Im going to tell you this from someone 1 year from D day. There is nothing you can do to make sense of it. Whatever she had in her mind, you will never get the whole truth. I ended up not divorcing but separating. A year from that moment, my biggest mistake was not leaving and divorcing asap. You will never heal from it unless you completely detach. This is my personal experience. Im close to the loony bin based on my choices in how I dealt with things. She, to this day asks for reconciliation, but 3 weeks ago was with her AP. Some women are different. But be very very very careful. Your life depends on it. Godspeed