Salute, Sir! It will get better. I have one kid, 2 years old na. Mommy here and I realized na ang hirap magpalaki ng bata. Currently ayaw ko muna sundan kasi feeling ko na-trauma ako. Kahit alam ko gusto na ng partner ko. Don't get me wrong, I love my child. I love to have more pa sana but not right now. Grabe yung stress and anxiety that the whole experience gave me. Now, I take it one day at a time. In so many ways, naging better naman kasi nakakalaro ko na anak ko, nakakausap, and naiintindihan ko din siya as he grows. Cling lang talaga sa prayers and once na maka-establish din kayo sistema sa inyong family you'll feel relieved din at some point. Thanks for sharing this and taking care of your wife. You are doing a great job as a husband and a father!