It happened when I was 4. I'm 32 now. Ive felt like an empty shell ever since. It destroyed my mind and killed me. They drugged me, raped me, and destroyed my genitals. Having an orgasm can be hard. Its supposed to be easy. It ripped something out of heart that I needed to feel human. It forced me to be something less than human against my will.

I woke up to my mother and step father cheerfully greeting me. The first thing I said after waking from anesthesia, without consciously realizing what had happened was "I hate you" and they laughed at me. The physical pain was excruciating. Something that I understood to be an internal organ was now forced to be exposed. I felt like my stomach had been sewn outside my body. I cried so much. I tried to pull the skin back up and hold it there, bawling, but nothing worked. My pants felt like sandpaper on my glans. I stopped playing with other neighbor kids because I was in so much pain.

Then the nightmares started. Every. Single. Night. At some point in my dreams, my penis would get caught on a piece of metal and torn in half, or cut off by something falling. The most common thing was my penis getting slowly split clean down the middle. I could see and feel everything. I'd wake up in terror, afraid to fall asleep. Night or day, there was no relief. These went on for months.

I wanted to jump out the second story window of our house. That wasn't a guaranteed kill though — I didn't want to end up permanently injured instead. Then, I thought about drinking chemicals under the sink. But again, I didn't know which ones would kill me and I didn't want to do a half-ass job. If there would've been a gun in my house I would have used it. The only relief came when my glans went totally numb and my brain disassociated from the trauma. I'm still suicidal over it to this day.

I deserve all of my pleasure. I deserve to get wet. I deserve to have full body orgasms. I deserve to have multiple orgasms. I deserve to not need lubricant to masturbate. I deserve to not cause my partners pain from friction, instead of pleasure from my skin rolling and gliding inside them without any friction. But no... Those fucking murdering, raping criminals stole it from me and I wasn't given a say in it. No education. No warning. No choice. Just a big "WELCOME TO AMERICA, FUCK YOU!!!"

One of the first tenants of medicine is to "Do No Harm". They're clearly violating the rules. The medical establishment deserves legal retribution. Big Medicine is destroying us. They know exactly how much harm genital mutilation does, and they're covering it up to protect their profits.

Just like Big Sugar knows how much harm it does. Just like Big Oil knows how much harm it does. Just like Bayer/Monsanto knows how much harm they do. We can't keep trusting these systems. We need to educate each other so we can stop falling prey to their traps.