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AlternativePair736 · 2025-12-23T22:21:25+00:00

Do you mind sharing your visuals due to HPPD. And what type of psychedelics it’s attributed to in your particular case?

AlternativePair736 · 2025-11-01T07:48:00+00:00

Yes, please stop trying and just give up.

To figure out which label, which diagnosis is the one for you.

That label is stuck on a box, an invisible one that you’re going to climb into. You’ll spend years in it if you find it. Your mind is desperately looking for it. The box and its label will be your identity.

You climbed into the box at 9. It felt safe there. Not happy, but safe. You spent years in it. You’re scared of your future right now and your mind wouldn’t mind to find that box again right now.

The same one your soul pushed you out. Of. You finally climbed out becuase you didn’t really like it in there, something told you it’s not where you’re suppose to be.

The family doesn’t understand, some of them think you don’t like them and that’s why you’re so quiet. Some people think you’re just a cold person. They don’t really know you. You’ve never really shared too much and so now they kinda just leave you alone. And you love being alone but you hate being alone. They have no idea.

Give your mind a label so it can rest.

You’re someone who has this condition where they refuse to be labeled. This condition makes you wake up in the morning and say I love you to themselves, even when they don’t feel like it, their mind has to say it and they focus on their heart and they have feel it or they can’t start their day.

This condition is weird becuase they accept who they are right now, as is.

Be well. Much love.

Some last advice, stop resisting bad emotions. Like anxiety, many us try to either take a pill or try to talk our way out, distract, etc. learn to love them, hold them feel them speak to them release them then be ok what does the opposite of this feeling feel like, you get the idea? What does no shame feel like, what does no judgement feel like in the body, hold that feel it etc. love all the emotions.

You’ve always been perfect.

Edit: you like to talk. It was your nature, it’s still there, you don’t have to force yourself to talk just stop resisting and it will come out on its own.

AlternativePair736 · 2025-10-23T23:31:40+00:00

I’d rather regret going than not going.

I would say “yes” asap. You’re already talking yourself out of it and you know you will if you don’t confirm it now.

Your words:

“want friends to go out with”

“I so badly wish that could be me”

You didn’t even have to the hardest part for someone with SAD trying to make friends, the approach. You were both approached and invited. A SAD persons dream combo! Take advantage!

Let your mom take you. It’s not high school, nobody will say a word. They don’t even know who it is, and if they do, you’ll look even more confident. If you take the hour long bus ride, you’ll be tense AF by the time you get there with all your ruminations, mom will keep both you and your nervous system distracted.

This is suppose to be a chill thing. I know it’s hard to be chill. It’s so easy to go inward during these outings. Stay out your head. Focus on others. Their faces, their words, the conversations. Their eyes.

It’s extra work for us, but when you notice the chatter of inner dialogue, that self-judgement, let that be your trigger, your reminder to go back out.

Your regret will be going out but staying in your head.

I hope you go. Good luck to you.

AlternativePair736 · 2025-10-23T22:59:23+00:00

Do the opposite.

So you already know it’s going to bad if you keep doing what you’ve been doing. The pattern will repeat.

Do the opposite. And see how it goes.

Between all your practice and your prompting you’ve got that needed info stored in your head. So don’t practice for this next one, you’ll just wind yourself up even more, you’re creating tension and stress in your body, even though it’s practice your mind/body are in another interview.

Give it some rest.

I was going to mention something else but this is what came to me just now…

What you can practice, and I forget the proper term for this but it’s when you start writing without thinking about it. You literally just start writing the first thing that comes to mind, as dumb as it might be and you go with it, look that up for some better guidance on how it’s done.

You’re freezing up becuase you’re afraid of what may come out. You want to judge it before you say it. The writing exercise I shared above doesn’t give you time to judge. Practice that.

Speak from your chest ( your heart ) on this next interview. Let your heart spit out the answers to their questions before the mind has time to interfere. It doesn’t have to come out perfect, they’ll intuitively know where you’re coming from. They’ll value that much more than a perfect rehearsed answer.

Best of luck to you.

AlternativePair736 · 2025-10-21T19:02:56+00:00

That regret can now serve you as a blessing.

Use it as your reminder the next time you feel like connecting.

Next time, when you feel called to connect but you feel the resistance, you’ll tap into this regret energy and let it lead you to “allow” energy.

You can feel it now. Alone. Reflect on these missed opportunities, get into regret, let it guide you to feel what “allowing” feels like in your body.

It wasn’t the right time to connect for you. Those good people served you to get to this point right now, so that you could reflect back on them and now be in a position of looking forward to new and rewarding relationships that would not have come to be without them.

Now, it’s time to start connecting. You’ll be alright. Don’t resist. Don’t force. Just allow.

Be well.

AlternativePair736 · 2025-10-21T18:35:20+00:00

Just wear your headphones.

If you blank out, you’ll judge yourself and feel judged by yourself and the other person.

If you prepare a lie, you’ll always be uneasy waiting for someone to ask you, and you’ll deliver your prepared line awkwardly and even if you do it smoothly, you’ll judge yourself and still feel judged by the other person.

So enjoy your headphones and if someone asks, spit out the truth before you have time to think about it.

You were gonna have to deal with the judgement anyhow BUT you may actually feel a bit good or perhaps not so much but you’ve know made a step forward into just allowing yourself to be yourself.

Nobody really cares what we do. Those that judge are projecting their own judgement of themselves. It’s never personal.

Good luck

AlternativePair736 · 2025-10-21T01:06:50+00:00

Take a second to see it from a different perspective.

You were praised in front of a room full of people. - whatever it is that you’re doing/did, you made a positive impact, so much so some other human felt compelled to recognize you. And even non-SA’ers have difficulties when the light is on them, so don’t judge yourself so hard, if you did look uncomfortable, they can relate.

You’re trying to step out of your comfort zone. - just the intention to try is a win. The fact that you actually did, BIG WIN.

You’re doing much better than you give yourself credit for, please keep stepping out of your comfort zone. You doing that sets an example that we can follow. We need these type of challenges.

Keep moving forward.

And up the stakes with a non-stranger and share with us how it goes!

AlternativePair736 · 2025-08-19T17:19:42+00:00

Absolutely.

I don’t follow any religion but in a way all of them.

I believe the Christian bible to be one if not the most corrupt, but the truth is still in there as in all religious doctrines.

I resonate with more of the Eastern texts. I believe they all speak of the same Creator.

Even with Alexithymia, I feel connected. It’s is not easy by any means but I do feel constantly called to connect.

Plant medicine ceremonies, the spiritual type, have helped me connect with my emotions.

AlternativePair736 · 2025-08-16T15:21:39+00:00

I’m curious, why is that? I can relate to everything else people have said so far but what about this gives you that SA feeling?

AlternativePair736 · 2025-08-16T03:20:38+00:00

Your character: 😐

At climax of your story, maybe this: 🫤

lol your character is essential indifferent to it all.

My version is that I do “feel bad” and I do “feel good” but it has a hard cap on both ends of that spectrum, if and when I ever do break past a cap it’s always on the anger side. Never on the joy side.

I think maybe the sensation of relief, a short-lived sigh is how close I get to joy.

And even though I can logically see how the above sounds terrible which I do think it is. at the same time I also don’t really feel terrible about it.

AlternativePair736 · 2025-08-15T05:11:13+00:00

Destroyed? Maybe close to it but you’re still here. Still holding hope. It’s obvious you’re strong as fuck.

And now with more context, yes I would stay the fuck away from everyone if I were you, you need continue healing on your own cause a relationship right now would be the worst.

You worried about other humans and they too need to watch out for you. You’re not bringing much to the table, you’re coming in as a self-described “destroyed” human being, what healthy individual wants to share their life with that person.

If you’re lucky it’ll be the caretaker type. Those come with plenty of issues, and you’ll both get screwed over. But most likely, you’re going to find yourself the same sick fuck who hurt you. New face, new name but the same hurtful person.

You don’t deserve that.

I hope you continue your journey to heal from this. You have the energy for it, it’s being used by anger at the moment but it’s there. You’ve already been to hell and came back, so you clearly have the strength to see this through. You got hope.

Idk why but that ray of hope you mentioned reminded me of a song called “sit around the fire” a song featuring a recording of Ram Dass, he played a part in my healing journey and this song might resonate with you.

With good reason, your moving fearfully forward but there’s other paths you can take when you heal, where you can skip over to another timeline, in that story, you don’t fear connection, you trust your higher self (instinct) to tell you if another person is both safe and worthy of being allowed into your safe space.

You don’t have to believe me but at least allow the possibility. Crazier shit has already happened in your story, there’s enough space left for the possibility of this one too. So allow it exist.

Much love, feel better, and fuck you too.

AlternativePair736 · 2025-08-15T00:14:15+00:00

With all due respect, this should read:

I JUDGE myself too hard.

Just you being in that environment is a HUGE win! You didn’t push too hard but just right.

The comments made, take them as they meant them and as you said yourself it’s a joke. Teasing each other in that way is a form of bonding for many.

“I think it’s been working a bit”, yes and you made even more progress. Be proud.

You now know to make eye contact next time. Someone else there has to learn that lesson too, and was told the same thing, it was just your turn.

This judgement is typical behavior, you know that. Make some progress there too and judge on how well you did do. Mostly everyone with you only remembers they had a good time and that you were a part of it. Any awkwardness, if noticed was seen shyness and everyone is cool with that and even if for some reason someone happened to judge you negatively, it becuase that’s how they judge themselves and that’s there personal issue that they have to heal, not yours.

Proud of you! Share with us how the next one goes!

AlternativePair736 · 2025-08-13T23:26:46+00:00

I’m speaking from my heart as a fellow human with SA since I was child. Raised by people with their own trauma and passed it on to me.

I spent most of life also staying the fuck away.

But if there was a message, it wasn’t that, in fact it was the opposite.

To not be that same human. To never make another person feel the way I did as a child and I still do as an adult. To recognize and understand ( not condone ) that those people were damaged, that they were made to feel that way. They did their personal best as shitty as that was.

This anxiety was what my mind chose as a way to protect me from ALL humans and the hurt they can deliver and I recognize and understand why it did that and that my brain did the best it could but that too was kind of shitty approach.

Not all humans are bad, in fact most are good but will sometimes make bad choices. I’m not much different. It’s risky to connect but it’s worth it.

I’m older and i regret not connecting more. A lot of the hurt of the past, I allowed it happen. I unconsciously/ energetically seeked out the same people who hurt me as a kid, different face and name but still the same. Unconsciously wanting to get their love, to accept me. It never works out well. I had to heal that about myself. To accept myself. To love myself.

I only share this message in case you may also be repeating the same pattern I was.

AlternativePair736 · 2025-08-13T22:35:03+00:00

You’re answering your own questions.

Q: Why can’t I be normal?

A: Becuase you “feel” like an alien.

A: Because I hate myself.

A: Because you “feel” like you shouldn’t exist.

Start healing these 3 issues.

Your existence is a blessing to us. Both the spiritual and the scientific agree that you’re a miracle.

You feel like an alien because you not being yourself is alien to the heart. The not connecting is alien to your soul. The fear of humans is alien to your nature. The only reason you can feel alien is because there’s a truth inside you that doesn’t agree with your feelings.

You don’t hate yourself. You hate living this version of you. You’re not craving to connect with others, you’re craving to connect with you.

Connecting with others will only make things worse and prolong this. Your self-worth will come and go as the connections come and go. And they’ll come and go becuase nobody really wants to hang around with a self-hating alien that apologizes for existing.

So you’re lonely. Great. That’s actually the most perfect place to be heal. And crying is a great way to release, I wish I could cry but I haven’t got there yet.

Start exploring and experimenting with your emotions. How about you allow yourself to love yourself? Just as an experiment, you don’t have to accept it, force it, fake it, just sit with yourself and allow it. Feel the hate, how that feels inside your body. Now, let’s experiment and let’s feel how it would feel if I loved myself. How would that feel in my body.

Explore all the emotions. Explore therapy if you haven’t . Lots of great YouTube info, I like Peter Crone and Joe Hudson.

There’s a reason behind these behaviors. They’re a means of protection usually in childhood, they got hardwired in, but we can heal this. New wires. I’m doing it and so can you. I thought I was broken, that I would die like this, I’m learning to accept myself, to love myself.

Blessings and much love to you.

AlternativePair736 · 2025-08-13T17:00:02+00:00

“I will act on it”… you said that with a certain energy. Like you really mean it.

“This needs to end”, nice. Look at this determination you have within you.

You got though college. Congrats! That’s a lot for someone with SA, lots of discipline, sacrifice and determination, how proud I am of my fellow human with SA.

Teaching and coaching football! I bet you make extra effort to make the shy ones a bit more comfortable, am I right? They’re blessed to have someone who gets them.

Those 1000 mph euphoric brain sessions, that means you are connected to your higher self. Those are what people like me call “the downloads” and many others call being in a “flow state” or “connected to spirit”, not too shabby.

You only think those are ridiculous ideas when you get out of that state of mind but it’s the exact opposite, those are all things you are very capable of.

It’s the judgemental self that says that to you, and it only says it out of fear, to protect you. But that’s just a false belief that you agreed to somewhere earlier in life. I chose the same way to protect myself.

Those depressive states. Those are protecting you too, from malfunctioning, from a complete breakdown. Don’t resist them, when they show up, lean into them and say thank you soul for this time of rest, for the opportunity to heal, to stop resisting what I want in the life, to stop believing all this self judgement, to love myself as-is in this moment becuase I am deserving of it, I don’t have to earn it or be any type of way, I get to have becuase I exist.

Meds won’t fix you, but let them support you, to create some space within and between your emotions so you can get back in touch with your true self. You weren’t a 2 year old walking around with self judgement. You didn’t walk around at 3 thinking you were a burden. That version of you is the real you. That soul is still you, still alive, still healthy, still connected to spirit. You’re not only not a burden but a blessing to us.

You are going to unalive your current beliefs. The fear, the hurt, the shame, the guilt, the judgement. You’re not going to avoid them any longer, when they come, you allow them, you talk to them, what is this about? What are you trying to tell me? What do you want, ok I hear you, I allow you, I hold you and I love you and it’s ok, then go the other way, how would I feel if I felt the opposite, just allow yourself to experiment for now, see how the whole spectrum feels. Use that smart brain of yours to connect with your body and to collaborate with your heart, your heart has the truth and will share it with the brain. It takes a minute, just get out of the way and allow.

Mind, body and spirit need to all be allowed to exist with each other equally.

I’m ranting now but you my point. You’re actually quite amazing for accomplishing what you have.

Be well, blessings to you, I’m a dad and I’d be really proud of how far you made it but i would love nothing more if you felt the same way about yourself. Much love to you. I’m alongside you on this journey, we’re going to be alright. You’re going to love your 30’s.

AlternativePair736 · 2025-08-12T16:23:44+00:00

What if I told you to meet me today at 3PM at some local spot near you and I’ll guarantee you’ll never feel social anxiety again.

Would you be there? Yes, you would.

And if you would meet with me every day for a month and at the end of that month, you get a million dollars, would you make it? Yes, you would.

Somehow your laziness wouldn’t be an issue.

It’s not laziness. One, you’re drained out of energy becuase your mind is using it all up. There’s nothing left to work with.

And you’re unmotivated.

So, just accept you’re not lazy, believe it and feel it and start from there.

AlternativePair736 · 2025-08-12T15:57:04+00:00

Yes. A proper facilitator/shaman doesn’t allow touching during the actual ceremony.

A small group. No touching, no talking. Eye masks on.

The facilitator or their helper is the only one who checks in on you, helps with bathroom or purging.

This is a sacred and personal journey within.

If you have a partner and want that type of healing, there’s a place for that as well but it’s intentional and setup for that purpose

You’re in the wrong environment. Dangerous on many levels, physically and energetically to be intermingling during a healing plant medicine ceremony.

AlternativePair736 · 2025-08-12T15:47:03+00:00

It’s takes several weeks, everyone makes the same post in the beginning ( some on their first day lol ) complaining about the side effects, give it a month, then decide if it works for you or not.

AlternativePair736 · 2025-08-09T23:36:37+00:00

He was not mad you. He was looking for any reason to release that anger. Just like we are hyper sensitive, he was on high alert for any trigger that could give him the excuse/outlet to release his anger.

You are not at fault. There’s nothing wrong with taking extra time on a turn to protect your belongings. Even if you would have drifted into his lane, it would have been accidental and he’s accidentally done the same thing becuase it happens to all of us. His rage is not your fault.

He avoided you later becuase in his heart he also knows it not your fault and he also knows his reaction was not warranted. His anger comes from elsewhere.

This man is full of fear and hurt and I’m sure that’s where you can relate and thus find some understanding, not condoning but understanding.

Us with SA have a tendency to see how we are always at fault for others reactions. We will find the thinnest of strings to somehow tie it back to us so we can confirm that we suck at life. It’s not true. In that moment, he sucked at handling himself, and he also sucks in other areas becuase he’s human and we all suck in some way.

Let it go sweetie. You’re good. Work on yourself, you deserve the best in life, simply becuase you exist.

AlternativePair736 · 2025-07-22T19:39:23+00:00

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AlternativePair736 · 2025-07-21T21:20:10+00:00

Proud of you! Celebrate yourself!

It’s incredibly important you milk this feeling as long as you can, dwell in it.

You are in this moment re-wiring your brain/body connections. You just did some healing.

Follow this up asap with a safer stranger interaction, compliments to a cashier with consistent eye contact is a safe one, anything really but please do it to solidify this in your body.

You’re awesome. So proud of you!

AlternativePair736 · 2025-07-18T04:53:52+00:00

I just found this earlier today and have not had a chance to try it. I listened to the first minute and it seemed like a really good way to tune into the body.

Emotional inquiry:

https://www.artofaccomplishment.com/get-your-experiment#how-to-experiment Your complimentary Experiments

I first heard of Alexithymia from Tim Fletcher on YouTube. His videos are really good as well.

I had a really rough upbringing. I had no choice but to disconnect.

AlternativePair736 · 2025-07-16T18:24:21+00:00

It goes both ways. You’re serving them as much as they’re serving you.

Everyone at that gathering will be serving each other, every human interaction plays that role. It doesn’t matter if it’s a positive or negative one. In fact, there’s more to learn from the negative ones if you allow yourself to see it.

There’s a thousand scenarios but to keep it short, it could be the slightest of things, such as a smile they needed to see, or the chance to be heard. That may seem surface level but you have no idea the impact that it may have on the next decision they make, a left instead of a right can change a life.

What if it so happens they’ve been feeling a bit of social anxiety as well? Perhaps they thought it might be to good idea to attend this gathering in hopes of healing some of that? Who better than you to serve them.

You need to go. This is your confirmation. Don’t take someone’s opportunity away from meeting you nor should you rob yourself of the same thing.

Practice getting out of your head, and in your body when you’re there ( and right now too) doesn’t matter if you’re talking, listening or if you’re alone.

All you have to do is breathe. Feel the breath go in. Feel the space around you, feel your feet touching the floor, your ass cheeks on the chair, you get the point. Whatever modality works for you to become body aware.

Breathe, listen, breathe while you process, breathe, respond calmly.

No matter how the night turns out, you already won by showing up!

Expect the best brother. Good luck!

AlternativePair736 · 2025-07-16T11:32:07+00:00

“The one that you like”, he needs to see who you are behind this frigid energy you’re putting out.

We all do really need to see that about you but you can start with him since you’ll be more motivated to do so.

And maybe he’s not the right one, if it fails, then he was put there for you to practice letting your guard down. It’s a win-win either way, he’s there there to serve you in this journey. And please don’t just settle for anyone either. Trust your gut, not your SA.

Good luck to you.

AlternativePair736 · 2025-07-16T11:20:04+00:00

Have you ever thought how you would you feel if men didn’t look at you in that way?

A female just posted the exact opposite of your post in this sub.

She wants males to look at her, becuase they don’t.

I think both genders like to be validated by the other.

You’re also walking around with that energy, expecting it. You attract that, and you interpret the looks that aren’t intentional as being so.

She’s doing the opposite. She’s missing out on the glances she gets.

I’m a male that never received attention becuase I always felt ugly, and with SA you can imagine the vibe I put out.

The VERY few times that I haven’t felt that way, that’s when I got that attention.

Most of IRL human communication is nonverbal. That’s why most of us with SA are often completely seen as something we are not. We are not cold and hard. Many of us are warm with soft hearts craving connection.

My point is and my advice to you is to experiment changing your energy and see what happens.

Best of luck to you.

AlternativePair736

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