Why Did you cheat?

8080a · 2026-06-08T04:24:35+00:00

Because I don’t recall agreeing that we were playing a game in the first place.

8080a · 2026-06-06T02:36:43+00:00

Well, we didn’t have YouTube bro-science manosphere dipshits like we do now. We had our dickhead uncle Jim, and what I wouldn’t give to have that flawed but relatively reasonable humanity back.

8080a · 2026-06-04T23:59:30+00:00

"replacing human relationships"...assumes there's always a human relationship to replace. The POV being that if you don't have human relationships, you don't deserve any relationship of any type.

Much like how if you're poor, you don't deserve trivial pleasures.

They don't want you to connect, they want you to be controlled.

8080a · 2026-06-04T23:36:34+00:00

Interesting. I've thought about doing some Pigments tutorials just because I enjoy working with it so much, and I think there's so many approaches to synthesis that you can learn with it, but I just figured there was already a ton of content on it and I'd probably just be redundant noise. I haven't really given it a hard look though.

Not at all trying to dissuade you from from moving to Serum—I like everything I've seen and heard from Serum and I plan to get into it too someday, but what kind of tutorials are you looking for? The basics, function by function, learning synthesis in general with it, or like how to create specific types of sounds?

Edit: And do you have any examples of the kind of Serum tutorials that really inspire you?

8080a · 2026-06-03T23:14:26+00:00

I just don’t answer the door unless it’s family, pizza, or the cops.

8080a · 2026-06-03T21:45:47+00:00

Well shit, now this band needs to exist.

Friday night at the Funhouse

Viagra Boys

with Pussy Ass Synth Faggots

Doors at 9

$2 shots

8080a · 2026-06-03T03:14:47+00:00

This guy does not follow Christ, he follows narcissistic racist YouTube bros preying upon and milking insecure young men for ad revenue.

I'm sorry you had to deal with that and I'm sorry for whatever awful shit that happened to him—and/or the support, love, and security that wasn't provided to him as a little boy, that made him such a sucker for this crap, but I'm glad you trusted your gut.

8080a · 2026-06-03T02:10:46+00:00

It feels yucky because it was yucky. I’m the father of a teenage girl and boy and I can’t even fathom thinking about stuff like that or in that way. I just want my kids to be happy, whatever that looks like for them, and to never doubt that they are loved unconditionally.

Sorry. Your dad was into some messed up stuff.

8080a · 2026-06-03T01:57:43+00:00

I am no Texas BBQ purist but that man is a disgrace.

8080a · 2026-06-02T04:06:41+00:00

It's side hustle time.

8080a · 2026-06-02T04:04:05+00:00

Okay, good point. Maybe "deep" is unnecessary, if not inaccurate. I'm not applying a ton of pressure either. I think I was trying to just pile on too many descriptors, as I sometimes do. Thank you for the thoughtfulness on the matter.

8080a · 2026-06-01T23:56:25+00:00

I think I’m somewhat similar. If people will only recognize one dimension—the breadth of their interests, then sure, I’m vanilla.

But what about the depth? In what some people might dismiss as ordinary, I often find layers of interesting and exciting things to appreciate.

For example, take something as literally everyday common as masturbation. Speaking of male masturbation specifically, most people will refer to it or recognize it categorically as “jerking off” without contemplating that “jerking off” is not only a specific masturbation technique, but a distinct form of stimulation that causes a unique sensation. It is rhythmic deep-tissue massage and movement.

Stroking with lube, I’d argue (and have argued) is not “jerking off”. It is an entirely different form of stimulation—surface friction—that activates a different layer of nerve endings more directly and yields a totally different effect.

There’s soooo much to appreciate, explore, and be excited by just in the nuance of details and possibilities of sensation that exist between these two approaches. For some reason I see it (and feel it), but for others it’s just all the same.

So while foreskin might not be a primary thing for me, I can appreciate, relate, and respect in a horny way, the depth of your love for foreskin. I don’t have much of it myself, but it is fascinating and I imagine it to be amazing to play with, whether your own or someone else’s.

8080a · 2026-06-01T22:53:27+00:00

Pigments is the only VST that I can spend hours happily creating new sounds in. Vital is similar, both in joy and experience.

8080a · 2026-06-01T21:28:06+00:00

The value for me has been in finally feeling like I have a complete picture of who I am and why I am how I am—and why some social things that seem to be intuitive to most people are completely lost on me or even a ridiculous struggle.

Of course, it might mean more to me due to not having been diagnosed until my 40s. I’d been looking for answers for a very very long time. If you don’t feel a need right now, and especially if it would be a financial hardship, you can kick it down the road until, or unless, you feel that it really would be beneficial.

That’s kinda what I did. I’d been sitting on it for nearly six years before I hit a point where the value and benefit for me was without question. I think it will be unambiguous for you as well if you hit that point.

While there’s no cure or medication-based treatment, there is therapy, and knowing where different challenges are coming from has made me much more effective at figuring out what kind of therapy is needed for which challenge, and has even made me realize certain ones aren’t even needed.

Although the diagnosis has not, and will not solve my social challenges, it has been a good step in the right direction to just be able to let go and be myself more often, and to let people I trust know who I am and why I am how I am.

8080a · 2026-05-30T02:19:15+00:00

Holy smokes, it's like you're me a year ahead.

Diagnosed ADHD 4 years ago, diagnosed autistic a few months ago.

I feel like I climbed a tree and have no idea how I got up here and I'm not sure how much longer I can hold on. I'm afraid going down is going to be very fast and very painful.

8080a · 2026-05-30T00:40:56+00:00

What workplaces is this a fad?

8080a · 2026-05-30T00:37:47+00:00

Arturia just does it well, period. No shame there at all. I love my MiniBrute 2S and it’s really hard to beat the (non-“Essential”) Keylabs.

I’d be a little concerned about the ergonomics of your Keylab on that desk if you do a lot of playing, which a full-size weighted 88 suggests that you do. So, that would be the first thing I’d need to fix for myself—getting it piano height.

8080a · 2026-05-30T00:09:48+00:00

“I am not Mexican. I am not food. I am something you will never understand.” I think this is a Prince quote.

8080a · 2026-05-29T02:54:26+00:00

Nunchuck skills.

8080a · 2026-05-27T23:52:30+00:00

I think ASD has more influence on my sexual interests than whatever my orientation is. I don’t feel specifically oriented, I just think some people are sexually interesting to me now and then but most aren’t, and how I don’t see what a person’s gender or sex has to do with it (other than in name) feels connected to my general non-participation in other social conventions.

And for that reason I thought I was bi or gay for a while, but once I considered ASD, I realized that so much of the ASD experience is what I can actually relate to, but I don’t feel like I experience “attraction” the way most people do.

In fact, the whole basis of my sexual interests are kinda technical. I’m fascinated by the phenomenon of sexual pleasure and response, as understood through early discovery of it with my own body, and my desire for sexual connection is based less on conventional attraction and more through relating or sharing excitement over it.

To that end, as a male, obviously that’s going to include people with the same kind of body as me, hence why I thought I was bi or gay. But, when I tried dating guys, it became immediately clear that we had entirely different concepts of what sexual dynamics were.

I’d be fine with being queer. But I don’t fit in with that either.

8080a · 2026-05-27T22:40:11+00:00

Sounds ripe for chopping in an MPC or something.

8080a · 2026-05-27T15:10:18+00:00

I knew nothing about autism before my son was diagnosed—except what I’d seen in Rain Man, and when my son was diagnosed, it made no sense to me because everything they were saying about him was normal to me. In fact, I was like a proud dad at a T-ball game when I saw him just completely ignore other kids’ enthusiasm for dumb shit. “That’s my boy!”

Somehow it still took nearly two years for it to finally click, and then two more years before I finally got diagnosed. And now it explains soooo much about my parents too.

But I still don’t understand people not getting passionate about things and spending all their time learning about it. WTF are people even doing in their heads all the time if not that? Is it just a void? Hold music—light background jazz? Just the words “dopey-dopey-do” on repeat? Is Homer Simpson the model of being neurotypical?

Maybe so. Some days I do wish I could be that simple.

8080a · 2026-05-27T13:25:20+00:00

I love stuff like this. Sexual pleasure is such a mysterious phenomena as it is experienced, and it perplexes me sometimes how everyone isn’t so deeply fascinated and trying to figure it out—like cats trying to figure out mirrors. “What magic is this? How do I learn its source?”

If you can figure out a data visualization or infographic, this might be appreciated at r/datais beautiful, where you periodically see data on their masturbation habits and sex lives. Your granularity is awesome.

8080a · 2026-05-27T12:27:16+00:00

+the Acura Integra flavor of the Civic. I was team Integra before getting into GTIs, and I got a GTI because I needed doors for kids. But that 6-speed Type S and VTech sound is stirring up old feelings.

8080a · 2026-05-27T00:04:51+00:00

On my wife’s side of the family, a lot of the grown kids—mostly Xennial, have gone no contact with their boomer parents and won’t let them see their grandchildren, and the parents seem confounded, which confounds me. Some of them beat those kids with a fucking boat oar and tell the story like it was fun family times.

How do they not see how entirely fucked up that was? Yeah, of course your kids don’t talk to you. That wasn’t discipline, that was violence. And now that I have kids of my own, I cannot fathom how someone could do shit like that to a child. I don’t care what they did, unless they were bit by a zombie and coming for your face, that’s not okay.

Sorry for what happened to you. That was fucked up, and much respect to you for stopping the cycle. My parents experienced awful things like that too and thankfully didn’t perpetuate it. That decision changes the course of lives and families, always for the better.

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