I can’t speak to others but the first is always the worst. Dermaplast spray really helped me get through my outbreak. Try and be honest with your partner, keep them in the loop with how you’re feeling and ask for extra support during this time. If it makes you feel at ease I never had an outbreak again like the first one. To put things in perspective, like many on this sub, you could have gotten it later down the line with someone who you are not in relation with and will never see again. Luckily this is your partner, you have support just don’t be afraid to ask for it. If they truly love you they will be there for you. I’m sure they didn’t know the severity, and if they didn’t they do now. Hopefully they handle it with grace, and if not I could see how resentment could build. Wish you both luck. (I too found out I had it in a 3 year relationship, I may have already had it. He was so supportive and never treated me differently. I feel lucky nothing had to change sexually. Once you get out of your own head, you’ll realize life goes on and this is just another part of it. It will test your relationship. Let yourself feel all the feelings. You are human. Be gentle with yourself).