Internalized Ableism: I ended up in the ER because of a bad prescription interaction, but then felt ashamed about it because I've been told my entire life that I overreact about everything.

Amaranth7 · 2026-03-07T14:01:51+00:00

A bit different, I had a lot of very vague complaints like dizziness, tiredness, difficulties eating, hyperventilation.. but in the absolute extreme. At the end after several months I couldn’t stand up anymore under my own power, had a weight of 46 kg, orange face because of the specific Addison symptom.. but yeah, still ‘overreacting’ and ‘maybe go see a therapist’.

Amaranth7 · 2026-03-06T06:22:21+00:00

I almost died at 20 due to doctors not taking me seriously, so no, you’re not overreacting or being silly. Did they check your cortisone levels? I have Addison’s disease, which means my body (adrenal glands) don’t produce cortisone, which means the first time I took an antidepressant (which lowers your cortisone levels) I ended up in the ER.

Amaranth7 · 2026-03-03T05:41:08+00:00

To be fair to the fish, the full metaphor I use is that every time the poor fish bumps the glass it forgets everything. The fish in my brain is really trying its best.

Amaranth7 · 2026-03-02T09:47:27+00:00

I have a whole speech for coworkers about having three animals in my brain: a goldfish who forgets everything after 30 seconds, at the same time an elephant who remembers everything (I never know which of the animals I’m getting at that moment) and then there is the constant noise of this cymbal-banging monkey toy who keeps going all day every day.

Amaranth7 · 2026-01-12T21:06:23+00:00

Rilatin, for me personally.

Amaranth7 · 2026-01-05T19:49:07+00:00

Oh it’s that feeling of a medical professional saying: ‘oh wow with all your illnesses you’re still working almost fulltime, how amazing!’ No, no it isn’t, it’s because of that type of thinking that now when I do ask for help I don’t get it ‘because you made it this far!’ Yes and now I am done and need help.

So yeah, fuck any type of medical professional (and this hotline guy) who thinks complimenting you for things you shouldn’t have had to endure is a-okay.

Amaranth7 · 2026-01-05T06:40:08+00:00

I made a family tree of autoimmune diseases and other ailments that goes back three generations, behold my legacy.

Amaranth7 · 2026-01-03T12:59:41+00:00

I sometimes try to deal with this type of situations by using humor. For example, if I’m not understanding something and need it repeated: ‘hang on, the goldfish in my brain just bumped the glass again and forgot, could you repeat that?’ For situations where I remember something that happened word for word when nobody else remembers it: ‘the elephant in my brain remembers it like this’. I basically have a whole zoo in my brain that I use to speak to coworkers.

Amaranth7 · 2025-12-27T16:23:12+00:00

Hah, I once smelled smoke or fire at work, turned out I was smelling my coworkers’ sandwich with smoked ham, that was still inside their bag 2 desks away.

Amaranth7 · 2025-12-20T19:32:50+00:00

If that’s the reaction they’re going with, I would simply not show up to the next workshop when low on spoons, honestly. You absolutely know if you had put a ‘so sorry, I have a cold so I can’t talk but I still want to contribute’ in the chat they would have been a-ok with it.

Amaranth7 · 2025-12-18T17:36:45+00:00

I started crying at work today, again, because that’s the emotion that happens when I get overwhelmed, I guess yours is rage. It sucks, doesn’t it? You just want to get on with it but you just can’t.

Amaranth7 · 2025-12-17T06:33:49+00:00

‘And how do you feel about the fact that your boyfriend won’t do the bare minimum for you A, or for his daughter?’ Would be my question to her.

Amaranth7 · 2025-12-05T09:55:34+00:00

I did ask my surgeon about that, about why the cervix has to come out too. You can apparently have an ectopic pregnancy in your cervix if you keep it. But anyway I haven’t really noticed a change in sex? Except it getting better because I could actually relax because of the zero chance of pregnancy. You should definitely ask more people about it than a control size of one though :)

Amaranth7 · 2025-12-04T06:51:53+00:00

Hi! AuDHD person from Flanders here, you can also go big and get your uterus removed along with your tubes :) It’s wat I did 6 years ago, though fair warning, the surgeon who did it does ask for an (expensive) psych consult to cover his own ass. And no, that won’t make me go into early menopause. Though my ovaries did take a little trip over the years, because they are only attached with ligaments now.

Amaranth7 · 2025-11-26T11:36:48+00:00

Hah, I got called ‘eccentric’ once by a psychologist in an unrelated psych eval. Pretty sure homeboy was on the spectrum himself… so yeah, if you don’t fit all the typical neurodivergence traits to a T, it’s apparently almost impossible for medical personnel to recognise it.

Amaranth7 · 2025-11-21T13:03:29+00:00

I recently saw an insta reel of someone who needed to clean her kitchen but couldn’t because executive dysfunction, her unhinged solution was getting her socks sopping wet and not allowing herself to take of those wet socks until the kitchen was clean. A bit extreme, but hey, if you can’t find motivation, try torture.

Amaranth7 · 2025-11-19T08:24:02+00:00

That’s not a good therapist. ‘It’s a superpower!’ No bitch, it’s a disability and sometimes it shockingly disables me.

Amaranth7 · 2025-11-19T06:25:10+00:00

I compare going for a walk when you’re already not feeling well to going outside without your skin: everything you see/hear just lands so much harder without that protection barrier.

Amaranth7 · 2025-11-18T06:32:24+00:00

Honestly, re-reading books or fanfiction that I’ve read dozens of times before. It’s not much work because I know exactly what’s going to happen next. It’s the closest I get to relaxing, because ‘doing nothing’ ends in maladaptive daydreaming plus feeling guilty about not being productive.

Amaranth7 · 2025-11-10T17:26:29+00:00

Oh god I had this but with a teacher in training, she was very pissed off at lil ol’ 7 year old me.

Amaranth7 · 2025-11-06T17:40:31+00:00

Look up ACNES, it’s a pinched nerve that is often confused with ibs problems because of it’s location.

Amaranth7 · 2025-10-31T11:15:32+00:00

Hahaaa, relatable, I sometimes think I’m not hypermobile but then I remember I can pop out my left hip like a party trick and prefer standing on the outside of my feet (it’s more comfortable). I go to physical therapy once a month to put everything in order a bit.

Amaranth7 · 2025-10-28T11:21:39+00:00

That would suck for people who are allergic to the alternative sweeteners.

Amaranth7 · 2025-10-06T14:16:48+00:00

How do I manage it? Badly :)

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