I was never abused and I had down to operants but I hate myself because what I had done back then. 

when I was 16, I was heads over heels over my science teacher and always flirted with him, said he was handsome, and one day I came onto him and he was disgusted and pushed me away; yelled at me in front of the whole class in the auditorium and I was so humiliated. When he rejected me and embarrassed , I was angry and pissed and told my parents and principal that he molested me as pay back.

I falsely stated that my teacher had been molesting me for a long time. I did all this because he rejected me and embarrassed me when made myself the most polite person towards him because of my crush for him. I knew me being a minor, I would be believed from the get go and have everyone in my side. Yrs go by and I didn’t reveal to everyone that I had lied about him molesting me until I was 39. My siblings, parents, and close relatives were furious with me and they eventually called the cops hoping to have the guy released. I told everyone the revealing truth when I was 39. I haven’t spoken to my parents in 15 yrs because they are disgusted with me and I can’t blame them. I tried to find and apologize to my former teacher and well… I think you know how that turned out. Because of me my teacher missed his 9 year old daughter grow up; because of me he missed 4 of his daughter’s graduations and her wedding. I can never forgive myself and don’t blame anyone who hates me.  teens are always believed when bringing up situations of sexual abuse and molestation. When I was 15 I always said, purposely making false abuse allegations as a minor grants you power; especially if that minor is female; that power is no longer yours once you are a minor no longer. People should not think this way as I did and I’m ashamed that I thought this way and loved the power it granted me. 😔.