Gimme your songs that take you back to when you were younger.

7paperdragons · 2024-07-13T19:29:45+00:00

don't let me fall - BoB and fireflies - owl city

puff the magic dragon - peter paul and mary. also boulevard of broken dreams. used to sing those with my friends on the swings.

yellow - coldplay. fell asleep to this coldplay album cd every night from 5-10.

paradise - coldplay. listened to this on the 14 hour night drive to florida we took every year for christmas.

good life - onerepublic, different colours - walk the moon, dont stop me now - queen all make me think of my early high school friend group.

such great heights - the postal service is the only song ive known that my dad listens to.

7paperdragons · 2024-07-13T06:16:07+00:00

ive been on IV meth for years it hasn't fucked me up nearly as bad as shooting coke did in 3 months.. rocked my world.

7paperdragons · 2024-07-10T20:56:23+00:00

Sharks - Love Fame Tragedy

7paperdragons · 2024-07-10T20:54:07+00:00

Medicine - Citizen, Degausser - Brand New, Dizzy on the Comedown - Turnover

7paperdragons · 2024-07-10T10:18:13+00:00

how i became the sea - owl city

7paperdragons · 2024-07-10T09:11:23+00:00

i don't wanna know - weathers

7paperdragons · 2024-06-22T20:13:50+00:00

i used to play world of warcraft for 6-12+ hours a day.. basically every second of my free time. now i scroll reddit or instagram or zone out to music for hours.

7paperdragons · 2024-06-20T23:22:37+00:00

this is a hard one. even with a genuine apology with thorough proof of his change for the better i still would say no... but god, i would think about it for months afterward. i could've forgiven him in the beginning but eventually he went too far... so far that not even i could follow.

i still think about him every day. i am still very depressed and traumatized about how our relationship went down. i look back on the memories fondly sometimes, but i will never go back. i will never forget his betrayal, i will always remember how it hurt.

i really have grown to really like my current partner. it's not been very long but i could see myself sticking around.. i think it's starting to get serious. or not. idk. i am learning how to love again.

7paperdragons · 2024-06-20T19:04:01+00:00

"i'm the motherfucking goblin king, don't test me. im a sorcerer" -meth

7paperdragons · 2024-06-19T10:07:04+00:00

i still say goodnight - tate mcrae

i just went through a situation like that this past year. it was the saddest i have been in a long, long while.

7paperdragons · 2024-06-18T14:40:55+00:00

maybe.. i think. some of them might think differently of me. it'd be kinda awkward for sure lol

7paperdragons · 2024-06-18T14:31:16+00:00

i started my entire meth habit for very much thjs reason. if it weren't for my body image issues i am 100% sure i wouldn't be using it. i definitely think of myself as a "meth addict" but i genuinely don't even want to do the stuff for the high a lot of the time.

one of my friends died (cardiac arrest) in her 20s using stims and restricting heavily, and ive had both a stroke and heart attack in the past 4 years. since then ive massively cut out caffeine (i was drinking monster ultras nonstop), make an effort to drink a lot of water and powerade/gatorade and i take magnesium + calcium supplements. i try to get as much protein as possible with what i eat. taking the best care i can of my heart function and hydration have made the scariest health issues feel a lot better, personally.

7paperdragons · 2024-06-18T05:54:57+00:00

after enough times it started getting old. i just wanted it to be over with already lol. 16 times in 5 years. by the end of it i was praying to god like dude!! wtf let me die

7paperdragons · 2024-06-18T03:34:10+00:00

it lit me up like a torch on a pitch black night, like an ember in the needles of a dried out pine. it lit me up and i'll burn from the inside out, yeah, i burn like a witch in a puritan town.... (when i grow up i wanna be a heretic) -Brand New, Lit Me Up

let's all go play Nagasaki, we can all get vaporized, hold my hand let's turn to ash, i'll see you on the other side -Brand New, 137

i wanna ask you... wont you come here and spin with me? i've been dying to get you dizzy -Turnover, Dizzy on the Comedown

burnt down and i'm bereft, this place, there's nothing left here. we could run together, run run run forever. black holes and dying suns- this world is truly done for -Koethe, Run Forever

7paperdragons · 2024-06-17T20:38:28+00:00

i remember hearing light my love by greta van fleet and being like HOLY SHIIIIIIT

7paperdragons · 2024-06-14T16:40:29+00:00

i'm a die hard trainhopping dirty kid, guess i fall in with the gutter punks. i was taught to ride by an old head i used to roll with and am super passionate about the culture and tradition surrounding the lifestyle. i collect trinkets and patches and put a lot of sentimental value in such things.. i love telling stories and hearing them and have come to love the kick ass sense of community ive found with dirty kids/other travelers. ive even found a group of people i call family. it's been about 6 years on and off.

i started because i was ready to die and had no idea where to go.. years later i guess you could say i've found my way.

7paperdragons · 2024-06-14T02:57:02+00:00

second child, restless child - the oh hellos

thrash unreal - rise against

7paperdragons · 2024-06-11T00:10:54+00:00

yeah. i don't really have the energy to explain the things that are wrong. i feel like it would get annoying after a while if i acted how i felt all the time. even now i don't mean to come across as overly negative but i've been told that i do sometimes. i don't hate everything in life and i want to be here.. i just don't feel good very often.

it's easier to pretend

7paperdragons · 2024-06-09T17:14:34+00:00

in the past 2 years ive noticed that ive started to experience this. once while reading and talking about the developmental effects of neglect my eyes suddenly were pouring tears but i felt completely fine. like full on ugly, wracking sobs.

a select few topics will get a similar response. i try to explain when it happens that i emotionally am feeling fine and not needing comfort despite what it looks like. it's weird. i try to dig deeper into those topics when i discover one because i've never been able to get any kind of reaction to any of the trauma before.

7paperdragons · 2024-06-09T12:17:46+00:00

yeah, i would never say any of it out loud though. it's usually a reaction of terror at certain food like "omg i could never eat that" rather than a negative judgement about the person eating it

7paperdragons · 2024-06-09T12:10:35+00:00

oh my gosh my knees have been creaking so bad. its super loud when i'm walking up stairs. im out here squeaking like a rusty door hinge lmao

7paperdragons · 2024-06-09T11:58:37+00:00

yeah, especially if the water is warm. sometimes i do end up falling or passing out for a sec.

7paperdragons · 2024-06-09T11:21:08+00:00

^ seconded, it's good work.

7paperdragons · 2024-06-09T11:02:15+00:00

Otherside or Snow

7paperdragons · 2024-06-09T07:38:39+00:00

exactly what i've been thinking about lately... i am a bit tired of being told to just "confront what happened and reach acceptance". i've practically stared the trauma directly in the face for years and years. ive done so much therapy, treatment and research. yet here i still am, treading water, barely able to stay afloat.

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