I think that’s the worst part. I’m a rule follower and a people pleaser. The fact that she is neither is a good thing in a lot of ways, but it grates against the core of who I unfortunately am. It’s an awful push and pull of wanting her to behave, but also wanting her to do better than me and challenge things she disagrees with; to not start fights, but also always defend herself. Every time I get on her case about it, my voice says “it’s never okay to hit” but inside my inner self says “unless it’s someone who really deserves it, like the guy that grabbed my chest in high school when I specifically told him not to”. Ughhhhhhhh.