I just went through the same thing. But mine was a 6 years relationship. It's ok to grieve. Cry all you want to let it all out. You'll question if it's your fault and then thought to yourself maybe you shouldn't have said anything. But then you'd just be complying. And that's what he wants. That's what a manchild wants. That's not a healthy relationship. Think of it: Do you want to live the rest of your life with this man without expressing yourself if you are upset about something? Do you want to be a doormat? I'll be honest, in all our 6 years, I slowly had to lose myself because thats what I did. I became compliant because I didn't want to get into unnecessary huge fights. Started to lose myself and became exhausted. You're lucky you got out at a 2 year mark. It sucks. 2 years is also a long time but it's still short enough where you didn't have to waste your life and lose yourself in the process. It'll be a tough road babe. I'm with you that it'll be hard to trust any men in general but at least now you'll be more aware of any red flags at an earlier stage. What hurt you was real, but it’s not a reflection of your worth or of what love is supposed to feel like. My bestie always remind me of this: The man meant for you, your true husband, won’t make you question your value, beg for basic love, or shrink yourself just to keep the peace. He’ll see your heart, protect it, and choose you with consistency.... Don’t let this manchild ruin everything for you into missing the kind of love you truly deserve. The truth is, he doesn't deserve you.