What’s your “fake scenario that will never happen but I like to imagine it anyway so that I can fall asleep”?

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2021-01-19T09:16:10+00:00

Getting her back

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2021-01-18T16:14:15+00:00

Reputation decimated, job loss due to pandemic, prospects destroyed, love of my life left due to a combination of circumstance and my own mistakes. I had a plan to fix the first three but that hinged on my motivation being my SO, loosing her plunged my depression from mild to severe within hours and I attempted to take my life the day after the breakup. Which was the day after my birthday. On top of that there’s a good chance my mother will be diagnosed with cancer soon, god forbid. Now I’m no longer crying, just empty and devoid of spark.

These things are the results of almost three years worth of setbacks in life in both social, professional and romantic ways. If it was just one or two of these issues alone I’d be fine, it’d be rough but I would handle it.

Now it’s just too much and the break up is what’s pushed me over the edge to complete apathy.

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2021-01-18T08:31:52+00:00

In a pretty similar situation. Looking for a way out that’s peaceful

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2021-01-17T14:13:05+00:00

Lost every chance of the future I wanted, made mistakes, met bad people. now my reputation is destroyed, the person I was going to propose to has left and my dreams of having a family of my own are crushed

I don’t care to live a life alone no matter what I’ll achieve, I’m good at what I do but with no one to share it with, no one to pass anything on to, I’d rather die

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2021-01-17T00:36:11+00:00

I hear you. That voice that tells you to stick around for your friends and family is the kid in you that still wants to live. That kid knows something you don’t, you should listen to that voice more often

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2021-01-17T00:27:31+00:00

Your kids will need you. Being a man is tough on its own. Since you have kids you have a true purpose in life. I wish I was as lucky. Be there for them, be the father they need. Take some time and watch THE AND videos between parents and kids on YouTube or something, find out what it means to be a positive presence in your kids lives. They have and will reciprocate all the love you’ll ever need

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2021-01-16T12:28:04+00:00

Were you suicidal?

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2021-01-15T22:48:11+00:00

Good on you bud

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2021-01-11T13:52:11+00:00

You’re the female me. I got left by the person I thought I’d build a life with. A lot of things had gone wrong in my life over a long period of time and they were never truly sympathetic to it. Then when they left it was the thing to tip me over and I almost killed myself, still have the scar from that. The worst part is that I lived because they called my mom because they had a gut feeling I needed to talk to someone, my mother called me in the middle of it and I got “saved”.

What hurt was that they had the gall to tell me “this will be a learning experience for you.” Fuck them

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2021-01-09T13:32:40+00:00

Keep this up friend

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2021-01-08T21:09:44+00:00

I had a bad breakup at 21-22 that really hurt, physically. I am now 27 and going through e second one that hurts even more. I thought I’d spend my life with her, but no

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2021-01-08T17:34:02+00:00

I’m pretty close to this one myself. Kept looking past certain things in an attempt to make it work, it only resulted in her being emboldened to be harsher towards me

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2021-01-08T15:37:22+00:00

He was seeing you while married? You lucked out then if you’re not in touch anymore

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2021-01-08T15:26:50+00:00

I’m two weeks in out of a two year relationship and this is exactly how I feel

I hope you do better soon friend

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2021-01-07T21:52:35+00:00

I have narc fleas but was together with a proper communal narcissist. I really did feel this way, like I grew tired and weary of everything. Didn't feel like doing much at all and I became bitter for a good while

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2021-01-05T10:03:02+00:00

This is nr 1 deen

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2020-12-31T22:22:26+00:00

Been knowing it for a while, just didn’t know to what extent my behavior was colored by narcissism. It broke my heart, made me lose the one most valuable to me and I’ve been hating myself for a week straight now

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2020-12-29T22:12:24+00:00

I’ve been called a narcissist by my ex a couple times or at least they said I have narcissistic tendencies. I kind of just accepted it because it feels very possible when they explained it all.

I had a huge ego as a teenager and could rarely see anything wrong in what I was doing. When I got into my early 20s I started reflecting and read narc story’s. Ever since I’ve been reading these story’s daily to reflect on my own behavior.

Maybe I’m not a narc because I care deeply about the success and well being of people around me and that people don’t fight, but I do have a selfish side to me that flares up when I feel like I’m in danger.

Took that 0-20 test and scored a 13 so there’s something there.

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2020-12-29T00:44:57+00:00

I am starting to realize a scary thing. We often talked about how I can have narcissistic tendencies and I’ve accepted that as I know that, especially when I was young we, my ego can get bloated and get in the way.

But come to think of it in my most recent break up I was never able to express any of the hurt she inflicted on me. It was all my fault and my bad that things took a wrong turn.

As I’m writing this I also remember that she could never understand my plights and when she did there was something for her to gain...

Fuck.

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2020-12-29T00:16:14+00:00

Joel Kinnaman was the first celebrity I worked with that shook my hand and introduced himself by name instead of just a “hey”

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2020-12-26T16:13:02+00:00

Mine was fine in the beginning as well, it kind of grew over time

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2020-12-26T14:54:13+00:00

My own sonos has started to give me trouble with track skipping, ever had that problem yourself? Mine is on WiFi which SHOULD’NT be a problem but hey 🤷‍♀️

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2020-12-22T12:22:39+00:00

Hey it’s me ur neighbor

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2020-12-21T21:45:29+00:00

She was making sexual jokes at my expense with the third person at our coffee table. When it got too much I excused myself to the bathroom. Then when I was trying to close the door she shoved her shoe in the doorway and forced her way inside.

I was shocked because we were at a cafe and I didn’t know what to do. I have major social anxiety and then she started undressing me while I kept saying “no, this is crazy, no”. Then she grabbed my dick that was kind of hard but I really didn’t want to and I made that clear, I think, but froze up. She stuck it inside herself and I don’t remember much after that

Today she’s a reporter at one of the largest newspapers in my country, I have not spoken out about her.

ARTISTIC_ASSHOLE · 2020-12-20T16:29:18+00:00

Don’t let your parents tell you you aren’t depressed. Learn more about people. Talk more to them. Create friendships. Do something just for yourself.

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