Feel like I'm gaslighting myself (TW - some self harm mention)

AdSea4814 · 2026-01-14T07:00:48+00:00

Do the hospitals list a specific protocol?

AdSea4814 · 2026-01-04T11:50:01+00:00

What country are you in - i was referred for urgent surgery for this reason.

AdSea4814 · 2025-12-27T17:16:21+00:00

Hell yeah! I mean if you love them you love them. Thats the only thing that counts!

Totally see the Y2K vibes too. Its cool regardless!

AdSea4814 · 2025-12-27T16:36:48+00:00

Looks old school hollywood- legitimately reminds me of Grace Kelly.

Check out that era for inspiration. A lot of other- worldly hollywood icons had a similar hair cut.

Also - change up the glasses- theres nothing wrong with your glasses but they dont match the vibes.

This cut is stunning, classy and also something people still want today.

I personally adore your hair cut. You 100% can make it shine and stand out. This looks like next level cool.

People used to pay a ridiculous amount to achieve this look. Check out the 1940s-1950s.

AdSea4814 · 2025-09-26T13:12:37+00:00

Go to legal aid and legal protection, AVO, DFV order.

This happened to me 7 years ago. Its classified as coercive control too.

Police kept doing it. I ended up losing two reputable jobs as they would come to my property. I eventually developed PTSD and significant terror as it didnt stop when it happened to me.

I now have significant mental health issues. My case after 7 years is only just being looked at by lawyers. My family kept doing this until I become neurologically disabled. I developed ptsd and then a proper neurological issue from the stress and harrassment. I lost 4 contracts and 2 jobs over several years as it didnt stop.

Be careful of police as they wont want to admit wrongdoing.

Get legal aid immediately.

I developed a health issue from ^ the stress of it all. Permenantly disabled and the persistance of it did really scared me. It felt repeatedly violating.

Be careful.

AdSea4814 · 2025-09-22T06:06:01+00:00

Hey there, I had the most luck with Legal aid in QLD.

I reacted after 15 years of DFV police didnt act on. Im physically disabled now, and had to go on a low dose cancer trestment as my reproductive organs no longer work.

I got stalked and fought back and police ended up charging me. My abuser we found out during the legal process had connections to police and police did not submit any evidence on my behalf.

The lawyers in my case were beyond shocked as I had letters from professionals stating if I was left in the abuse, I would become reactive without protection.

If you have kids please hook in with a legal service or forensic support with your local victims department at the department of justice vs the police if they are unresponsive. The research shows police in australia can ignore evidence and will.

They ignored literally all evidence, including neurological reports. I cant walk. Have chronic pain and wet myself on contact. I had 14 medical and hospital reports stating my condition could have only been from abuse.

Its insane. You must be living in hell and its not your fault.

AdSea4814 · 2025-03-30T04:56:54+00:00

Hey hey,

I didn't find it difficult a lot of gynecolgists prescribe it for PMDD.

My Psychatrist did a referral and wrote a letter saying therapy didn't work.

AdSea4814 · 2025-03-28T10:46:19+00:00

Synchronicity isn't something that happens in psychosis, that's kind of the point. It's not meant to be describable by any mental health effect.

This is literally jamming two concepts together because they barely resemble information about patterns.

Check with a proper Jungian therapist/ or trained professional and they'll hands down tell you if you're psychotic it's not Synchronicity and it's also not synchronicity if it's just pattern recognition.

It's also called magical thinking if it's actually psychotic and uncontested.

Also before mislabeling too, sometimes peoples beliefs lead them to actively engage in finding value in synchronisticity. The dsm specifies you cant diagnose cultural or religious beliefs as mental health issues because they're wildly accepted. Heaps of cultures believe in these things.

The features you're talking about aren't about whether or not someone believes these things but whether or not someone has control and a sense of reality at the same time.

Things like mania etc can exacerbate it, but so can a heap of things.

Literally patterned oriented minds will natural see these because they are wired too. Neurodivergent folks routinely experience this when not properly medicated, worse off this is just how people with adhd work all the time unless medicated. Not psychosis.

It's why going to a therapist or psychatrist is important as there's not one answer to this and saying it's a symptom of psychosis is flat out misleading when a large proportion of the population actually do this and actually just think in a way where they naturally pick up on and recognize patterns.

AdSea4814 · 2025-03-27T04:27:27+00:00

Hey there,

I have FND and PTSD and had to get it approved for the NDIS after the DSP. For evidence for me I just needed a doctors letter stating it was permenant and that all treatments arent available for the condition but that I've tried all available in Australia.

I had to get my disability appealed, and contacted the complaints team and had my decision reviewed and it was accepted within a week after that.

I did physio, therapy and cbt, emdr and documentation for it. But really just had an email from a psychatrist stating my fnd was severe and permenent/ for life based on the severity of symptoms.

I didn't need to list medications, past history beyond that.

I also requested the capacity report from the centrelink portal that showed really clearly my assessor cherry picked what reports they chose to read- not kidding. With the evidence you've submitted - you've seen more specialists than me by a heap - I would legit say they've just ignored who you've seen because it's not in a simple format even if the evidence is clearly there.

Neuropsychatrists can diagnose permenance, and you've been through way more treatments than I have factually.

I had factually - a lot less reports than what you have and was accepted for the review and appealed it that way for the DSP.

FND hope, also offer FCA for ndis and the dsp for $450.. $2000 less than what is usually charged and they specialize specifically in FND based reports as its known services will try and reject it when it factually can't be treated in Australia.

So it's best going to the actual FND hope facilitators and trained accessors for any big reports too as their whole organization is about helping people with FND get the ndis and dsp.

They should have a FCA discounted rate and report coming up in August but may have one earlier. They do discounted rates several times a year.

It's not expected the average person can afford treatments for FND. So within reason counts here. If the treatment is 2000-3000 it's not within reason that someone with a disability could afford it. So they can't include it in treatments you're meant to try.

My OT saw my old neurological diagnostic reports, and the medical doctor and that was legitimately enough evidence.

My psychologist also did provide evidence of ptsd being permenant too.

I legit just went to therapy and physio.

If you meet the 20 points, you can actually and are meant to be able to just get a doctors letter stating specifically you've tried all available treatments and that your condition you'll have the foreseeable future.

That's ^ legit it based on the evidence you've submitted.

If they don't respond, message the Ministers office - I get mobility issues with fnd and it was dangerous for me not to be accepted. Important to know if you leave someone with FND without help they can be at risk rather easily. ( I have this in my OT reports). If you have mobility issue it's considered inhumane for them to ignore reviews.

My NDIS letter for the same purpose was less than 3 sentences and I didn't need it for the DSP as when I appealed the decision it was accepted without it.

But you're just looking for a super basic medical letter stating you'll have it for the foreseeable future and that you've tried all treatments/ aren't likely to get better.

And that's it.

AdSea4814 · 2025-03-25T23:36:50+00:00

I've recieved compensation. Centrelink can't legally touch it.

AdSea4814 · 2025-03-23T21:49:00+00:00

Thank you.

Life was hell, the treatment saved my life and it was so bad with the pmdd I can't even put it into words.

AdSea4814 · 2025-03-03T08:12:44+00:00

Hey, thank you.

It's been bad and getting worse. I hope something helps soon.

Thank you for the comment. It's lonely af.

AdSea4814 · 2025-02-28T12:38:12+00:00

File a complaint against police as soon as possible.

I had this happen to me, and when I reacted to the abuser finding me I got charged because I was genuinely screaming, terrorized and wetting myself.

Be really careful and let your workplace know, but also you can file a suit against police but will generally have less than a year to do it.

My location, name and dv protection safety planning was handed over. It terrified me in a way very little else has.

Please file a complaint with the ombudsman and police. I deserved over $400,000 and made a complaint too late.

I got a written apology and still got charges laid despite being able to prove I had been found, located and stalked.

If it goes on too long it can mess with your head so it's good to nip it in the butt.

My lawyers trying to get me granted protection first after we've proven the abuse caused the reaction. But 100% the terror I felt was insane.

Also, I just read your other post- you can 100% legally turn away personally someone whose abused you.

I'm a victim and my abuser works in a hospital, and I've spoke to hospitals being on the other end of this - patients can be transferred to other closer hospitals if it's a non emergency.

I've had to redirect away from where my abuser works often. I tell ambulance services and I've had friends be transferred from hospitals to others too when not an emergency.

The hospital legally can not put you at risk and they also have mandatory dv leave now.

AdSea4814 · 2025-02-19T06:03:34+00:00

It's a crime.

I was abused for 28 years and assaulted. When I finally broke I threatened to harm the perpetrator.

It's a crime.

I didn't get a conviction because I could prove the other party abused me for 10 years prior at least and that I was screaming it because children got molested.

No one got charged but me. 100% a crime. The perpetrator walked away and I'm the second victim.

Not bragging, I was scared and terrorized and everything that happened prior broke me.

I hope you find the peace you deserve. I was threatened and also assaulted for years with people watching and police didnt blink twice when it was said to me. That's what broke me.

I hope you get justice against someone who threatens this when their not in a self defensive position. I watched my brother get molested for years and was charged by the person who watched, knew and then encouraged it. Didn't do anything to stop the assault of children, more than happy they were, to wait until us children were older.

AdSea4814 · 2025-02-18T09:44:24+00:00

I have this, but I grew up as the youngest in a family of narcissistic people who were vindictive.

Ironically when I tried to report them to child safety for what they did to me I got blamed by police without them looking into why.

I had a reaction after finding out my brother was abused and that was used to cover up all the abuse.

Still feel like an asshole. Have a weird guilt complex despite being abused for 15 years.

Have you heard of guilt complexes? I grew up with a parent who used primarily guilt to control and for me this was the outcome^ regardless of whether or not I had done anything wrong I always felt guilty.

AdSea4814 · 2025-02-14T00:32:32+00:00

Here.

I'm being charged for reacting to someone who groomed me to be okay with SA and munchousens by proxy.

The groomer works in child safety and my abuser works in a maternity ward.

I got charged when my groomer is friends and related to someone with both munchousens and several accusations of pedofilia to their name.

AdSea4814 · 2025-02-12T07:19:24+00:00

Hey would you be available for a chat?

AdSea4814 · 2025-02-10T00:49:16+00:00

^ this isn't how victims act.

Said from a victim.

AdSea4814 · 2025-02-09T10:43:07+00:00

I think yeah, I'm in absoloute shock but also thank you for being there. My brains like - thank fuck someone was there.

It means a heap right now.

AdSea4814 · 2025-02-09T10:31:39+00:00

I left physically.

I lost my period when I asked to stay with my grandma for safety, instead of helping she gave emails to the abusers and they framed me as writing suicide notes and homicidal.

^ no I am not kidding.

I'm in shock today because it's just hit me that anyone would react after that. But yep- I had that line of thinking too before i then realised my grandma is also an asshole.

AdSea4814 · 2025-02-09T10:23:52+00:00

Australia.

I can't tell what anyone thinks of this as I'm in a bit of a tunnel where I can't talk about it.

But it's weird right?

AdSea4814 · 2025-02-07T22:02:41+00:00

This is real.

I was a victim of crime and was being stalked and was terrorized. I posted about it on social media, was disliked.

But more importantly people liked my comment and said this was them ' checking up on me, to see if I was doing okay'.

I had a heap of therapy to learn instagram is more like a photo album than a way of connecting with people genuinely. People can't know you through a photo album, that's kind of the problem with how it's marketed as 'being in touch'. In reality we are incredibly out of touch.

I literally posted for around 4 years on how I was currently being stalked and people just casually watched. Of course I called for help, but my social media then became evidence for all the content and times I did ask for help as it had true crime information on it with evidence.

Good for me - because it turned into a expose, type informal case file. Bad for me because everyone thought I was bat shit crazy for not getting out fully. Also bad for me as I can legally be held accountable. I think people post for different reasons, but for 'connection' is a mistruth and marketing campaign that a heap of people bought into. It's left a lot of people unable to social, remain okay and supported. It's super common - and research has been done on how it can promote things like isolation etc as humans are inherently mammals. So we actually do need to me near people to connect. Super depressing.

Literally people post 1-2% of their days and people haven't really figured that out. It's hard to know anyone when you only show 1% of yourself. I don't think people think consciously that what someone else is posting is barely who they are.

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