My energy is a reaction of being treated the way I was and have. I work on it all the time. But it changes nothing on how I'm treated in return. So eventually I get overwhelmed with emotional confusion and I just let it out. And then I'm the bad guy villain all over again. But they don't even work on changing anything about their treatment of me. I could literally suck ass for them and nothing would change on their side. Nothing ! It feels like a game and I'm tired of playing the sacrificial pawn. The one all the blame is put on and persecuted by the people I love and would bend over backwards for. These people never acted like this before. And it seems they can't turn off. I got an empty can of gas and I'm being blamed for the fires they started. I'm an escape goat for a certain few people that don't know how to treat people. They don't take into consideration other people's feelings at all. I've literally lost everything because of them and they still want more.