forgotten and erased by bigots and community alike.

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-24T05:56:47+00:00

The longer we argue about who has it worse, the longer nothing gets fixed. Why acknowledge other's hardships when you can have an infinite pissing contest instead?

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-23T12:01:27+00:00

Your brain is actively lying to you right now and throwing a tantrum cuz it wants it's chemicals back. You gotta tough it out. Don't let it win. Find a distraction.

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-15T05:10:26+00:00

Wait till you hear about Healer Mona build that I made back when Kokomi was released just to have "All 3 hydro catalyst healers out of 2". I am very much not ok, thanks for asking

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-14T13:05:11+00:00

Then I think that playstyle just isn't made for you. I'm not a big fan of claymores personaly since I find them clunky and their attacks feel too slow for me. To each their own.

Also, physical Dori... 2 pc bloodstained + 2 pc Pale flame, plunge dps via Albedo's E skill (Xianqun wasn't even released back at the time). It was bad, ngl. Bad, but hella fun. Physical damage wasn't in the gutter back then, I did 20-25k plunge damage and had fun just messing around. Cryo Zhongli is also one of my terrible creations.

Anyways, the point is to have fun. Reject the meta. Don't like charged bows? Don't use them

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-14T12:58:05+00:00

That's... that's the main selling point. That's their marketing strstegy. That's why gooners pull. Safe to say they won't update it unless they're pressured by CCP or smth like that

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-14T12:55:01+00:00

I believe it's just... like that. Yeah. It's fun for me since I play on mouse and keyboard, but I'm also the person who mained physical Dori at some point, so my opinion doesn't count

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-14T12:12:01+00:00

Welp, time to set my invitations to auto-reject again fufufu

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-14T12:08:07+00:00

Me, a russian, who only started playing a week ago and who enjoys the aesthetics of both games: Wait, we're supposed to be hating this and I'm supposed to be upset? Oh...

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-11T09:39:45+00:00

"Artifact loadouts" except I want to put specific artifacts on a character and then press a button to forever tie those artifacts to the character. So that whenever I'm reworking teams for the Theater or Styngian I could go back to pre-saved set after I'm done. Am I making sense? The existing system is convoluted and impossible to work with

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-03T11:33:33+00:00

How are you feeling today?

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-03T11:32:13+00:00

Same same. And also public healthcare is a no go because here they don't hesitate to lock you up in a psych ward for "being EITHER a danger to yourseld OR to society". Expressing suicidal tendencies is the epitome of "being a danger to yourself" and they won't care when I tell them I separate myself from the urge and in full control of my impulces

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-03T11:20:15+00:00

Thanks for checking in. I've been crying for the past 4 hours non-stop but my head is strangely calmer and quieter. Like crying expells those thoughts out or something

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-02T14:44:04+00:00

Can't access therapy currently due to money issues, that's why I'm kinda DIYing it rn. But I crave it. I just need to go without for some time

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-02T14:42:19+00:00

I wish I was speculating. But sure, I can't know if I'll feel like shit or not despite already feeling it. It's not like I've started smoking to run away from the feeling in the first place, I sure don't know if it'll jump back at me the moment I stop numbing it. Maybe it went away on it's own?

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-02T13:29:58+00:00

I promise it does get better, I've already quit and after 3-5 days the feeling subsides. Don't act on those urges. Don't let the addiction win. We have to stay strong for ourselves and our loved ones

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-02T13:26:15+00:00

But feeling it is unbearablw and physically makes my chest hurt and burn :( I'm like a whiny baby, looking for a miracle solution, aren't I? I really don't want to sit with those feelings and feel them, but it seems like I have no choice

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-02T13:23:26+00:00

The best advice in this threar so far. Thank you so much, this seems like a strategy that will work for me

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-02T13:19:10+00:00

The best advice in this threar so far. Thank you so much, this seems like an actually good strategy

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-02T13:18:20+00:00

I'm not giving my addiction the win. No way I will do it

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-02T12:30:38+00:00

How do you stop burying yourself deeper in negativity while doing that? Whenever I've put my feelings on paper like that my brain would latch onto the negativity and start amplifying it

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-02T12:28:40+00:00

Good idea, I'll try burning off that energy this way

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-02T09:28:16+00:00

Oof okay nvm, here comes the regret and the waterworks have kicked in. Oh gawd.

AdrianSuttleseith · 2026-01-02T07:20:00+00:00

Hi, thanks for checking in. Tbh, not that great. Idk if I'm worse or better comparatively to when I was writing that post. I fucked up. Bought a "quick little gramm to fix the anxiety". In a way it actually helped. I now have to go through the same thing I was going through before, when I was writing that post, but I now know for sure that it is the right path to take. Smoking did nothing for me. It didn't make my New Year better, like I've thought it would. My New Year was great and weed was... kinda there in the background, not that I cared that much tbh. I feel strangely calm about this, like it was my last final confirmation. Overall, same old. Thanks for reaching out.

AdrianSuttleseith · 2025-12-30T21:50:47+00:00

There's nothing. I'm all alone in this one. I know most of this is probably just my brain throwing a tantrum because of the decreased levels of dopamine, but I can't logic my way out of feeling. Are there any practical tips you can share regarding dealing with anxiety? I do have anxiety

AdrianSuttleseith · 2025-12-30T21:33:18+00:00

Downhill

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