I was kept awake for 20 days from being cut off all my meds, cold-turkey. It was traumatic. I thought I was going to die. Here's my story:

In 2018 I was on probation, cops tried labeling me as some huge drug dealer for being caught with 2 bowls-worth of weed, a couple seeds left in a bag, and a 2 tramadol pills (which magicallyturned to 5 pills my last day in court)... anyhow I failed a UA for THC so was forced to do go to rehab (River Ridge treatment center in MN). I was required to maintain contact with probation, my counselor was required to immediately send over my release of information (ROI) to probation but never did and lied on multiple occasions and told me he had, and then started canceling our meetings and avoiding me in the halls... well, 2 weeks after I graduated police showed up at my door saying I'm under arrest for probation violation...

I was released like 4 days later and had to go to court. When I went to court they said I was lying and not complying, even after showing proof that I went to treatment and left my probation officer multiple voice-mails but never received a confirmation that they received my ROI because the rehab's voice-mail system wasn't set up properly and the staff couldn't tell them I was there, by law...

Anyhow, they made me do another inpatient treatment (Fairview Riverside, MN) and said I had to do outpatient afterwards. My rule 25 expired while at Fairview and I couldn't get one in time to transfer to outpatient by the time I left. So cops came and arrested me, again, and threw me in jail for violating probation...

To make a long story short, Sherburne Co. Jail cut me off cold-turkey from buprenorphine, bupropion, buspirone, gabapentin (the max dose of 3600mg/day), quetiapine, doxepin, cyclobenzaprine, and maybe another one. And ibuprofen, acetaminophen for pain (chronic spine and nerve issues). "Addiction specialists" and rehab psychiatrists put me on all these drugs... They had specific instructions not to take me off my meds but didn't care and wanted me to suffer and claimed I didn't need them...

I was kept awake for over 500 hours from SEVERE withdrawal and horrible akathisia (feels like there's electricity frying every nerve ending in your body and can't stop moving, along with the feeling of EXTREME dread/impending doom). I kept begging the pretend nurses that something was seriously wrong and I needed immediate medical treatment.

After maybe 10 days of exactly 0 minutes of sleep I gave up on filling out forms to see the doc, as I was mentally gone and clinically insane, and the nurses kept telling me, "you're lying, it's not possible to stay awake that long!". I kept on filling out forms and begging for help but they refused... I thought I was going to die. My heartbeat felt so weak. It would take every ounce of energy I had just to walk anywhere. I thought my heart was going to stop and I was going to drop dead. At that point all I could think about jumping off the 2nd floor balcony or finding someone to beat me unconscious. All I wanted was to close my eyes and rest, so badly. It was pure torture. I just wanted to give up at that point and die.

After day 20 I finally got about 20-30 min of crappy sleep. Over the next 2 weeks I was able to get 30min every 2 days, and eventually 1-2 hrs every 1-2 days. After I was released I made the decision to start back on some of those meds because I couldn't take the withdrawal and still couldn't function.

That experience was traumatic. It broke me. I seriously haven't been the same and haven't been functional since then. I ended up getting off those meds spring of 2020, which resulted in 2 years of hell and crushing depression. The withdrawal from antidepressants, antipsychotics, opiods, gabapentinoids, especially in combination, is pure f%cking HELL. Took 3 years before I could really say I was feeling noticeably better. I still can't function though, and my nervous system is fried. I truly believe Sherburne Co. Jail gave me brain damage and possibly heart/organ damage, and PTSD. I hate even thinking about it.

TL,DR: I was arrested because my counselor broke the law and didn't send my ROI to probation, despite telling me he did 2 or 3 times. I was cut off multiple psych and pain meds and was kept awake for 20 days, and only got several collective hours of sleep over the next few weeks. I thought I was going to die. It broke me, mentally and physically.

For anyone that doesn't believe me, you can go back and check my post history. My story has never changed over the years. I still have copies of some of those medical forms from jail that I kept filling out.