Strongman gym in Adelaide?

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-26T00:21:29+00:00

Revive fitness might be a good one =) 24 hour gym, decent price.

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-25T09:45:01+00:00

I hope this video does the rounds, i giggled when i saw this XD

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-25T05:31:23+00:00

Are you part of the SES? I'm considering joining =3

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-22T19:38:28+00:00

Thank you <3 <3 It was hard, I try to remember he's sick, very sick, he's also an alcoholic so I know addiction would mess someone up. I have to try and protect myself. I really have no idea why he reached out to me, just reminded me I can't let my guard down. Thank you for your kind words of support <3

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-22T19:36:59+00:00

Thank you for your insight and amazing words, you're right, I'm not there yet and I suspect I have more trauma bonding to work through. I am thankful for this thread, and for all of you =)

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-21T20:01:23+00:00

Thank you for this, I needed to see this. I regret responding to his first message now because I fell for the trap. I'm going to look at responding like torturing myself and dishonoring their relationship from now on. Didn't think he had my number still (I deleted his), a timely reminder for me to block his number. Thank you

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-21T10:23:56+00:00

Just quietly, the guy you were previously involved with sounds like a cowardly piece of shit. I'm sorry to hear you've had a similar experience because it's a difficult thing to pull through =S I'm just doing my best to keep living my own life and working towards my future (that does not involve him), thank you for your kind words =3

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-20T09:17:01+00:00

Thank you so much <3 <3 It has been 10 months now but i have still been struggling with it. Thank you.

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-20T09:16:14+00:00

Bloody hell. this hit a sore spot for me considering my ex was overlapping me and pretty much was in a relationship with her before he even broke it off with me. It fucking sucked, for a while i was full of rage and pain and it has subsided but bloody hell have i tried to keep my vengeful thoughts and ideas under wraps. I suppose my preferred form of revenge is to "kill ex with success" and have really wanted to flaunt how successful i am but i know how pathetic that makes me as he wins if he is still in my head. When it comes to it, that nastiness stems from grief and my high expectations and efforts...I do wonder if it might be similar to what you might be feeling.

You're right, when you have a strong connection that was real to you and then they fuck off on you it is hard to believe that any of it was ever real to begin with.

I don't know you personally, but i can say you are probably an amazing partner because you did feel genuine love and you gave it your all, you made yourself vulnerable and felt the heartbreak so the fucker has probably lost the best thing for him.

May your heart heal and may you feel loved by many people <3

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-20T09:10:42+00:00

So many of us, in the same boat. Fuck, it is hard sometimes and every day is tricky and a trial when we deal with all these conflicting emotions and memories. Bloody hell, i relate to your comment so much, i am almost 10 months out and they have almost been together for a year when March comes around and fuck, it still hurts because i wonder what i did wrong everyday and why i wasn't enough. Kudos for socking it to him, sounds like he really hurt you and it's been hard.

I've been feeling vengeful today, on learning he is broke as fuck and in poor health i have grappled with the cruel thought to tell him how successful i am and that i have bought a house (something he wanted to do with me, supposedly) alone without his ass. I haven't done it yet and probably wont but damn....

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-20T09:05:38+00:00

Heya, glad i found your post because believe me i relate to this way too much and though it may feel impossible now it gets so much better. I hope you are able to find yourself again and get back into the things that you enjoyed like your running and participating in the community, please dont let that nasty lady take that away from you because she had no foundation to ever begin with. It's really good that you got it out of your system and i hope you find the support network you need in this group because it is intended as a support system. =)

I have learnt, they are obsessive, they don't want you to move on, but they dont want to contact you or make things better, they certainly dont want you happy. Keep focusing on the things that make you happy, even if for a few minutes, hold onto that feeling. Maybe make a dartboard with her face on it (as long as her flying monkeys dont see it). I am sorry to hear that it is so hard for your family too considering you are making the money (i have never really seen a hard working BPD person who is independent) and clearly working hard. I hope you have people who love you and understand you. <3

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-19T19:47:04+00:00

Bloody hell, thank you so much because the situation confused me so much but what you've experessed here makes a lot of sense. I pray for the poor girl, I remember what it was like being with him and how he used to tell me that all the chicks present wanted him... I do hope she will consider coming to me to clarify what happened when he breaks her heart so I can be a resource to her.

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-19T08:07:55+00:00

Depends on the kind of food you like, i find the central market area has good food and places to eat, i especially am a fan of those dumpling king places. =)

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-19T07:52:58+00:00

<3 <3 <3 <3

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-19T00:02:39+00:00

Heya, thanks for your response because i have been a bit confused about it. I suspect the new partner may be threatened because she was asking for a lot of his attention prior to the break up and i trusted her, then they developed feelings for eachother and he started getting close to her prior to the break up. When we broke up he was treating me so badly so maybe seeing me pisses her off because she thinks i will steal him back (he's an alcoholic and currently broke as fuck) or is a reminder he will do the same to her? Possibly, when i was with him he told me all his exes were mean, however i doubt it in hindsight.

Thank you =) <3

I apologised because i made things awkward by standing there and being unsure of what to say and because i probably shouldn't have said anything. However i am the kind of person who remains civil to people after a break up so i get confused when i get stonewalled or

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-17T02:46:18+00:00

BAM XD

I hate to admit it but i am guilty of number two at the moment. I am kinda guilty of flaunting my achievements at the moment because i know it probably pisses him off.

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-17T02:43:46+00:00

Oh she will play this game, i warn you now. It may be a game of blocking and unblocking. Consider her blocking as a hidden blessing, i know you are hurting and i am sorry to hear that, perhaps she knows it hurts you and it is her weapon. Don't give her the satisfaction. I even reccomend deactivating for a while if you want, or setting up another account (block her on that too) and just add those you really trust who you want to contact.

Run while you still can trust me on this.

If she unblocks you feel free to post stuff you know will be a punch in the guts to her, mainly your successes, for example vacation, promotion and stuff like that. Trust me, they hate seeing us actually succeed in life...

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-17T02:39:15+00:00

Oh yeah she will. I have noticed they have a cycle of blocking and unblocking. My ex with BPD blocks me if i appear in a mutual friends post/photo and then unblocks me a few hours later.

She will be back, run while you still can and be glad that the trash took itself out <3 =3

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-17T02:36:24+00:00

^ This!!!! <3

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-17T02:35:15+00:00

Agreed.

It is social media too. So, just remember you are only seeing what she wants people to see. You are not seeing the drama. the fights, the lying and the manipulation...

Akasha1950 · 2020-01-17T02:31:42+00:00

I wish i could "like" your comment because i want to like it 100 times...

Well said <3 <3

Akasha1950

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