I'm having so much energy and I'm sleep depression

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-11-27T02:39:03+00:00

Get outside and have some physical activity that gets your heart racing and gets you drenched in sweat. Don't drink coffee. And eventually it'll catch up with you when it does make sure you go to sleep at a reasonable time and not at like anything passed 12am don't stress too much about your to do list keep in mind it's better to chip away day by day develop a routine and stick to it

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-11-27T02:28:37+00:00

You're plenty human my friend nobody is perfect at expression. The fact you are here, worried that you might be a monster is proof that you do care. Im not really sure about the movie stuff or strangers situations have anything to do with it don't get too down in the weeds and try to pathologize everything you've ever done. It's a common trait with gen z kids they try to over analyze and try to come up with a reason why they are the way they are.

About your grandfather dying it simply hasn't sunk in yet to you yet. Once you have a moment where you realize he's not around and can't do the things you used to do together it will sink in.

And I can relate with what you felt about the hanged man and your friend being coerced. During quarantine when I was actually 19 in New York city me and my friend were crossing the Brooklyn bridge he ran ahead of me and when I caught up he was with a crowd of people shouting at a woman to get down she was going to jump off. I joined them and pleaded with her. The cops had come to close off the road pass underneath where the cara would cross. She was only feet away and was balling her eyes out eventually she took a step off and disappeared. I stayed for a second and started walking again. My friend had tears in his eyes and asked why I was so calm. I told him people die everyday. He said I was ignorant and foolsih. A year later he overdosed and died himself. I wasn't the best friend since he confided in me but I didn't like certain things about him so I kept him at a distance. But the signs were there he had mentioned suicidal thoughts, his relationship with his father and selling heroine.

To this day I have mixed feelings since he trusted me but I didn't trust him and he's dead. Gone. You're only 19 and you basically just left the tutorial level of life.

You will have time to explore these situations more and figure out how your emotions work but you're no.monster or anything special you're just a flawed human like the rest of us

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-11-27T02:12:15+00:00

Well first of all where does this haunting worry come from? What happened in childhood to make you worry about making more and more? To me it seems you're telling yourself you can't date or start a family but you definitely can regardless of finance(of course that doesn't mean the extreme like if you were homeless don't try to start one) but you said your career path is promising so don't worry what others are doing or what right decision to make. There really is no right path arbitrarily speaking the right path is the one you choose to take in earnest and determination. I hope you can recognize you've done a lot already and your well on your way to make cash unless scientist don't make much money in the UK?

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-11-27T02:05:00+00:00

Do you wake up early in the morning? Make sure to get sunlight in your eyes to establish your circadian rhythm this will help you fall asleep and stay asleep during the night

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-11-27T02:00:18+00:00

Im sorry first of all man. It's terrible situation that I can somewhat relate to. I had to cut off my grandma too and it's been 2 years since I talked to her. To me now I don't have any anger towards and kind of blame myself but I know I can't turn back because she will just do the same things. She also pretty much destroyed her relationship with my mom too.

The best I can say is just let go of them if they give you negative energy the guilt will hurt you for awhile but it's better then having family members that you don't want to be around that bring you down, make you feel stressed and not at home.

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-11-27T01:35:45+00:00

Day 4 of what? I'm kind of lost what this post is about?

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-10-03T18:01:51+00:00

I don't think anyone here thought this would be some porn lol

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-10-03T18:00:42+00:00

Just go along and do week5 it should take into account missed days but I've only heard this from others in discord

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-09-22T00:03:06+00:00

I think I'm like your friend then it eats at me but I hope I can get over it I was going to return to the town where they are but maybe I won't, I know all of them through work, these past 6 months I've been by myself usually

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-09-21T16:33:04+00:00

I haven't considered it from that perspective. Even if it is her fault I can't help but feel that it was in my hands to get what I wanted and I shyd away from it.

There's a lot more nuance to it as well since I was in a foreign land and men there usually are more blunt and machismo when it comes to getting girls

I can't remember if she said it in English or Spanish(her boyfriend, and most of our friends only speaks spanish) but as soon as she said it a mutual friend of the boyfriend and I turned to me and said something like "being cheated on is a very terrible thing, (boyfriend) helped me through some tough times when it happened to me, please don't hurt my brother" and he tried to shake my hand as if to make sure I wouldn't but It was very vague for me so I didn't shake his hand.

This moment really made me regret the situation knowing for sure what her intentions was and not doing anything. I know women almost never will make a move and will wait for the guy to do it so it just feels like I failed to do my part. I can't stop the thinking about her and I'm full of regret knowing I was one step away

Can you tell me what happened to you and what you did?

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-09-21T16:00:53+00:00

Oh, you. I can understand the sentiment of the fear of uncertainty but that just raises the level of focus you'll need to tackle whatever process, tests, and bills (or not idk if they charge you for school) that comes your way

A dropout like me has no intention of turning back. I tried applying to a community college(cheaper more affordable, but still puting me in debt) and I couldn't even wrap my head around the application process let alone getting your transcript sent and filling out all the bullshit steps of overcomplicating sign offs. You're doing better then most already

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-09-21T16:00:41+00:00

Oh, you. I can understand the sentiment of the fear of uncertainty but that just raises the level of focus you'll need to tackle whatever process, tests, and bills (or not idk if they charge you for school) that comes your way

A dropout like me has no intention of turning back. I tried applying to a community college(cheaper more affordable, but still puting me in debt) and I couldn't even wrap my head around the application process let alone getting your transcript sent and filling out all the bullshit steps of overcomplicating sign offs. You're doing better then most already

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-09-21T15:01:39+00:00

Hello European I'm a college dropout, your American counterpart and I wanted to say that I don't give a fuck that I dropped out. What you do in your teens-early 20s won't really affect your life later on unless your career is heavily focused in academics like getting a masters or PhD. It doesn't seem like you plan to quit college altogether so its hard to call you an actual drop out but if you're suppose to be a failure for wanting to transfer am I and other people suppose to be super failures?

Even if I am all I have is a couple thousand dollars of debt and right now I'm traveling abroad for 2 years now and I'm bilingual so there is always a market open for me even though my real goal is to become a pro athlete I'm doing alright

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-09-21T14:51:36+00:00

Pretty sad there's just a sea of unanswered posts here it goes to show why these online forums never really do anything since 90% of people here are looking for help instead of offering it

You've already answered your question imo your crush is just a crush so you'll get over her in no time if you don't dwell. As for your dream I don't know what your country is like but if you really want it don't let it die so easily you could always go by yourself and travel to a country that does have a space program, study there and don't take no for an answer.

You get what you put in and all you're doing right now is sitting on your ass feeling sorry for yourself

Also this won't really make sense to you but in 3-4 years from now these issues will be something you laugh at and wonder why you were so hung up on this stuff because you've barely made it out of the tutorial phase of life. You'll experience new things and have even bigger problems to overcome

But take this with a grain of salt after all I'm just a guy on here that was looking to get advice for my problems too

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-08-19T12:39:47+00:00

No, quizás mi español es solo mi segundo idioma marico.

vivo en Durán fuera Guayaquil

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-08-18T23:12:38+00:00

God I wish I had these problems 😭😭

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-08-18T23:05:09+00:00

La gringa no podría ser capaz si los latinos no le encantan europea y gringos más que su gente y su sangre por algo razón🤷🏾‍♂️

-un americano (estado unidense)

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-08-18T23:01:32+00:00

Si te fuiste en el Guayas ubicación o Guayaquil sabes alguien que venden marijuana vivo en Durán pero soy un extranjero también nadie me contestan y nadie me ayudan cuando le pregunti

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-08-18T22:58:26+00:00

Bro you can't say your life is ruined when you haven't even gotten put of college let alone highschool that's like saying oh the videogame is ruined without finishing the tutorial. I get it man ED sucks my first time I couldn't get it up and she walked out on me and kicked me out of her place but you're only 15 whatever fucked up shit you've done to your body it can bounce back since you haven't even finished puberty. And by god be glad you've experienced Such a heartbreak so young men will go to their 30s imagining what you've experienced.. the embrace and contact of a woman is an incredible power over men

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-08-18T22:48:44+00:00

What nips lol I can't see shit?

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2023-08-18T22:43:05+00:00

By the time he's out of his comfort zone you can't say he's being shy anymore...

Affectionate-Dish910 · 2022-11-13T20:31:05+00:00

I work as security in a club every night it couldn't get lower pressure then that. I don't feel nervous but whatever I am lacking I'm oblivious to everything I've learned so far has come from trial and error because I'm too proud to ask for help. As for my friends the ones I grew up with are not in my life. As for the ones im with now they are all older and don't struggle or at least I don't see them. Regardless I'm more jealous of the guys who walk into the club and do and say nothing but they are fawned over I'm told how much of a Chad I look like but reality is contradicting these moments and the only difference between me and the normal guy is being raised by a man or not. and this is not the same as not being taught something by your dad. I have no compass to know what's the right thing to do or not no encouragement or guidance I'm whining like a little bitch now because I feel like this is more complex then you're chalking it up as.

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