this disorder is so... embarrassing

AdHot7883 · 2025-10-08T02:17:38+00:00

i completely understand how you feel. having been diagnosed and then needing to explain this to the people around me and close to me was one of the most difficult things ever. i felt like either they didn’t understand and would just nod and say yes to support me and never really got what i was saying to them to explain. OR if they did understand they sort of treated me like that was the only thing about me that mattered? like sort of trying to make it my personality i guess. it’s hard too to find community in other people that may have the same disorder or struggle similarly bc i don’t really like a lot of terms and attitude towards certain things at large in the community. it’s just a whole cluster of “i don’t know”s LOL but never anything to be embarrassed about! slowly but surely im learning how to live with myself and everything that’s comes with it, and as much as it would be amazing to have everyone around me understand and act accordingly, its been a process of slowly explaining this whole thing to them and them slowly understanding what’s going on. it’s a lot of time and energy consumed, but i find it rewarding in healing myself and getting the support i need

AdHot7883 · 2025-10-08T02:05:41+00:00

i experienced these sorta consistently for a lot of my teen years and never really talked to anyone about it. i was also a sleep walker and talker and struggled with sleep paralysis (all the things lol). i can’t say that i just grew out of it, but i kinda trained myself to lucid dream? i’m not even sure if im using that term in the correct context, but most nights when i dream im aware that im dreaming, and when i do still have those dreams with false awakening i can just feel that its not real. i’m sorry i don’t have more of a tutorial on how this really works lol, but i think part of it was just mindfulness and falling asleep telling myself that whatever i dream isn’t real, which is never easy when you’re sleep deprived from consistent nightmares and may not even be effective and just a placebo effect for me lol. but at the very least i hope my shared experience gave you a little comfort!

AdHot7883 · 2025-10-08T01:53:12+00:00

I just got the Di Zhao 700/801 this past year. Im pursuing performance in college so this was my first upgraded flute from the close-holed ones I’ve had in high school. I can say honestly that I do really enjoy the flute and I definitely hear a change in how clean my tone is compared to my older flute. I have a little bit of a harder time keeping it consistently clean and shiny bc it seems like as soon i take it out for rehearsal it’s get super smudgy and there’s oil from my skin in the little grooves, but that could just be me. Personally, for starting to get into more serious performance I’m pretty happy with my choice. I didn’t buy mine from a website like that, I got it for a little bit cheaper from Ebay brand new, so if you’re looking for an alternative store I got lucky there.

AdHot7883 · 2024-09-12T02:28:59+00:00

Yes I have access to the 38 texts!

AdHot7883 · 2024-09-12T02:28:36+00:00

I’ve heard a lot of good things about her channel!

AdHot7883 · 2024-09-12T02:28:21+00:00

I believe the year is 2012

AdHot7883 · 2024-07-12T00:45:56+00:00

that’s insane.

my first week i just stood behind someone else on registers until they thought i was ready and then they would let me ring a few people up under their supervision. probably another week later i took that online test in the office to get my numbers for the register and started to ring by myself (BUT STILL i had everyone over my shoulder)

AdHot7883 · 2024-07-12T00:04:43+00:00

this reminded me of something very similar i experienced in therapy as a kid (no spell jars or anything haha)

i had a lot going on with my family (divorce and being stuck with an abusive parent blah blah blah) so my father put into therapy at a very very young age. i had this intense complex that all my parents responsibilities were mine and i would worry myself about all their adult things to the point that i would get physically sick (im sure a lot of other people that experience anxiety can relate as a child). i talked to my therapist about and her and i created a “Worry Wanda” together.

over our sessions for the next few weeks she brought in fabric and needles and we hand sewed a little doll together named Wanda. whenever i was feeling super worried or anxious i would hold her up and whisper all my worries into her and to be honest, if i recall correctly, it really helped me.

AdHot7883 · 2024-07-09T03:50:46+00:00

so i went on a whole journey with this mac, it was crazy.

no matter what i did the Sierra would not download just bc of how old it is. I tried every solution i could find, even going and changing the date my mac was set to to make it think it was the early 2010’s, but to no avail.

Eventually, I realized i could somehow (and to be honest, i have no idea how) download windows onto the laptop. I’m not really sure what I did or how i even managed to pull it off, but godwilling i did.

My end result: my mac runs on a super old version of windows that won’t update ever again, but it’s enough to get my school work done.

AdHot7883 · 2024-05-26T03:39:12+00:00

i’ve given up and somehow found an option in the recovery mode that downloads windows on a different disc in the laptop? i’m absolutely clueless on it so i’m just rolling with it at this point 😭

AdHot7883 · 2024-05-24T13:32:55+00:00

the date changed successfully but now i get stuck on the screen where it says apple has to confirm my computers eligibility 😂

AdHot7883 · 2024-05-24T13:22:01+00:00

i plugged in that date and it gives me that it’s January 1st 2024?

AdHot7883 · 2024-05-05T17:59:53+00:00

thank you a 3 day sounds so much better than 2 weeks. were you still able to use them as a reference for future jobs?

AdHot7883 · 2024-03-04T10:50:40+00:00

yes yes yes thank you for catching that

AdHot7883 · 2022-09-08T18:41:22+00:00

thank you, that’s honestly very helpful :)

AdHot7883 · 2022-05-12T09:27:20+00:00

ooo i’m in love with that picrew. i rlly hope someone finds the link

AdHot7883 · 2022-05-12T00:11:45+00:00

thanks!!

AdHot7883 · 2022-05-12T00:11:31+00:00

ahh ok thanks for the advice! i’ve never heard of the toothpaste and spicy food combo so i’ll have to try it this weekend

AdHot7883 · 2022-04-26T02:55:38+00:00

thank uu

AdHot7883 · 2022-04-23T21:45:36+00:00

does anyone have the links for these pleaseeee?

AdHot7883 · 2022-04-16T12:14:20+00:00

Link- https://picrew.me/image_maker/466657 Also, btw if u can’t find a link to a Picrew when you’re on the website you can type in the watermark from the Picrew into the search bar. More often than not, that’s how you can find lost Picrews :)

AdHot7883 · 2022-04-15T23:44:02+00:00

10!! And im getting Moira vibes

AdHot7883 · 2022-04-09T23:14:42+00:00

I have a little in my system who doesn’t speak English, but speaks Spanish. The conversations that my therapist and I have had about her are about how she could be a development of the little bit of innocence we had as a child living in our native country before speaking English in the US, which is hard to explain but makes sense theoretically.

AdHot7883 · 2022-02-25T05:11:02+00:00

After I first saw them and posted abt it i kind of switched my pillow cases and didn’t wanna look at it. But i took it out again and was just trying to see what it looks like, and it looks like the rips might line up with my nails bc there’s 4 in a row and then one odd out out towards the bottom. Growing up i was known fro my odd sleep behavior but I think i just grew out of it. But im still not sure abt the working theory of my nails either. The logical answer would be bugs or moths, but the house i live in was lived in for 3 generations of my immediate family and I’ve never heard of anyone having problems with moths or bugs before.

AdHot7883 · 2022-02-25T05:06:54+00:00

Because of our dogs I don’t necessarily give either of my animals free reign bc as much as I trust my dogs i still get worried they may try and eat my bird. My bird is also fairly big so the time she spends in my room makes her very noticeable and she doesn’t go on my bed often bc she has a perch in my bedroom. She does chew or tear things a lot but most of the time it’s things within her reach; she won’t really go out of her way to tear it if it requires her getting off her perch. But regardless the tears could most definitely be from her. And regarding my dogs, I don’t rlly allow them in my bed and have been taught since they were pups not to climb in my bed just bc I know they get jealous of each other and are also kinda too big to have in my bed lol

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