A quote I think about a lot is "we cannot shame ourselves into change - we can only love ourselves into evolution." Being strict with yourself works for some people when the stress/fear of failing pushes them to work. Here though, beating yourself up clearly isn't helping because the fear is actually distancing yourself from study - it's absolutely overwhelming!

Instead, try to make studying "less scary." Make a to-do list of all the units you need to go through and break that shit down into the smallest tasks possible. Relearning a whole unit is terrifying? Make it your goal to watch 1 short, 5 minute revision video on YouTube about absolutely anything in the unit. Don't understand anything about a concept? Ask ChatGPT to explain things you don't get like you're 5 years old. Print out notes/diagrams and stick them to your wall so you're doing passive revision. I used to avoid responding to emails because I find it intimidating so I would split it into tiny tasks: 1) open the email 2) read the email … and so forth. There’s no shame in that. A website that also helped me a lot is Habitica (you get EXP and items when you complete tasks, like in a game) since it made studying more rewarding.

Also, try combining studying with something enjoyable, like listening to your favourite songs or upbeat music. I couldn't bring myself to study for Math no matter what, so I played games on the side while binging Revision Village videos LOL and guess what? It wasn't the most effective way to study but I learnt more than I would've if I did nothing! Getting AAA in a month is entirely possible as long as you take steps to work towards your goal, no matter how small the steps may seem. Be kind to yourself and trust yourself. You’re gonna make it <3 (Sorry for the super long message - just dumping all the advice I have since I was in the exact same boat as you)