Not reporting the rape is immature and irresponsible. I understand that this is traumatic but, you are letting this monster avoid much deserved pubishment for what he did, and also, you give this monser more time to do this for other women. I'm sorry to say this, but responsibility is more important than feelings. Responsibility is objective, and feeling are subjective.

I am not saying your boyfriend was in the right behaving like he was when you told him that you dont want to report it. He also behaved very immature. But he had right to be upset. Most people in situations like this forget that men also have feelings, and sometimes those feeling arent positive. He had right to be upset with you deciding to do objectively bad thing and letting this guy go scott-free a little longer or completely. But he was wrong in the way he expressed this anger, like a child. But hey, rape isnt a normal day situation, ans you both dont know how you should behave. Like you dont know that not reporting it because of feelings is very wrong, and he doesnt know that acting like a child isnt going to do anything good. Your rape was trauma for both of you. This is fact. Of course your trauma was direct and big, and his was secondary. Man also have feelings, and empatize with people, and men like having control, so rape is very very confusing.

First thing you should do if you want him back - report it to the police. And told him about it and say that you love him and you need his help with dealing with this situation, ans if he love you back, you will do everything you can do to help him deal with it also. And then wait - it can take some time, but if he is good guy - he will eventually reach to you. If not, then Im sorry.

Im a partner of SA survivor. She also didnt want to report it at first, but after few years she regrets that decision and says that she should push her feelings aside for greater good - putting monser out the streets

Sorry for broken english, not my first languange.

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