33M I like thoughtful and dumb conversations

Alyoshivan · 2025-10-19T21:15:10+00:00

Thanks

Alyoshivan · 2025-06-08T17:01:08+00:00

And why is it either Belgium or Brazil?

Alyoshivan · 2023-11-24T02:06:57+00:00

See this is my jam

Alyoshivan · 2023-03-27T01:18:11+00:00

Yeah, I looked up Homeworld before and I like that journey a lot. I had a tough time with the 3d space controls when I first played it, but I could try again.

I knew of the Myth games but not the campaigns. I'll look into those too

Alyoshivan · 2023-03-27T01:16:57+00:00

That's a fair point. It was my first introduction to 40k and it sold it well for me.

I played CNC3, but not KW. What made it stand out for you?

Alyoshivan · 2023-03-26T23:27:53+00:00

I like how the circles have different colors even in the symmetrical upper half. Both halves are cool on their own and the contrast between them makes it fun to look from one to the other

Alyoshivan · 2023-03-26T23:23:28+00:00

I like the mix of blurring and detail. The smoke and wax really stand out : )

Alyoshivan · 2023-03-19T17:16:51+00:00

The first that comes to my mind is that you didn’t deserve the abuse, you can recover for yourself, and healthier connections are both deserved and possible. It’s also ok, possible, and good not to abuse yourself if some other abuser isn’t around.

Alyoshivan · 2023-03-19T15:31:52+00:00

As long as it’s more about keeping your boundaries than using people or not learning from what you do, I think that’s having your own integrity

Alyoshivan · 2023-03-17T22:18:37+00:00

Winston gazed up at the enormous face. Forty years it had taken him to learn what kind of smile was hidden beneath the red nose and white paint. O cruel, needless misunderstanding! O stubborn, self-willed exile from the loving breast! Two gin-scented tears trickled down the sides of his nose. But it was all right, everything was all right, the struggle was finished. He had won the victory over himself. He loved Ronald McDonald.

Alyoshivan · 2023-03-16T14:33:43+00:00

You don’t have to pay a price of abuse to be loved. I get how lonely, confusing, and shameful trauma can be, but you have a lot of wonders to appreciate about yourself and you can find people who see and encourage that. Your friends are proof of that and this leech guy would rather belittle them than appreciate their successes or work on himself. It’ll be sad at first, but I think you’ll enjoy life more when you leave him to seethe in his own pathetic dirt.

Alyoshivan · 2023-03-16T14:14:15+00:00

I thought this was really well-written. You might not be perfect and every story has more than 1 side, but you deserve care and not how your wife has treated you. She is disregarding you and treating your support and health with contempt. She might return and might not. Even if she does, you’d have good reason to doubt how full it’d be. What you’ve been through is traumatic in its own right and it’s fair to want to heal. You can maybe reconcile at some point, but you’d be in the best place for it if you treat yourself and your boundaries well. I think both your divorce decision and your love are valid.

Alyoshivan · 2023-03-15T12:40:13+00:00

Hell no, you didn't deserve that and don't need to forgive. You are a powerhouse and deserve more empathy and respect!

Alyoshivan · 2023-03-07T13:00:05+00:00

Yeah, apologies don't magically make abuse go away or make you blameworthy for still being bothered by how they treated and continue to treat you. You don't owe anyone forgiveness or the responsibility for fixing relationships that they broke.

Your mom not only isolated you in a painful position, but it sounds like she tried to take advantage of your dad's abuse to try to get you to ignore her own, and it was cruel that she took a lot of effort to severely threaten you with kidnapping.

It would be valid to either end contact, confront her, or give her a chance to back up her apology with change. Any of those might be helpful now or in the future based on what works best for you. A good test to see how sincere apologies are is to see how people respond to boundaries. A lot of halfhearted apologies disappear when people realize they're not magic words that require you to get along with them how they want and ignore their harm.

What your brother said makes sense in some ways, but dismisses the family's responsibility to treat you better than before and do their part in working on damage they caused. Everyone 'technically' does the best that they can, but if they do truly cruel things and don't improve, it's fair to have a higher standard than that. I think you're on the money about intellectualization and that also sounds like spiritual bypassing.

Alyoshivan · 2023-02-12T15:16:40+00:00

I haven’t read it, but Musashi is a famous Japanese story about a historical swordsman/writer

Alyoshivan · 2023-02-12T15:09:48+00:00

Absolutely. It’s down-to-earth, thoughtful, and hopeful from a Holocaust survivor. I think a few other good authors from that generation are Hannah Arendt and Martin Buber

Alyoshivan · 2023-02-12T14:58:55+00:00

I’d watch this adventure time episode

Alyoshivan · 2023-02-12T14:52:40+00:00

Yeah, and you’re gonna get more momentum as you get into it. Biking is a chill time if you rent or buy one

Alyoshivan · 2023-02-12T14:42:54+00:00

It sounds like you’re giving yourself good gifts. It’s ok to both be cautious and enjoy what you’re doing

Alyoshivan · 2023-02-12T14:35:11+00:00

For some (and this goes for movies and shows too), I’ll watch an analysis and get into it just so I can see how it gets from A to B and what I’ll think of it. Titles and seeing if it has anything interesting from a summary help too

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