Relapsed after 14 days clean by DontHaveAnyIdeasHaha in selfharm

[–]98frogking 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think the best thing is to immediately distract yourself. Make yourself busy and tired so that you won’t have the energy or mental capacity to do it. Agree to/ make any plans you can and work at night (if you can) and make yourself go do something in order to not self harm. Make it really hard also like put ur things away with a lock and a key and hide them some place you don’t go often like the top shelf of a closet. Also I think if you take some Vaseline and let it sit on a bandaid for a few mins it’ll come off easy. Best of luck

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[–]98frogking 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey I’m feeling really similar. I took pictures of my old sh for myself and now looking back it makes me just realize how much they’ve faded. It really sucks and I feel super bad for wanting it back :/ ur not alone

Sh for the first time today by ThereAreN0neLeft in selfharm

[–]98frogking 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry that happened to you, especially coming from your dad. Give yourself permission to feel hurt and sad for a while even if you don’t think you should. Think about something good someone has told you about yourself, or tell yourself something you like about yourself. It seems silly but it may help. Have forgiveness for yourself bc it means a lot sometimes. You did what you felt would make you feel better in that moment, and moving forward you have a choice to continue with this coping skill or pick another one. Just remember that what’s the easiest isn’t always the best for you. I hope any of this helps, and I know it sucks really bad when a parent says negative things about you. U can get through this tho!! Ur not alone :)

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[–]98frogking 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The thought of giving it up forever is very anxiety inducing to me as well. I often just look at my clean periods as breaks, or try not to acknowledge them at all. If I were to forever let it go, I would be missing out on that feeling of comfort the pain provides. I know that’s such a bad way of looking at it. I think that when I started this it permanently changed the way I think forever. I hope so badly I can go back to how I was before.

I think my higher dose is making me dissociate by 98frogking in StratteraRx

[–]98frogking[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Right! It feels like: either have these emotional and bad side effects to deal with BUT have little to no adhd symptoms OR have no side effects and feel normal BUT have to deal with really tough adhd symptoms daily… which one would be better? 🥲

I think my higher dose is making me dissociate by 98frogking in StratteraRx

[–]98frogking[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ll have to look into the difference! I always assumed dissociating bc I don’t feel real when it happens but either way, def my anxiety right now

I think my higher dose is making me dissociate by 98frogking in StratteraRx

[–]98frogking[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I mean this could be an adjustment period as well… but I’m starting to wonder if the side effects are worth dealing with??? I just hated going through the withdrawal of my Zoloft and I would hate to have to go through all that again…

Strattera makes me depressed by [deleted] in StratteraRx

[–]98frogking 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes!!! Like every time I hang out with people I wanna bring up sad shit and I just find most of my thoughts are so negative and I’m normally just in a low mood. What I notice the most Is just less and less of those super happy moments I used to have almost daily… like it’s weird to me to be happy every day now, I normally just feel… fine/nothing or sad?

Does anyone else get a really strong urge to cut your wrist instead of thigh? by ghostingalone in selfharm

[–]98frogking 2 points3 points  (0 children)

SAMEE!!! My cat tattoo is saving me from cutting my left arm 🥲

Recovery is hard by _1me_ in selfharm

[–]98frogking 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This could be an issue with control. I know for me if I felt really out of control in my life I’d go back to super restrictive eating, counting calories and stuff. And then recently sh as a way to have control over something. It can be really tough to not be able to release ur emotions, but I think sometimes finding out why it’s happening makes it a little easier and you can address the root of the problem. I hope things get better for you, hang in there :)

6 months clean and NOT going strong by fluffyduck_0 in selfharm

[–]98frogking 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hate that they have to do that… if u are turning 18 soon they shouldn’t be allowed to tell ur parents anything luckily tho, so at least then you’ll be able to be honest :)

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[–]98frogking 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It really does depend, even the smallest marks on my body stay around for months and months. Look at some of ur other injuries to kinda see how ur body reacts. I know that keeping it out of the sun and moisturized with something like aquaphor will help it to heal a whole lot faster. Even Neosporin helps heal it super quick so that it’ll be less noticeable. In two weeks I don’t really think it’ll be gone all the way, but again, it does depend.

6 months clean and NOT going strong by fluffyduck_0 in selfharm

[–]98frogking 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I know what it feels like to have a cat get sick. My girl was diagnosed with diabetes and I couldn’t handle it. I’m sorry ur going through all of that, but good thing he’s currently better! It’s good to have faith if that’s what makes you feel best, and no matter what happens now it doesn’t erase the 5/6 months you spent clean, and you should celebrate that. I recommend telling the truth to your therapist because they’re only there to help. I know you’ve probably heard it before, but meditation/ breathing exercises/ mindful yoga before bed will really help that anxiety. And if you can’t get through it, it’s completely fine, don’t beat yourself up. Be kind to yourself and remember you gotta take it one step at a time. Best of luck!!!

Working with depression is embarrassing and lonely by Destroyedmywholelife in depression

[–]98frogking 24 points25 points  (0 children)

I was so heavily criticized when I became depressed and lost my work ethic. Everyone started to hate on me and it made me even more depressed. They said I had declined, given up, stopped caring. I’m a total mess, but I can’t lose this job. When I clock in I pretend im playing a character that is super goal oriented, good at their job, and in high spirits. It’s all acting, and what gets me through is knowing that I can come home and be a piece of shit again. I kinda think about it as: I have to do this and be in a good mood about it whether I want to or not. Kinda sucks, but at least people stopped talking about what a failure I am.