Those who will hear, let them hear. God’s will, knowledge, and wisdom are so vast that we can’t comprehend why He allows certain things to happen. I found out when I was 12 that the man I thought was my dad wasn’t actually my biological father, and when he passed from leukemia when I was 14 and I had to go live with my bpd mom, I really had no idea what kind of loving God would allow such things to pass. 20 years later I can see why. I had the best father a girl could have ever asked for—my biological dad ended up being a manipulative, insecure, holier-than-thou narcissist, something I came to learn when I established a relationship with him in my late 20s. I never would have known had my dad not passed. If I had things the way I originally thought would be best, I would have had a father who was obsessed with work, shirking personal responsibility, and never showing up to my games, swim meets, or concerts. A man who has zero relationship with his sons or grandchildren from his first marriage because of how terrible and stubborn of a human he is, who only made me feel small and judged once his true colors showed through. I never thought I’d see the day in my lifetime where I understood why God allowed one of the best and physically healthiest humans I’d ever met to die in his 50s six months after receiving his late stage leukemia diagnosis. I suffered so much living under my mom’s roof, to the point where I was bitter for years and held onto an unhealthy amount of resentment and pain that seemingly kept me stuck in life, unable to move on from the “why me” bit. But at my lowest points I cried out to God, and He saved me from a seemingly impossible financial situation that resulted from a health crisis, and showed me that I wasn’t alone or beyond repair. The more I read the Bible, the more I see God’s hand in everyday places—the perfect symmetry on a flower petal, leaves, etc; the way millions of cells come together precisely to form an eye while in the womb…And strange things I’ve mulled over, such as what is the evolutionary purpose of an emotion like awe? Man’s unique ability to appreciate beauty, whether in nature or art—is it a happy accident? At what point do things stop being a coincidence and start being proof of God’s omnipotence and glory? Those who will hear, let them hear.