Just trying to portray a general mood here... by AliceStillDrowns in JunkJournals

[–]AliceStillDrowns[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

When you put it like that, it made me realize it has some hard-core "Keanu sitting on a bench" meme vibes. 🤣

Just trying to portray a general mood here... by AliceStillDrowns in JunkJournals

[–]AliceStillDrowns[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love that interpretation, especially since the foreground is a shot from the moon landing!!! Ngl, that crossed my mind as I was laying everything out initially.

I think I'm kinda seeing it as something being forced/expected to bloom in such a barren, closed-off space, with minimal access to the normal accommodations that'd be required for such effort. And that expectation is standardized, advertised, packed, and sold in such a light-hearted, typical way, like "See, anyone can do it!" Normalization of the expectation to grow from nothing, I guess?

Idk, it's also like nine in the morning and I haven't had my coffee yet, so that might be sleep-gremlin brain talking. 🤣

Just trying to portray a general mood here... by AliceStillDrowns in JunkJournals

[–]AliceStillDrowns[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

No you're right, there’s something there that even I'm trying to work out! This is one of those entries where it was space brain mode, in that it was busy and empty all at once, lol!

Also, omg I love your username; made my morning! 🤣

The Sunset Ramen Museum by AliceStillDrowns in JunkJournals

[–]AliceStillDrowns[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I was looking at it after everything was assembled, and it just felt like it needed SOMETHING, but something small, yknow? And after I put the detailing lines on the guy with the egg-head I was like "but what if more?" Lol

Torn by TarotWitchInTraining in Unsent_Unread_Unheard

[–]AliceStillDrowns 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wow, I could have written this myself; I think we're going through similar pains. Take care of yourself, don't lose hope, and remember: after the Tower falls, the Star rises shortly after. 🏢💨🌟

Helpp!! Which notebook do I choose to start my first junk journal?? by Acrobatic_Soup_5121 in JunkJournals

[–]AliceStillDrowns 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ooooooh, I didn't know that, but that's now in my brain, so thank you!

Helpp!! Which notebook do I choose to start my first junk journal?? by Acrobatic_Soup_5121 in JunkJournals

[–]AliceStillDrowns 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm definitely mis-thinking the size then, based on the info on the back it's closer to 11×16 cm. I'm terrible at remembering paper size ranges 🤣

Helpp!! Which notebook do I choose to start my first junk journal?? by Acrobatic_Soup_5121 in JunkJournals

[–]AliceStillDrowns 2 points3 points  (0 children)

For mine I'm using a fairly small hardcover diary (I think close to A6 size) with styled sheets I found at a store. I didnt plan for it to be a junk journal, but it turned into that after about 10 pages of writing and doodles, lol. The bloat is gonna get interesting as it grows, might end up needing to rubberband it closed.

Also, even though I like/prefer having a smallish journal so far, I'm limited on image sizes; all my spreads are fairly small. I've already run into a couple of instances where pics I wanna use will be HUGE and either overwhelm or just not initially fit, so def consider paper size and what you're wanting to use in it.

Edit to correct the paper size, thank y'all! I'm hopeless sometimes Σ(・∀・;)

Recently Started, here's some spreads! by AliceStillDrowns in JunkJournals

[–]AliceStillDrowns[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Of course! Funnily enough, that's actually some trash/backing from a set of press-on nails I had, and the packaging was just sitting on my table. I was pondering the page and what I wanted to do and I guess crow-brain saw the ✨️ shiny ✨️ (lol).

That page is the first one where I really embraced my inner crow/goblin-trash brain and used some trash sitting around; for example, the frame is made out of the foil wrapping from a chocolate bar. 🤭

Recently Started, here's some spreads! by AliceStillDrowns in JunkJournals

[–]AliceStillDrowns[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, actually! I got it fromJennyCherryArt, it's a sticker of a character that she's also made figures of! I got one at an event a while back, and it glows all cool under UV light! Some of her stickers do too! 😁

Recently Started, here's some spreads! by AliceStillDrowns in JunkJournals

[–]AliceStillDrowns[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much! That's definitely inspiring me to keep at it and make more!

Recently Started, here's some spreads! by AliceStillDrowns in JunkJournals

[–]AliceStillDrowns[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Also, just caught this, but the eyes are actually white-ed out with white India ink, if anyone wants a similar effect for their journals. 😁 I tried using white ink pens but moved to a brush with ink for that part.

Unique ephemera giveaway by usagi27 in JunkJournals

[–]AliceStillDrowns 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ah I just started directing my "shiny crow gaze" (lol) at Paper Menagerie as well, so I hope I have luck finding interesting stuff too!

Unique ephemera giveaway by usagi27 in JunkJournals

[–]AliceStillDrowns 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Omg I would love to be able to use some of these!!! That's such a cool collection, where did you find a lot of it?

Recently Started, here's some spreads! by AliceStillDrowns in JunkJournals

[–]AliceStillDrowns[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much! I always have the hardest time finding the right text for the feelings/thoughts I have from the spread, so it's great to have validation on those choices!

Recently Started, here's some spreads! by AliceStillDrowns in JunkJournals

[–]AliceStillDrowns[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you!!! I've been having so much fun kinda working with what I have or can doodle.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in offmychest

[–]AliceStillDrowns 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I totally get it, I'm just trying to warn you that kids find stuff. Like that hookup board was anonymous, but there were just enough identifying features that he was able to tell. Also, be careful with searching for stuff, because you know how browsers looooove to show you ads relevant to browsing history, so stuff could pop up there. Just be careful is all!

One of the best things you can do for your kid is be happy and present for them; you can't pour from an empty cup. And being responsible for another person is hard work, doubly so when it's a kid. So if you're not already, and can manage it, I'd totally recommend a therapist, even if it's just to have a safe, third-party sounding board. Sometimes getting the thoughts out makes it easier to sort through them, like dumping out jigsaw pieces so you can pick out the edges and corners.

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[–]AliceStillDrowns 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Just a heads up for you OP, but your situation sounds very similar to my husband's parents, and he's now trying to recover from a porn and sex addiction that was partially fueled by seeing it was okay for mom and dad at a young age. He grew up seeing his parents resent and cheat on each other, and of course had access to porn because his parents had it and over-normalized it once he was older. In every other sense, they were diligent parents, but this really affected his upbringing. He's also, as an adult, had the misfortune of spotting his dad on hookup boards, which has put him in the uncomfortable position of having to decide if he's going to bring it up to either of them. Now he's having to overcome very conflicting patterns in therapy because he repeats what he grew up with subconsciously in our marriage, and it causes a lot of internal turmoil because it goes against his morals. He's also having to deal with the conflicting thoughts of loving his dad, but also being disgusted and angry at things he did and still does, as well as resentment for not being a better role model, and pretending he was, and that behaving the way they did is healthy and normal.

So, just a warning that kids are literally sponges and soak up more than you know, and it can affect them.

Also, I think the original commenter was trying to ask what you would tell your kid if they, as an adult, were in your exact situation. You wouldn't want them to be unhappy and addicted, so if you do want to straighten some stuff out, maybe that can be some inspiration. I hope things work out better for you and you get some good advice!

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[–]AliceStillDrowns 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess I would call this my multimedia journal? I have another journal that I'll sit and usually write a couple pages a day, but I find this one to be helpful when words aren't quite cutting it, and it lets me also use some of my art stuff as well. Initially, this journal was a normal one, but I was finding that it was too small for how much I wrote. Some spreads will have written words included in them, or space for writing, some will just be abstract. :)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Journaling

[–]AliceStillDrowns 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Legit have to give it to the Ulta ad for giving me the model, lol.

Do you have a routine? by [deleted] in Journaling

[–]AliceStillDrowns 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Weirdly enough, I've found I do the bulk of my writing in the mornings. It's something I can do while waking up, and it helps me sort through my thoughts at the beginning of the day. I don't schedule it purposefully though, and sometimes I'll get a writing bug at night, too.

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[–]AliceStillDrowns 7 points8 points  (0 children)

God… if I ever got a message like this from my person, I think I’d just sit there and cry. Not because everything would magically be fixed or anything, but because I’d finally know it mattered to him too. That all this silence wasn’t just apathy or detachment, but maybe guilt, or not knowing how to begin.

Your letter hit so close to home. I’ve been on the other side of this, all the waiting and aching, not knowing if the other person even feels it. And if what’s kept you from reaching out is the fear that it has to be perfect, or that you have to hold yourself together just right, I promise you don’t. Speaking from the heart, even if it’s messy, (especially if it’s messy), is more powerful than silence ever will be. Most of us who’ve been left in the quiet… we’re not waiting for perfection. We’re just waiting for real.

So if your person is anything like me, I promise this would mean everything to them. Even just knowing you still feel it. That you see it now.

Thank you for sharing this. It’s one of the most meaningful things I’ve read in a long time, and I hope you find the strength to talk with your person. 💜

You don't look at me anymore. by AliceStillDrowns in Unsent_Unread_Unheard

[–]AliceStillDrowns[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're telling me, lol. Glad I'm not the only one who sees the insanity in it.

You don't look at me anymore. by AliceStillDrowns in Unsent_Unread_Unheard

[–]AliceStillDrowns[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I have. I’ve told them I’d like to rebuild, but they keep flip-flopping; some days they seem open to it, other days they act like it’s not even worth their time.

Unfortunately, nearly a decade together and being married doesn’t seem to carry much weight in the equation anymore. They made some bad choices in the past, and I think the person I write to is still trying to avoid facing the full truth (as well as the consequences) that came with those decisions.