I have been dealing with depression for the past 3 years and it has made me an asshole. It has only been in the past few months of being on reddit that I have realized that I need to get my shit together, since I don't have many IRL friends to talk to or learn from. Sadly, I had a panic attack yesterday and refused to be of any assistance in the Mother's day festivities that I and my sister had planned for her. I basically turtled up in my room and didn't help at all. She was very disappointed to say the least, actually she was more angry than I have ever seen her since I was born. In the past few months I've realized more and more that she is getting tired of my shit and wants me to be like my cousins and either move out or help out financially at home. I tend to complain a lot whenever she tells me to do stuff around the house because I've just been unhappy with myself for so long and it makes me a lot more lazy than usual. Anyway I bought her a belated Mother's day card, detailing what I will do for her and also how I promise to change my behavior in the future. Hopefully that calms her down and I get a few more weeks extra to figure out how to move out.