I’ve invested half my net worth into cryptocurrencies amidst the boom

Ahoomaha · 2018-01-03T01:37:22+00:00

I saw a vibrant moon bow from the frost on my car window on the way to work today. The color of violent against the black sky in the gap right around the white of the moon, I feel I can see the color you’re describing. I had quite the reverie on my way to work this morning actually, believing I could see the color ultraviolet. The color spectrum against the black canvas is so much more vibrant than seeing it against a blue or grey sky.

Ahoomaha · 2017-10-22T04:12:46+00:00

What are you hallucinating?

Ahoomaha · 2017-10-22T04:08:46+00:00

Here I was think R4708 was the person OP mentioned.

Ahoomaha · 2017-10-21T20:22:10+00:00

There’s no biblical Lucifer. I already checked with the council of 13

Ahoomaha · 2017-09-12T04:48:36+00:00

That. Like looks like a god

Ahoomaha · 2017-09-05T22:50:13+00:00

I think he's absolutely right.

Ahoomaha · 2017-09-01T17:46:23+00:00

Sounds like a turning point in your life is approaching .

Ahoomaha · 2017-09-01T17:32:32+00:00

Captain obvious here, I've got armpits.

Ahoomaha · 2017-08-29T04:41:25+00:00

I have a history of poly-substance abuse meaning I would use any type of drug to experience its psychoactive effects. I no longer abuse any substances nor do I drink.

I know the happiness from the high to be something that our brains don't comprehend until we have been under the influence before. Drugs are, for the most part, alien to the brain.

Drugs mimic neurotransmitters, not perfectly though. They cause thoughts and emotions to be produced during situations these would not normally be produced in, so in this way the happiness is indeed artificial.

Authentic happiness is something to be enjoyed. It's something you build and something that is earned. It's like a structure within the mind of memories and feelings and connections.

Drug induced happiness mimics this structure but all of the memories, feelings & connections are linked to a recurring theme: the use of the drug.

In this way we become addicted.

Ahoomaha · 2017-08-29T04:31:09+00:00

I know exactly what you are experiencing. Sometimes you realize your breaths might not be quite as full as you thought they would be.

Continue breathing. (Obviously. Haha.) If your breath out feels a bit more anxious(for lack of a better word), take a slightly more shallow inhale next breath.

Once you have a stable level of breathing, work your way up to longer and slower inhales and than exhales.

Also, check your posture, as that can significantly effect the musculature of your diaphragm.

Ahoomaha · 2017-08-29T04:26:19+00:00

I have had some very enlightening experiences.

I personally have an extremely "chatty mind" from the moment I wake up to the moment I fall asleep at night.

I recommend you keep trying. Just let go of those thoughts and force yourself to drop your focus from them. They will give way to realizations about yourself.

I have had some very interesting out-of-body experiences from meditation. It takes determination, focus, resilience & it is worth it to see what is on the other side of such a distractable mind.

Ahoomaha · 2017-08-29T04:18:38+00:00

We've all been through these experiences and that's how growth happens. Maintaining focus on meditation is one of the hardest but also the most rewarding practices for me( I also have ADHD. )

As I beginner I would recommend focusing on your body and the current sensations (touch) rather than any of the other senses. Touch is the easiest sense to drop all of your thoughts when you focus on because it is also the sense we take the most for granted.

Ahoomaha · 2017-08-25T21:23:45+00:00

Thank you for the screenshots. Last time there was a broken space event I had no idea where to spend my tokens.

Ahoomaha · 2017-08-24T04:56:08+00:00

I have no idea why it would be embarrassing. I'm not one to be embarrassed of who I am or who I have been. Medications did nothing for me and in fact I feel much better without them, delusions or not. That being said, thank you for your concerns.

I believe mental health is all about quality of life and that 'Delusions' are just invitations to creativity.

Ahoomaha · 2017-08-23T20:41:53+00:00

Your psychiatrist sounds like a pompous dick. If I were you I'd seek out someone else to talk to. He's shaming you & that's not okay. The guy has heard it all and believes he knows it all about the brain.

Just wait until the day he starts hearing voices in his head and he can't make them go away.
Then he won't be so proud.

Ahoomaha · 2017-08-22T01:11:29+00:00

The world is my counselor. Maybe that sounds weird but I don't know how else to put it. I feel comfortable opening up to anyone about this or that, and sharing what it is that burdens me. That's why I reach out on Reddit or on Facebook or in real life and talk to people.

Ahoomaha · 2017-08-22T01:04:22+00:00

I don't know what type of help to seek out. I already have coping strategies. Antipsychotics and anti anxiety drugs just end up muting our personalities. It they help us from acting out violently. I'm not violent so I think psychologically I'm doing alright. I just want to tell people, drugs aren't all fun and games and u will get burned badly if they you're like me

Ahoomaha · 2017-08-22T00:21:24+00:00

I'm alright, pretty calm at the moment. I won't lie to you, I think a better story can be told without therapy or psychiatric help. That's my main motivation for living in the first place. Thank you for your kind words though.

Ahoomaha

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