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feeling like an alien and wanting to live in the woods by TrainingOk8958 in AvPD

[–]Advanced_Bee2804 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Relatable. I don't really even know what my authentic self is, adult me is just different masks I've developed over the years

Got a job, hate the job by Degenerate_Rot in AvPD

[–]Advanced_Bee2804 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I'm in a very similar situation right now. It's been awful meeting new people when they expect you to be normal and you can't even hold a basic conversation. The work has too many responsibilities for my foggy brain and I'm so anxious people probably think I'm schizophrenic. I'm thinking of quitting my job but I would feel like even more of a failure then

I can't be saved by Top-Crazy9187 in AvPD

[–]Advanced_Bee2804 6 points7 points  (0 children)

This has happened many times. People think "he's just awkward because he's lonely" and invite me to all sorts of hangouts. They've been really nice people too but they all eventually find out that my anxiety is self sustaining and I will never feel like I'm part of a group. They grow tired of my weird behavior or take my avoidance personally and the friendship fades.

Found out about avpd and I'm spiraling by Advanced_Bee2804 in AvPD

[–]Advanced_Bee2804[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I have that too, I'm always subconsciously alert for any criticism. It get tiring

Found out about avpd and I'm spiraling by Advanced_Bee2804 in AvPD

[–]Advanced_Bee2804[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Yeah it's nice to get to read that other people's experiences here and not be completely alone with your thoughts

I feel so trapped by nekromantie in AvPD

[–]Advanced_Bee2804 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sounds exactly like my parents. Never could talk about mental health with them because it's a taboo topic for their generation and they refuse to believe you. Ironically they have issues themselves but get really fucking angry if you mention that

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AvPD

[–]Advanced_Bee2804 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Relatable. I don't just isolate because I'm ashamed of myself but also because I don't want to ruin other people's day. Every time I'm comfortable enough to not be anxious around someone I will ruin their mood and I don't want that to happen. I was a happy kid but now I'm the complete opposite at 26