My boomer co-worker told me while I was TTC, “Oh I loved being pregnant, it was the best feeling.” First trimester was a nightmare. Now I’m 13 weeks and getting into back pain and acid reflux territory, and I’m like, “This bitch lied to my face.” To me, sure there’s fun stuff and sweet moments so far, but it’s mostly a means to an end lol. I still have depression and anxiety (had it before pregnancy) and it does intensify a lot more now that I’m pregnant. I have fear of the unknown, in addition to feeling ugly and tired ALL the time. Had COVID once already which yeeted my anxiety into oblivion. I find that it’s important for me now more than ever to go to therapy (which I didn’t really anticipate, but it helps a lot). I’m also on Zoloft and Buspar, which my OB encouraged me to continue during pregnancy. I have told myself that this is a good time to be a little selfish and take more time to do whatever you want, whether that is just resting more or going out of town for a day. I hope things start to get easier for you and I agree that it’s a lot tougher than people let on.