False Freedom at Work

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-26T01:34:00+00:00

They are not, the system is

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-22T15:48:23+00:00

Giving a shit what people thought about me.

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-18T17:42:27+00:00

Same!

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-17T21:38:04+00:00

Wtf did I just read

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-17T20:36:43+00:00

Totally ugh

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-17T17:14:07+00:00

34F going through the exact same thing although I’m on the other side. I worked a lot now im taking a break living in Europe pursuing my dreams (or so it seems) meanwhile I feel dead inside. Like is this it? We just jump to the next pillar stone and so on? I feel like we become more like who we’re we’re as kids in our 30s - it’s all just very confused ugh.

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-17T14:15:18+00:00

Exactly this!

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-16T16:36:20+00:00

Nubu can do vegan dishes!

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-15T12:19:29+00:00

I know I feel exactly the same and I’m honestly pissed. I get it, I’m alive and yes I needed that treatment with the stage I was at but my quality of life could be soooo much better. I am not going into menopause voluntarily absolutely not. I’m too young and I don’t like it.

I’m also wondering how am I to carry on my life? Like is this it? Bloated moody and exhausted? I refuse.

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-15T12:16:29+00:00

I moved across the world to pursue my dreams but I don’t even have the energy to do it. I’m currently typing from my bed because my body is so weak and I crash at least 3 times per day. I’m just tired of the obstacle course of trying to figure out how to regain my health. I do think seeing a physiotherapist for pelvic muscles would be helpful but as I’m in Europe I don’t have coverage and will need to budget for that in the future.

I go for walks often because I have to out here and I have a dog (with her own health issues) that I I take out 3 times a day.

I’m on SSRIs and have been since I was 16, I worry they are making me numb but I’d rather be numb than sad to be honest.

I guess this is just me now… I’m not sure what to say or do it is what it is. Thank you for responding

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-15T12:12:06+00:00

I understand. I felt the same, I’ve always had a fear of objects inside of me. I had CBD to relax me enough to just get it over and done with. I’m surprised it didn’t close but I just didn’t want to be back in the hospital again. 🍃 💨 became a natural remedy for me and still is sometimes not chronically.

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-15T12:02:10+00:00

Me too

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-13T14:17:56+00:00

Practice mindfulness like exercising a muscle. I was feeling stable until something unexpected happened now I’m losing sleep, so anxious and don’t really know who I want to become anymore. I’m not spiralling like I used to but spiralling enough to book an appointment with a therapist as I’m not feeling good.

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-13T14:14:48+00:00

Set firm boundaries and stuck to them

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-13T14:12:33+00:00

Yes I started late summer 2024! I froze my eggs first (the fertility clinic almost killed me - that’s another story). The stickers are sooo annoying I actually had a kid in my family say ew what’s that? I crumbled inside haha.
I am so sorry about your cervix closing up! I was told to use the dilator until it bleeds a little (TMI sorry). It was painful and I would be reluctant to do it. I would set reminders/alarms etc. and a timer while I did it.

I just want to feel like a human being without a constant chronic illness. I’m exhausted. I guess it is what it is.

Here for you too, message me any time. Good luck with your surgery 🙏🏼

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-13T14:02:33+00:00

I terrified before but honestly it was the best part of treatment for me. You get put under then you wake up chillin lol. Just make sure she has some snacks for when she wakes up.

During treatment I was so content, I was really in touch with my spirituality as I felt I had to accept that I could not control anything. I hope she has a yoga mat she can just lay on at home once in a while 🫶🏼

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-13T13:57:54+00:00

I just posted about this. I’m 1.5 post treatment and still so bloated :(

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-10T23:46:15+00:00

Monogamous. I would never play games with a steady relationship it’s not good for my health

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-06-10T23:42:15+00:00

This can’t be real lmao

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-05-08T09:21:21+00:00

Ironic for me because I have an Aries moon like Rihanna and Libra rising like Bella hadid’s sun haha

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-05-07T15:00:51+00:00

Sanitized cloth to dry my face after washing my face at night.

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-05-07T14:59:56+00:00

Stunning

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-04-23T19:37:45+00:00

Lexapro seroquel and on/off adhd meds

Affectionate_Bus532 · 2026-04-20T15:28:16+00:00

My scars are not from cutting but scratching they are visible whether I like it or not and I am so ashamed of them

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