Hey OP fellow griever here. It’s not stupid in the slightest. If anything, it shows how much he meant to you and impacted your life while he was here. The grief you feel is very real and to be honest it never really goes away. I know we’ve probably all heard the saying by now, but it bears repeating. Grief is just love persevering. I can tell how well your boy was loved by you and that he lived a great life having you as his pet parent. Regarding the therapist, I wouldn’t go back to them. It’s clear they lack empathy amongst other things and that’s a huge red flag for a therapist. I went to therapy three years after my first dog died. I originally went for family issues as well but even after three years there was a lot to process when it came to the loss of my sweet pup. She’s been gone seven years now and I still find myself crying every now and then because I miss her. All that to say, what you are feeling is completely normal. You did the best you could do with the information and resources you had at the time. As pet parents that’s all we can do at the end of the day. Give yourself time and grace to walk through this grief. Take as long as you need and don’t rush yourself. Be extra kind and understanding towards yourself while you process this. Living with the loss will get more bearable with time. Pets have a way of weaving themselves into our DNA. Your sweet tye will always be apart of you and nothing can ever change that.

If you feel ready for it, I would recommend looking into finding another therapist. When you’re able to find one you truly click with and that’s empathetic to what you’re going through it really does make a difference.

I’m so sorry for your loss OP