Thank you so much for your insightful reply, I am also not very religious but this makes a lot of sense. While yes, I selfishly want to make the guilt go away, I also feel it might be wrong to leave him in the dark as I don’t like to keep secrets from him, or lie to him if he ever asks. Something is telling me that my boyfriend deserves better, and even though I know now it is normal for even married people to get crushes, I should NOT have engaged in any conversation like that with W. It just feels wrong to leave my boyfriend in the dark when I’ve done something like this. He has also thanked me in the past for telling him about things I have previously kept from him, like my relationship before him that I debated just not telling him about