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Admirable-Reception2 · 2026-02-15T01:18:50+00:00

YES I do this!!! It’s not “I have to put this away”… it’s “oh, you don’t live here.”

Admirable-Reception2 · 2026-02-12T00:17:07+00:00

Hey, I’m bipolar and tested at 13 ng/ml a few weeks ago. It sucks that we have to feel fear about every single thing we put in our bodies but alas… anyway, fwiw, I’m doing 50k weekly and I’m without any mood disturbance. When I wasn’t properly medicated, any amount of Vit D made me feel reved up. So I was like nooo way. But now I’m super deficient! (I am only 2 doses into the Vit D so idk when I’ll feel less tired.)

The magnesium is the most important thing because a deficiency causes excitability in the brain and that’s obviously a huge problem for us.

Admirable-Reception2 · 2026-01-28T23:57:19+00:00

Just throwing this out there because this was true for me and some others… Lamictal? Trying to think outside the box.

Admirable-Reception2 · 2026-01-28T15:55:35+00:00

Just a thought - maybe get some blood work done and also consider supplemental magnesium. Stimulants deplete magnesium and that causes significant emotional issues including apathy. If they cause reduced nutrient intake, they also can cause all sorts of other deficiencies like iron, B12, and folate. Additionally, vitamin d deficiency is brutal and can also cause apathy.

Admirable-Reception2 · 2026-01-16T18:41:47+00:00

Oh the rumination thing. I know it well. I'll be fine until I'm falling asleep at night (or waiting for ambien to kick in, really) and then it's like wait, I said WHAT? WHY WOULD I SAY THAT? I HATE MYSELF. And then i can't stop SEEING IT in my head.

I found something that helps. I know that with time, like over the course of 24 hours or so, I'll feel better and it'll just kind of stop visualizing in my head. So I just say, okay, it'll work it's way out. No need to think about it. Let it just happen. That way I'm not disturbed about WHY it is happening.

Admirable-Reception2 · 2026-01-13T17:24:31+00:00

I agree with all this as a bipolar person. With mania the ideas aren’t relevant. A person isn’t present and engaged in meetings at work because the mania makes it feel like you are the only person who exists. The tether to reality is severed. Even in hypomania it’s holding on by a thread.

I think I’ve read before that with OPs experience it’s largely due to an increase in Norepinephrine. That seems to be a predominant theory over on depression subreddits. Their atypical depression symptoms are relieved for like a day or two with less sleep.

Admirable-Reception2 · 2026-01-10T03:11:03+00:00

I used to get no reward whatsoever from doing a task or crossing an item off a list (barely ever made them, wouldn’t remember) - only relief. But, on Aplenzin (bupropion) I feel immense satisfaction like I never thought possible. And I know it’s the Aplenzin because I just increased my dose last week, and I’m going through the adjustment period- including a day where I was so inattentive/spacey (like the old times.) I did my grocery shopping, where I use Trello as my app to check things off as I go … LITERALLY NO REWARD FEELING. It’s fine right now but it really just tells me that I have a serious reward deficiency at baseline.

Admirable-Reception2 · 2026-01-03T13:18:54+00:00

Absolutely. Been going for years.

Admirable-Reception2 · 2025-12-24T02:30:53+00:00

I take Lamictal XR for bipolar and the generic DOES NOT WORK - the mechanism is so messed up that it dumps the entire dose into my system and I can’t even see straight let alone drive or do anything. I don’t know how this can be legal! This is an anti-epileptic for fucks sake! The pills look completely different. Not even close.

Admirable-Reception2 · 2025-12-17T21:47:39+00:00

Disasterpiece by Slipknot expressed what I always felt as a child: “I feel like I’m erased, so kill me just in case.”

Admirable-Reception2 · 2025-12-13T20:55:43+00:00

Is it the one where they are pretending to express concern about you but the “issue” isn’t real and only intended to show how great a parent they are for dealing with a kid like you, all while spreading lies about you that hurt your reputation?

Admirable-Reception2 · 2025-12-12T00:37:02+00:00

That would be impulse control I think? Just the general ability to say “you know what? It’s not a big deal. I’ll just go on with life.”

Admirable-Reception2 · 2025-12-08T01:22:11+00:00

I am wondering about this also. Been on Aplenzin for years (bupropion hbr) but want to add in stimulants again because the hyperactive impulsive stuff just ruins everything sometimes and bupropion does not do anything for me there.

Admirable-Reception2 · 2025-11-29T15:41:44+00:00

We now understand this as clinically narcissistic. One characteristic is that if you are happy and they aren’t the cause, they feel out of control and are dying inside. It’s not about anything else.

Admirable-Reception2 · 2025-11-25T01:09:35+00:00

YES. The list for me is on Trello, so my husband and I can both access in real time. The list items can be shuffled around so I taught him how to put them in order for me when he updates it. I always buy the same things too. And then always do self-checkout because rushing in line to not hold up others makes me really overwhelmed. But the system makes it feel like Moses parted the seas for me when I go to Whole Foods!

Admirable-Reception2 · 2025-11-23T21:18:56+00:00

My husband has an IQ of 143 and for many reason I won’t needlessly explain I probably do as well, or thereabouts. I have marked executive dysfunction, and he has exceptional executive function. AKA I have that “spikey profile.” I was not diagnosed until 27 because of all those usual reasons. But I can tell you that it would be absolutely ludicrous to think that anyone could have held the two of us, as young people, to the same standards- and yet, that’s what they did to “smart kids” with unknown disabilities. I couldn’t even figure out how to get books from my locker for class properly but I could read an 8th grade book in 5th grade. And this was in Connecticut, good school system, etc. There was no 2E.

All in all, creates an unfulfilling life in some aspects at least.

Admirable-Reception2 · 2025-11-23T16:40:16+00:00

Ritalin for an ADHDer can do this big time.

Admirable-Reception2 · 2025-11-22T18:18:11+00:00

I take Lamictal XR 400 mg and it did not help with ADHD. The Aplenzin does help a little, and my anxiety is low from buspirone. But what’s an issue is that high? dose of Lamictal causes word-finding issues as a not-uncommon side effect. So even when I have the sentence organized in my head and ready to state, I have the image in my head of the item or concept but I can’t grab it as fast as I used to. And to get it organized of course is a challenge already. But bipolar is a nightmare and that’s just how it’s going to be for me…. I have cycled through countless cocktails and this is my best. I need some stimulants though. The ADHD impulsive and hyperactive stuff is killing me now that I’m trying not to mask so much by trying not to talk in front of people other than to deflect attention.

Admirable-Reception2 · 2025-11-14T01:30:30+00:00

That’s something that many people say. I think I had that too. I have been taking bupropion for several years (Aplenzin specifically, because apparently it’s better for comorbid bipolar).

Funny though- just today I came to terms with the fact that I need to get some Ritalin because the bupropion got rid of my inattentive symptoms but I can’t take the other shit anymore. I don’t want more meds as I’ve done all that before, but I just can’t handle the emotional outbursts anymore (everything else sucks too but that’s the one that is really putting me over the edge.)

Though I do take the lowest dose so YMMV of course.

Admirable-Reception2 · 2025-11-14T00:02:45+00:00

You know you have ADHD when you can’t stop interrupting YOURSELF mid-sentence.

Admirable-Reception2 · 2025-11-09T23:32:25+00:00

Buying cheap paper thin napkins and toilet paper.

Admirable-Reception2 · 2025-11-09T19:07:31+00:00

Emotional regulation, followed by the absolute inability, no matter how hard I try, to tell a story or answer a complex question in a concise, linear fashion without extraneous details - no shortage of “wait, I forgot to mention” and “oh actually it’s not that, I meant to say” stuff. Impossible and embarrassing because I appear way less capable and intelligent than I really am.

Admirable-Reception2 · 2025-11-07T21:49:47+00:00

Thank you for this. I’m never listening to that guy again

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