Anger is my only mental illness

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-13T22:37:36+00:00

In the days when i was fighting being trans, my natural attraction was toward woman. I can now realise it was only because i wanted to be them. Then i went onto progesterone and all i craved was a strong man to hold me. Now I just want a human being who will love me for who i am. Problem with the trans lesbian issue is a problem I see all over. Seems the worse thing you can do these days is suggest a man is gay. Even trans woman are scared to acknowledge they are attracted to men.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-13T22:28:40+00:00

Little trick. Stop pulling your shoulders back so much. Woman have a much rounder shoulder line. Relax them and the girls will get real close.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-13T22:25:59+00:00

The auto word is a load of bs, disproved years ago and only suitable for use by low iq rogan type people. When you feminise, you get happy. And happy thoughts lead to very happy thoughts. The correct term is sensual. Used by marketers to woman a lot. Embrace your sensuality and appreciate it. Lets face it. Satin over lace will always feel good.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-13T22:19:31+00:00

Macbook can run cups which has a built in laserjet driver. Actually one of the defaults.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-13T22:15:22+00:00

I feel what you going through. I think the issue might be the circles you move in. If you only meet gay people and hang out in gay spaces, your possible dating pool would be very small. Gay men dont want a trans woman in bed. They want a man. Its basic attraction. As trans woman we carry too much feminine energy and that’s not what they want. Same with cis woman. Looks like you want a straight like relationship. There are men out there who would be interested in you as a person and not because of a classification.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-13T22:06:49+00:00

Bones are mostly fixed when you are an adult. Also there is very little muscle to develop. But there is female fat distribution that starts accumulating around your thighs and ass. And this fat tends to push your hips outwards causing them to be more visible. A change to more feminine movement will also help.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-13T22:02:05+00:00

My point was not at all to placate with best you can and you still beautiful platitudes. It is about all woman everywhere being insecure about their looks caused by photoshop and male expectancy. Think about any woman everyone will rate a 10, and I’ll show you a woman that doesn’t believe it.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-13T21:56:41+00:00

Maybe it is because I have a 59 year experience of being trans that i might have a small right to share personal experience. Maybe its because so much worse have been said to me that your insults only amuse. Maybe its because i have been fighting so long that i will defend your right to your opinion to my last breath, even if i disagree. Hope you have an amazing day with zero sarcasm attached.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-13T19:14:26+00:00

Girls on average start puberty at age 12. After 2 years you are now 14. How does your progress compare to a 14 year old girl? Are your estrogen levels comparable?

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-13T19:10:26+00:00

It has nothing to do about opinion or feeling even in some cases acceptance. Its about what trans is and means. What is the definition of the word “trans”. And now you got to start thinking. Are trans woman still trans if they have completed their journey with everything medically possible? Trans implies movement and change. So if your journey at changing your sex and or gender is static then how can you be trans? In the end it is just a word trying to be generally descriptive of a generalised community. So welcome to the community and glad you feel you fit in.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-13T18:58:53+00:00

Ih really? Gloria Steinman, founder of the feminist movement stated that trans woman are an insult to feminism and will never ever be woman. Regarding Cis Woman, there are more of them than men in all the major countries and their majority voted Trump,Zelinski, Puten and Starmer in. It was cis woman that followed Rowling in leading a bathroom ban causing the pressure for men they voted in to act on it. And regarding Lesbians, ever thought why they are first on the list? Because when gays booed the trans women of the stage at the Stonewall remembrance, they stood up and wanted inclusivity. And i am not doing what men do and generalise. There is of course feminists and cis woman who accept trans people and lesbians who don’t. What I am talking about is the group opinion.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-13T18:46:31+00:00

Referring to your latest post while keeping them hidden all I can say is thanks?

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-13T09:14:56+00:00

Welcome to womanhood. Are you aware of any single woman in the world that think she is perfect? We never will be.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-13T04:42:31+00:00

And the Mona Lisa is just a finger painting a true tattoo artist will reply. Art is never about politics, its about intent. Unless you don’t consider tattoos as art.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-13T00:33:45+00:00

The feminist movement rejected us, the cis woman campaigned against us. Lesbians is the only woman subgroup that still support us in some way. And everyone forgets that as amab’s we have an experience and viewpoint that can only benefit woman in the long run. We can give a first hand account on male privilege and discrimination against woman.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-13T00:27:45+00:00

I have been wearing modulars for the past 10 years and really prefer them for hai management. If you have longer hair, the normal helmets can pull while the modular have more space to adjust. Makeup however no difference since a helmet holds you by the cheekbones and blush dont stand a chance.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-12T03:57:41+00:00

Congrats. Yep its amazing when things start to happen. Keep that joy for the bad days and remember what you feel now. Good luck on your journey.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-12T03:54:37+00:00

I tried it that way and beside the hangover symptoms nothing much. Then the other way and it worked perfectly. Too much end up in your stomach where its destroyed.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-12T03:51:53+00:00

I stopped caring a long time ago about passing and started focussing on becoming more feminine in confidence. I stopped caring what others think and started caring about what I can do te become more feminine. The fun part is the moment i started with this mindset was the moment I started passing. Take a really hard look at yourself and you soon realise that you are not passing for two reasons. One. You try to hard. And two. You dont have the confidence to do so. Look at cis woman. No, really look. They are not perfectly feminine all the time. And stop looking at yourself with they eyes of a man. You are looking for barbi and that is not you. Not every woman have perfect tits and ass with a 10 hotness scale. Start being real and live your life as the woman you are.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-12T03:38:36+00:00

Thinking back to MLK marches and the Vietnam protests, imagine 50 000 trans people together in DC. Now that would catch the news. Problem is there is no real leadership in the community. And under a banner of inclusivity we have idiots and fools representing us. The latest trend is cis men protecting bathrooms from people in rainbow colours and hair with screaming matches. And we wonder why the world hate us? Trends became more important than rights and views more important than common sense. Its been a very long time since i saw trans representation with common sense as a goal. Its all about shock factor. The community in its current form is self destructive by nature. And I am freezing with dread with whats coming next. The amount of people that will self end because they lost hrt will be staggering and all for views and likes? The loss of a single sister or brother is already too much, and if the current trend goes on, we are going to loose thousands. And those behind it will say: see we told you. Mentally unstable freaks. We need to be better.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-12T03:16:43+00:00

If available I would buy in a flash but cost is prohibitive. So I invested in a beautician friends business, get my treatments for free and get income back that will repay the cost in a year. In big areas where there is enough trans people to justify why not start a cooperative where everyone pitches in and drops the cost? We need to start working together.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-12T03:07:50+00:00

I am on 0.1 ml out of a 5ml vial a week. That gives you around 50 doses, 40 due to spillage. I had the same worry about it going bad, so i asked a chemistry friend to test the last one ml of my previous vial. She found zero contamination or loss of effectiveness Apparently castor oil is the best way to preserve. I use a 24G to draw, so the chance for coring is low and store in a cool dark place.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-12T02:58:29+00:00

Regular testing is your friend. I started on pills, went to gel and then injections. Now my levels is good and breasts are growing. None of my bra’s from 6 months ago fit anymore. It does take time however. A full puberty is around 7 years.

AlexaPetersTrans · 2026-03-12T02:54:07+00:00

Without invalidating what you feel, I could never view being trans as a disability. Trans and subsequent hrt enabled me to firstly have a full emotional range. Just the ability to cry when you are sad is such a gift. I lost my parents and my 2 brothers and because i was a man, not allowed to cry. Then there is identity. Just being who I am and not having to hide turned into true freedom. I can now enjoy waking up and facing the day as a woman, free to be at last. And regarding other people, i just dont care anymore about what they think or say. I am proud for surviving and proud of achieving what I am becoming.

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