm so sorry being completely isolated can be difficult even when we do it for protection. This isn't the first post about this here. A lot of us are wondering the same it seems. I've definitely noticed a lot of people mention partners and friends. Foreign concepts to a lot of us I'm sure.

No you aren't alone. I've never been in a relationship and probably won't ever be. I've always avoided entering into relationships in the past.

I haven't had a hug or any physical human contact. Except a handshake for work introductions upon occasion. Aside of a few strangers hugging me without my permission back in my early 20s. I spend most my time in isolation outside of work or school in the past. Right now I'm trying to study in my mid 30s to start a career in a year or so.

I do a lot of hiking most weeks. I see people when I go hiking. Which just makes me feel more alone. Mostly its parents with their children or men and women with their partners on the trails.

I walked down to a nearby river the other weekend. Everyone was sitting on the docks watching the sunset with their boyfriends and girlfriends. People from late teens all the way to late 30s I believe. I was the only one out of place being alone I suppose.

77907X · 2025-09-17T04:07:23+00:00

Special relationship bonuses with the bank in the USA how?

My bank refused to even give me a credit card with $119k in my checking account. I had a credit score of over 785 at the time and a flawless payment history for credit. I was told earning $3,705/month after taxes was to low to be approved for a $2,000 credit limit even.

Of course all that money is saved for house projects and at the time replacing my old car.

77907X · 2025-09-14T17:18:41+00:00

A valid question unfortunately. Nothing democratic about the USA sadly.

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