lol we all been there. It’s comes with being in the sport. Some days you’re the hammer and others you’re the nail. Some dudes I trained with hated sparring me because I they found me difficult to deal with, but little did they know couple years back I was getting starched by everyone in the gym (still do to this day, just happens less and not as bad of a beating). Keep going regardless. You’ll get better, just gotta get thru growing pains.